u/Pineapplepizza4unp

I made another attempt a week ago. I was in the ICU for a few says and psych jail. I’m glad I got out. Don’t be a dummy like me

I ordered a chipotle bowl and my tummy hurts too much. Is it because of having non hospital food for the first time? I’m pretty sure I’m now allowed to take any additional meds. What can I do?

I have cptsd and crippling depression which have affected my life. I’ve been hospitalised to psych wards a lot of times. This messed up with my PM. In 2022, I attempted and almost died. I was hospitalised to ortho unit fore 5-6 weeks. My major trauma was my femur. I shattered my femur. I got multiple surgeries and I’ve been struggling so bad with my mobility for years. When I visited my local PM for crazy fracture pain, PM said they won’t prescribe me any because they think I will OD. So, I was prescribed on oxycodone by my surgeon. I’m off for 2 years now. This time, I have different issues. I’ve been cutting deeply and I’m dealing with nerve pain. I stopped doing it 2-3 weeks ago, but the symptoms are getting worse. Yesterda, my left hand was so shaky. My hands are shaky usually so I take meds for it. However, my hand shook crazy which resulted in not being able to type. Today, my left arm was so sore and weak so I can’t lift an empty pot. My left arm is sore and very painful. If I put some force on it, there’s a certain area that hurts inside like damaged muscle. I’ll have to travel to visit PM since I got banned by my local…. I don’t know how long will it take to get an appointment and I’ll probably have to see a neurosurgeon. Dr. Google said it’s an emergency but my local cares including ER and urgent cares are so bad. How can I manage nerve pain before I see a doctor and what will my treatments be like? Thanks a lot

I’ve been doing this for a long time whenever I did, I hit at least styro. Nerve pain is terrible, I can barely use my both arms. My arms are itchy, feeling hot, and tinggling. I can’t even use a broom and carrying a bag is painful. While I’m writinf this, nerve pain from my forearms is killing me(I’m laying down) I already fucked up with my body in other ways but my body will never normal. I wear long sleeves all the time but that’s not the issue. Physical pain from sh (after they heal) is insane

yay

I’m 2 days clean. It’s embarrassing but I need to get new headphones but I’m broke. I’m considering donating my plasma to get some mone. I will try my best to stay clean so I can donate it.