u/PlaneLeader8175

I lost a few off my pets recently , I had 4 and they’re all getting old . I lost the first in September and I just lost another at the weekend. I can’t deal with the pain , I can’t believe it’s over , I just can’t believe they’re actually gone by let’s are everything to me.

I can’t stop thinking about when I had it all; thinking about years ago sitting with my full family and my 4 pets in our house , why can’t that have just last forever , I would do anything to back and do it again . It hurts so much to know I can never have that again , it’s over I truly believe those could have been the best years of my life and looking back now I wish I could tell myself that because now I know how much it hurts to have lost that I would do anything just to savour those moments and years.

I hate life , I have a fear of dying , like I’m in therapy for it. I can’t accept that everything good comes to an end, I can’t accept that I’ll never see loved ones again and that one day I’ll cease to exist. I simply just hate the nature of life why can’t everything stay the same forever I would truly be more than happy with that. I just can’t believe that we will loose it all and everything along the way . Life is to painful why does time have to keep passing .

I had 3 bunnies , I know some ppl don’t value these as pets but rlly they were like dogs to me, they were toilet trained , litter trained and I had they’re full trust they would sit with me like a dog and play I loved them so much .

They were all rescues the first one died approx 7 last September from kidney failure , it was very sudden. The exact same thing happened this Saturday with my second bunny , I am destroyed . I can’t believe I’m never going to see them again and they’re dead , it’s beyond heartbreaking I just can’t . Ur not supposed to keep bunnies alone but my last one has a chronic condition that’s contagious so I can’t get her a new friend ( we are very lucky somehow the other 2 didn’t catch this ) I know theyres a chance they might not but it can be fatal and it’s not fair . I also selfishly can’t Continue this cycle ; she’s almost 7 and I hope she has more years in her but I just can’t keep going through pets it’s heartbreaking .

My dogs almost 15 too , she had major surgery last year and it was terrifying , we didn’t think she would make it but she did and I couldn’t be more grateful but I’m very aware she’s still old .

Anyway thanks for the rant , i guess we never think how upsetting this is when we get pets

Seeing old people make me deeply depressed because I feel physically sick that I will be that old one day , okay maybe I won’t be and I’ll die of cancer or something which is equally depressing . Anytime I see old ppl I just feel so bad for them and I’m like I can’t believe that will be me one day I don’t want to ever be that old . I’m scared of mortality and I’m scared of just loosing the ability to do whatever I want.

Hi everybody ,

I had an existential crisis a while back which is causing my depression and anxiety , I’ve gotten into a rlly dark hole of just not seeing the purpose of life just to die .

Does anyone have a genuine reasons they believe in afterlife like they experiences something beyond just random coincidences ?

I come from a scientific background , and currently science says no afterlife, conciseness is a function of the brain ; that’s a whole other subreddit so I’ll spare that I’m trying to rlly believe in the theory of conciseness being fundamental.

Anyway I know theyres NDEs, reincarnation I’ve read a lot of these but science tries to explain other reasons for them so I struggle to believe them I dno im looking for anything to calm me down and help me try live my life without my extreme death anxiety.

Hi everyone , sorry if this one is a bit of a downer but I would massively appreciate any form of help or advice .

I’m terrified of dying and I mean terrified. It has really hit me hard this past week for some reason I have not stopped crying and having panick attacks constantly everyday for the past week now it is dehabiliting and ruining my life. I have tried talking to my mum and boyfriend but nothing helps i am a nervous reck . I have been trying to distract myself as much as possible.

I’m 24 I know it’s young but please don’t tell me that as a way to get over this because it’s not helping . Dying is inevitable I know that but I’m so scared of losing all my loved one and not existing anymore, like just dying one day and they’re being nothing like it was before I was born. I wish I believed in spirituality or some kind of afterlife but I just don’t. I think a scientific background and think for me it just makes no scientific or logical sense that they’re is I think the conciseness is contained within brains activity and that’s it . A lot of people say energy cannot be created or destroyed I know that but I think when we die our energy is just transformed into plants or thermal energy depending on whether we are buried or cremated.

