Just diagnosed with a short cervix at 20 weeks and I just need to vent to people who get it 😩😩😩
Got hit with a short cervix diagnosis at my anatomy scan this morning. Dynamic, measuring 1.8–2.4 cm. Starting progesterone tonight and hopefully seeing an MFM next week.
I know I should feel grateful the scan caught it. And I do. But I'm also just… exhausted and frustrated. After a previous loss, lots of first trimester bleeding, low fetal heart rate, I feel like I can't just have a normal, boring, uneventful pregnancy. Every time I think we're in the clear, something else. I'm so tired of something else.
And on top of the fear and the new diagnosis to process, my husband and I are supposed to leave for Japan in 12 days. A trip we've been planning for a long time. And almost certainly that's not happening now. I haven't even fully let myself grieve that yet because I'm still in shock from this morning. (We know how lucky we are to even have that trip planned...).
Oh, and it's Memorial Day weekend, so of course I can't get answers from anyone, can't get calls back, can't move anything forward. Just sitting here stewing in it. Oh and to top it off, the OB coordinator didn't even send the referrals for me to try and call and get scheduled for next week ASAP until 4:45pm today — and that's only after i emailed three different people and called 3 times. The doctor had written urgent in it!!! The whole point was for me to get the appointment TODAY for next week hopefully.
Just needed somewhere to say: this is hard, and I'm allowed to be upset about all of it at once.
Why can't anything just be fucking normal!!!!!