u/Outrageous-Cake-2110

How the absolute fuck do people like this it smells like shit it tastes like shit and i can still taste it like bro i rather smoke a cotton candy blue berry razz sweet sugar shit then this.

Well shit theres like 15 total. There was vibrators a big dildo, lace underwear and a lot of lube. I dont even know what i was looking for it just popped out of my head When I saw it, I was just going to sleep it off, and if I don't talk, they won't talk. Any advice or just keep your mouth shut.

I just relapsed while watching Minecraft. I was clean for a week. It's not bad; it's like three deepish styros. I say "deepish" because it's about 0.5-0.6 cm wide and it's white and very slightly yellow I bandaged myself up, cleaned the wound, and everything. I'm not really mad; I'm just annoyed at myself.

Here is the drive link if yall want to read it

Here is the full timeline: Right now, at 17:33, I drank 150ml or 9g of blue lotus wine. At 18:00, it felt pretty good. I went and played Minecraft for 1 hour and 33 minutes, but it felt like 20 minutes. I feel relaxed; all my anxiety went away. Everything feels a little bit better. The wine probably contributes to the feeling, but everything feels nice. Oh, and food tastes like heaven, and I feel tired, but not like bad tired—it's like the good kind of tired. I will update tomorrow and go into the details of the winemaking.

I want to believe. I read the Bible, I went to church, I talked to religious people, I prayed, but for the life of me, I physically cannot believe. It's always just "believe," but I'm trying. I want to believe there's an afterlife like heaven. I'm jealous of those people who can have faith in a god who can influence the outcome of a decision.

Right now, I would say I'm a agnostic because I can believe a god is the universe but has no say in the world, but I don't believe in organized religion.

I want to say there is no hate in my words for anyone.