I want to believe so much in something else but I don’t know how I just think spirituality or angels etc is like believing in Santa as kid it’s a mechanism to not be scared of death and I mean that in no way to offend anyone.

I don’t know what I’m looking for but any form of help , advice , any sort of way to help me believe in spirituality

Hi everyone I’ve been suffering from anxiety lately and I’m looking for any advice or help idk honestly , I have a few issues so Buckle and and thanks in advance if h make it to the end . ( sorry in advance for bad grammar most likely )

No 1 is since about the age of 20 ( I’m 24 now) I’ve had an advancing fear of death , I don’t know how I went my life ignoring it but one night I was just siting in bed and it dawned on me that one day I’ll die and ever since then I have regular breakdowns over it and cannot get it the thought out my head , just now I’ve been stuck on it for about 4 days and I cannot stop having meltdowns . I know it happens to everyone and it’s inevitable but that just doesn’t help me , it’s the fear of the unknown . I know I’m entirely grateful to think this but I love my life for the most part and I don’t want it to ever end .

Yes I know I say this from a stuck up point of view and again I’m entirely grateful but move communicated this to my mum , my boyfriend and a few friends . My mum says she tries not to ever think about it and my boyfriend and friends are like it’s inevitable so why worry , I just don’t understand how that’s possible how do u not worry ?? I am terrified of the thought they’re is just nothing I want to keep my conciseness and my memories . My boyfriend is like but that’s why we try live life to the fullest because this is our chance etc etc but then I’m like okay but what’s even the point ? If I’m gonna die one day and they’re really is nothing then what’s even the point in creating amazing memories.

I was raised catholic and I wish to much that u could strongly believe in heaven etc but I also am I very scientific person and I just don’t. I like the theory of quantum jumping but it scares me to much that’s its just a theory no one really knows and that terrifies me . I know people say but if it is nothing then u wont know it’s nothing so it’s fine . Okay but that’s terrifying and I don’t want that to be true.

I know people always say like oh energy can’t be destroyed and we are energy , yes correct , but I don’t want to be buried and grow into flowers these are not conscious I want my memories and my loved ones , as I know most people do I don’t want to be a flower. I sound crazy I know I always try to tell myself I am aware I’m not special and a lot of people feel this way but it just doesn’t help .

I’m scared of fleeting time I’m 24 okay I know that’s young but I swear last week I was 16 and every day , every year is going faster , I know so many people say they are 50/60/70 before they know it and it’s just so scary . If I feel like this now I’ll be terrified as I get older and I wish I could just go back a time do forgetting that one day I will die as some ppl just do.

I have health anxiety that stems from this, I convince myself so much I have cancer. It seems like so many ppl now a days catch it when it’s to late and they’re only 40/50 and I’m terrified that will be me, I try to tell myself that’s just something I can’t think about but I know a few ppl who were so healthy and then they just weren’t. I know that most be terrifying and I never want to experience that or I think I will totally loose it ; again I know this sounds selfish no one wants to experience that and it will inevitably end if it’s that bad and you won’t have to live with that fear but again that goes back to my fear of nothing after .

If your still reading here comes my next problem , I just finished a 5 year integrated masters degree in chemistry , it was HARD , near the end especially I sat 7 , 4 hour exams , I turned into a complete nervous mess and it’s a long story but I couldn’t eat, sleep etc and I did end up on anxiety medication but this isn’t something I want to take long term . I would say I fell back into almost a child like state , I relied heavily on my mum for moral support , she slept in my bed with me a lot because I was waking up and having panick attacks during the night .

This comes into my next issue which I find embarrassing but I am scared to move out , I love my parents again I am grateful that I can say that. I have been with my boyfriend 6 years and I love him so much , we have been speaking about looking soon to move out, but that terrifies me I don’t want to leave my parents , I want to see them everyday I know I sound like child. I also do want to see my boyfriend everyday but I don’t know I’m so scared , I just want my life to stay the way it is forever . I guess that comes back to my fear of getting old and everyone getting old and my parents eventually I can’t stand the thought of loosing them as I’m sure many ppl can’t but it terrifies me.

