u/Past-Host-4124

Recently I noticed that I’ve been getting hiccups more and I used to think is was just certain food that would cause it but after looking at this sub I think I’m coming to terms it’s less about the food causing it versus gerd related 😅 for example pizza and chicken were my biggest suspects for ages. Guess I’ll have to adjust my diet a bit thi cause between the esophagus spasm and this current bout of hiccups I fear I’m never gonna a get a break tonight.

I’ve been trying to get in things like beans more recently to up my potassium as I don’t respond to drink mixes much so if anyone has so gerd friendly tips of what to eat. I’d greatly appreciate it.

Maybe this comes off as weird but for those who had a lot of blood work done cbc and basics mb’s were there any latte era you noticed with mold exposure?

I’m seeing a less then friendly doctor on friday and before I try to go over stuff with her again to hopefully understand a root problem I’m wondering if there’s anything that might be missed that isn’t obvious that I should try and bring up.

So I’m gonna be asking a doctor for a mycotoxins test this week and in the event that me and my cants are being poisoned what kind of things do I have to throw out?

There’s certain things like signed book collections and a couple of childhood items I really want to avoid parting with as well as tons of electronics so I’m just feeling kinda overwhelmed with knowing what can stay and what can’t as some items genuinely are not replaceable.

Of course if it comes down to it health wise I understand having to get rid of it.

I’m already planning to throw out my mattresses as we found mold in one last night when we removed the cover to be washed after I accidentally spilt a frosty. This mattress isn’t one we keep set up either typically just set inside a closet and pulled out when we have guests or do a movie night in another room

I’m in a really bad mental state rn and I want to cleanse my life so to speak for example:

-social media followings
- friends
- family
- closet
- clutter
- etc

I really just need a deep and complete reset. Any advice on things to do or where to start would be great.

I got into an argument with you today….

You said I’m not doing anything to try and get better….
It’s like you don’t even see all the doctor visits or the rehab for anxiety and all the meds I’ve tried….
You don’t even see the progress I’ve made this last month because of the flare in my panic attacks the last couple weeks….
You keep holding my worst moments over my head and the fact that my own mother has abandoned me….
And now you’re saying your whole family wants to pay you to leave me…..

So why don’t you….
You’re clearly not in love as much as you try to convince yourself….and it’s pretty obvious to me that your happiness around me is conditional on the fact that I’m healthy and have money….

And at the moment I don’t have either….so why…why don’t you leave like everyone else…..you have before…. You only came back cause you were on the lease and had no other choice…..

You’ve always meant the world to me… and I’ve always left the door open for you to leave…. So I don’t understand…. all I’ve become is a burden that you can’t stand….. you blame me for not having enough time for friends or anyone else but you don’t actually spend time with me….

You come home and go straight to your computer and if I so much as interrupt then all of a sudden I’m needy and whiney…..and if your mom calls I’m not allowed to ask about it otherwise I’m demanding…. And if I even ask to see your phone to look at something you accuse me of going through it…. But I don’t…. Sure I’ve seen messages people have sent you….. but I don’t sit there and look for stuff normally I’ll just let you know about a notification or something….

You complain that I hate everyone but I don’t…I don’t like what they say about me, but I don’t hate them…. There’s one singular friend of yours I dislike and that’s because of how he speaks about his own wife. If it was any other guy speaking that way you’d agree….heck you offered to knock some sense into a friend’s husband today for that very sort of reason….

You’ve become the very person you used to be afraid of turning into back in high school…

I bet you haven’t even noticed I can talk for longer periods of time without having to feel like I’m gasping for breath…. I mean I even yelled earlier…. And I don’t typically do that anyways….but you were threatening to call 911 and tell them I’m suicidal….im not….. not that you’ll ever believe me….and I have taken meds this past month not that you’d notice…not that the anxiety meds do anything since my issue are physically caused not mentally caused.

I just want my partner/best friend back….. I hate having the urge to tell you to come home when you’re sitting 5 feet away from me….

Originally o didn’t think I had any nerve damage….unfortunately it would seem the nerves are starting to wake back up….its currently 90 degrees almost all week and I’ve got no air conditioning. I can’t even take a sip of a cold drink cause it sends shooting pain to one of my front teeth shortly after.

Almost one year of living like this…

Constant fatigue
Feeling like my heart rate is too fast
On and off pain in my arm
Insomnia
Headaches
Bouts of low potassium and dehydration
Countless doctor visits
Vertigo
Head pressure
Head rush
Low grade fevers
Hives from the stress
Vision problems
Air hunger

And yet they just keep labeling me as anxiety

I’ve lost so much weight almost 60 lbs worth
And I even had my wisdom teeth removed

So why do I not feel like I’m getting better?

I don’t feel as heavy with the teeth out and yet I’m still so tired….its been 3 weeks and I’m even eating solid food…. Actually had some crunchy pretzels last night…

I lost my job 2 months after this started and honestly I feel so helpless it’s so hard to walk most days. My legs get so crampy and I feel so far away.

The worst part….i know my body can get better….
I’ve had a week here and there where I felt almost perfect…. One of those weeks was right after my teeth got removed…. Sure I was disoriented… but any surgery can do that to ya… I actually felt like I was getting stronger…. And the pins and needles in my feet were going away

I’m trying some low sodium v8 to see if that’ll do anything for me… but I just don’t know….

I want to wake and not feel like I just ran a mile in gym class and my legs need a break…. I would do anything to be able to be my old self again….

My aunt just got diagnosed with a Chianti malformation too so idk maybe it’s a possibility I have it… it’s impossible to know if my dad would have had the same problem because his skull was heavily reconstructed years ago.

I wish there was a magic pill I could take or better yet some sort of Time Machine that could take me back to years before I became like this….

My mother tells me I’m dramatic about my heart rate and that hers spikes all the time… she says a little low potassium isn’t that bad either…. She’s honestly so ignorant….my lowest number was 2.7 if i remember right….

Maybe it’s just a really bad caloric deficit maybe it’s something worse I just don’t know anymore… Ive lost so much hope

Maybe I’ll get better eventually but man I’m so sick of being tired.

So like many of you here I’m currently suffering from a completely disrupted sleep cycle

For context I’ve never slept great but then this last year my wisdom teeth came in and for the first 6 months I had no idea what was leaving me so drained as my doctor just kept telling me I had anxiety.

As a result of so many symptoms and the oversleeping during mainly thanksgiving till around Christmas time over several migraine episodes I just haven’t been able to recover my sleep properly.

I was supposed to have a sleep study done but unfortunately my wisdom teeth removal got pushed back after a failed attempt to sedate me.

Anyways I have my teeth out now and just hit the two week mark so a good portion of my fatigue is gone however im still getting frequent period of fatigue that I suspect is due to my sleep.

I have alarms set throughout the day some for eating others to tell me when to wake up and when to sleep but i just haven’t been able to stick to them and usually end up falling asleep early morning and sleeping till dinner with a few wake ups.

Ive been drinking mostly protein shake and regular water and while i am eating normal food again it’s not a whole lot of sugary stuff, mostly meatballs.

I’ve tried melatonin before but it doesn’t do much for me but leave me groggy later on.

I’ve lost probably about 60 lbs more or less this past year and my snoring and pretty much completely stopped as well.

At this point tho I’m starting to feel hopeless with the fatigue and could really use some pointers

For those of you who switched back to solid foods pretty soon, did you experience any upset stomach or I guess increased anxiety after eating?

I don’t worry about eating anything right now and I know to stay way from things that are too hard or stuff I think will get stuck.

I’ve been off my anti biotic for a couple days now and I’m slowly feeling my strength come back for the first time in months except when I’m actually tired 🥱

Anyways I’ve noticed certain juices and food seem to make my body flip out on me. I don’t know if maybe it’s something with caffeine natural or added or just my stomach being picky so I’m curious how others handled.

I 25F developed my wisdom teeth later and it affected my mental and physical health before I ever had jaw pain. So unfortunately it’s taken a long time to get set up for a removal as most doctors dismissed my symptoms.

I was supposed to get them out Monday but my veins kept rolling so they couldn’t sedate me so I have it scheduled for this Thursday

Anyways my mom and step father have been very cold to me about the entire thing. They just keep telling me to take anti anxiety meds and antipsychotics to deal with it even though after 8 months all of that was shown to be ineffective.

I tried calling my mom on Monday to let her know what happened and all I heard was them berate me and saying it was my fault for being dehydrated and not being able to get the iv line placed….

For reference I’ve been to the er a few times this past year because the inflammation has made it impossible to stay hydrated like you could see my lips peeling really bad and the nurses felt bad for me. Keep in mind I’ve been drinking more than I’ve ever drank just to try and keep hydrated and I’ve also lost like 50 lbs without any major changes.

Today the pressure built up enough in my jaw that my gums started bleeding and I tried to call my mom again but she kind of just yawned and hung up on me.

So idk am I crazy and just overreacting like they keep saying? According to my scans 3 of my 4 teeth are impacted 2 of them are basically sideways. And their bigger then my regular molars.

And if I’m honest it’s not just my parents being like this either…my partners mother is now saying I’m abusive and he should leave me because I’ll never get better…. I didn’t choose to be like this and if I could go back to work I would but the fatigue and anxiety attacks have me limited… I know I rely on my partner a lot more then I would like but I get really bad motion sickness and it make it hard to even walk sometimes.

Her previous husband has some major medical issue and relied on her for a long time so I can semi understand where she’s coming from but being sick doesn’t mean I’m abusive does it?
I’ve had a week here and there through total of this where I felt pretty close to normal and have done my best to help out more with chores and things like that but idk I feel like I’m lacking so badly….

So o was supposed to have my teeth removed on Monday but it got delayed until the 21st cause they couldn’t get my veins to cooperate (go figure 🙄) and while I don’t typically have many questions about recovery stuff I do have a bunch of family coming to visit June 10th and I’m wondering if my holes will be closed up by then? This is the first time in 10 years I’ve seen any of them and they’ve never actually been to this side of the country so I know their gonna want to do stuff and eat at different places. I really don’t have to be watching what I eat while their up here and the teeth being no removed are pretty decently sized then being a bit bigger then my 1st and 2cd molar sets. I also have a pretty big tongue and small jaw so I’m already paranoid about the holes.

I’ve already looked at the identifying SP post but I’m still not certain. It seems like with SP it’s somthing you actively notice as if it lasts for a while?
I know my stress and wisdom teeth could be causing a lot of my sleep issues but idk what kind of category it would fall into.
It’s almost like I’m not conscious to the paralysis but the second I become “aware” I jerk myself awake. Restless leg runs on both sides of the family and I’ve had some experience with jerk awake in the past but never like this.
I did have a bit of a sensory hallucination the other night as well where I noticed my hand felt really warm. And sometimes it feels like I can’t breathe. But I’m not sure if it’s a true unable to breath feeling or my holding my breath since it sometimes feels like a “jump” rather then pressure i believe.

The last several nights it’s taken me 2-4 attempts to actually get to sleep and I’m already so exhausted that I’m currently at a loss.