Anyway if anyone bothered to read this thank you and I mean it . I’ve spent the past few days crying and I can’t seem to pull myself out this time . I don’t rlly know how therapy would help no one can stop the inevitable , it’s not like a fear of spiders were I can just choose to avoid them.

Hi everyone I’ve been suffering from anxiety lately and I’m looking for any advice or help idk honestly , I have a few issues so Buckle and and thanks in advance if h make it to the end . ( sorry in advance for bad grammar most likely )

No 1 is since about the age of 20 ( I’m 24 now) I’ve had an advancing fear of death , I don’t know how I went my life ignoring it but one night I was just siting in bed and it dawned on me that one day I’ll die and ever since then I have regular breakdowns over it and cannot get it the thought out my head , just now I’ve been stuck on it for about 4 days and I cannot stop having meltdowns . I know it happens to everyone and it’s inevitable but that just doesn’t help me , it’s the fear of the unknown . I know I’m entirely grateful to think this but I love my life for the most part and I don’t want it to ever end .

Yes I know I say this from a stuck up point of view and again I’m entirely grateful but move communicated this to my mum , my boyfriend and a few friends . My mum says she tries not to ever think about it and my boyfriend and friends are like it’s inevitable so why worry , I just don’t understand how that’s possible how do u not worry ?? I am terrified of the thought they’re is just nothing I want to keep my conciseness and my memories . My boyfriend is like but that’s why we try live life to the fullest because this is our chance etc etc but then I’m like okay but what’s even the point ? If I’m gonna die one day and they’re really is nothing then what’s even the point in creating amazing memories.

I was raised catholic and I wish to much that u could strongly believe in heaven etc but I also am I very scientific person and I just don’t. I like the theory of quantum jumping but it scares me to much that’s its just a theory no one really knows and that terrifies me . I know people say but if it is nothing then u wont know it’s nothing so it’s fine . Okay but that’s terrifying and I don’t want that to be true.

I know people always say like oh energy can’t be destroyed and we are energy , yes correct , but I don’t want to be buried and grow into flowers these are not conscious I want my memories and my loved ones , as I know most people do I don’t want to be a flower. I sound crazy I know I always try to tell myself I am aware I’m not special and a lot of people feel this way but it just doesn’t help .

I’m scared of fleeting time I’m 24 okay I know that’s young but I swear last week I was 16 and every day , every year is going faster , I know so many people say they are 50/60/70 before they know it and it’s just so scary . If I feel like this now I’ll be terrified as I get older and I wish I could just go back a time do forgetting that one day I will die as some ppl just do.

I have health anxiety that stems from this, I convince myself so much I have cancer. It seems like so many ppl now a days catch it when it’s to late and they’re only 40/50 and I’m terrified that will be me, I try to tell myself that’s just something I can’t think about but I know a few ppl who were so healthy and then they just weren’t. I know that most be terrifying and I never want to experience that or I think I will totally loose it ; again I know this sounds selfish no one wants to experience that and it will inevitably end if it’s that bad and you won’t have to live with that fear but again that goes back to my fear of nothing after .

If your still reading here comes my next problem , I just finished a 5 year integrated masters degree in chemistry , it was HARD , near the end especially I sat 7 , 4 hour exams , I turned into a complete nervous mess and it’s a long story but I couldn’t eat, sleep etc and I did end up on anxiety medication but this isn’t something I want to take long term . I would say I fell back into almost a child like state , I relied heavily on my mum for moral support , she slept in my bed with me a lot because I was waking up and having panick attacks during the night .

This comes into my next issue which I find embarrassing but I am scared to move out , I love my parents again I am grateful that I can say that. I have been with my boyfriend 6 years and I love him so much , we have been speaking about looking soon to move out, but that terrifies me I don’t want to leave my parents , I want to see them everyday I know I sound like child. I also do want to see my boyfriend everyday but I don’t know I’m so scared , I just want my life to stay the way it is forever . I guess that comes back to my fear of getting old and everyone getting old and my parents eventually I can’t stand the thought of loosing them as I’m sure many ppl can’t but it terrifies me.

Anyway if anyone bothered to read this thank you and I mean it . I’ve spent the past few days crying and I can’t seem to pull myself out this time . I don’t rlly know how therapy would help no one can stop the inevitable , it’s not like a fear of spiders were I can just choose to avoid them.

Hi everyone I’ve been suffering from anxiety lately and I’m looking for any advice or help idk honestly , I have a few issues so Buckle and and thanks in advance if h make it to the end . ( sorry in advance for bad grammar most likely )

No 1 is since about the age of 20 ( I’m 24 now) I’ve had an advancing fear of death , I don’t know how I went my life ignoring it but one night I was just siting in bed and it dawned on me that one day I’ll die and ever since then I have regular breakdowns over it and cannot get it the thought out my head , just now I’ve been stuck on it for about 4 days and I cannot stop having meltdowns . I know it happens to everyone and it’s inevitable but that just doesn’t help me , it’s the fear of the unknown . I know I’m entirely grateful to think this but I love my life for the most part and I don’t want it to ever end .

Yes I know I say this from a stuck up point of view and again I’m entirely grateful but move communicated this to my mum , my boyfriend and a few friends . My mum says she tries not to ever think about it and my boyfriend and friends are like it’s inevitable so why worry , I just don’t understand how that’s possible how do u not worry ?? I am terrified of the thought they’re is just nothing I want to keep my conciseness and my memories . My boyfriend is like but that’s why we try live life to the fullest because this is our chance etc etc but then I’m like okay but what’s even the point ? If I’m gonna die one day and they’re really is nothing then what’s even the point in creating amazing memories.

I was raised catholic and I wish to much that u could strongly believe in heaven etc but I also am I very scientific person and I just don’t. I like the theory of quantum jumping but it scares me to much that’s its just a theory no one really knows and that terrifies me . I know people say but if it is nothing then u wont know it’s nothing so it’s fine . Okay but that’s terrifying and I don’t want that to be true.

I know people always say like oh energy can’t be destroyed and we are energy , yes correct , but I don’t want to be buried and grow into flowers these are not conscious I want my memories and my loved ones , as I know most people do I don’t want to be a flower. I sound crazy I know I always try to tell myself I am aware I’m not special and a lot of people feel this way but it just doesn’t help .

I’m scared of fleeting time I’m 24 okay I know that’s young but I swear last week I was 16 and every day , every year is going faster , I know so many people say they are 50/60/70 before they know it and it’s just so scary . If I feel like this now I’ll be terrified as I get older and I wish I could just go back a time do forgetting that one day I will die as some ppl just do.

I have health anxiety that stems from this, I convince myself so much I have cancer. It seems like so many ppl now a days catch it when it’s to late and they’re only 40/50 and I’m terrified that will be me, I try to tell myself that’s just something I can’t think about but I know a few ppl who were so healthy and then they just weren’t. I know that most be terrifying and I never want to experience that or I think I will totally loose it ; again I know this sounds selfish no one wants to experience that and it will inevitably end if it’s that bad and you won’t have to live with that fear but again that goes back to my fear of nothing after .

If your still reading here comes my next problem , I just finished a 5 year integrated masters degree in chemistry , it was HARD , near the end especially I sat 7 , 4 hour exams , I turned into a complete nervous mess and it’s a long story but I couldn’t eat, sleep etc and I did end up on anxiety medication but this isn’t something I want to take long term . I would say I fell back into almost a child like state , I relied heavily on my mum for moral support , she slept in my bed with me a lot because I was waking up and having panick attacks during the night .

This comes into my next issue which I find embarrassing but I am scared to move out , I love my parents again I am grateful that I can say that. I have been with my boyfriend 6 years and I love him so much , we have been speaking about looking soon to move out, but that terrifies me I don’t want to leave my parents , I want to see them everyday I know I sound like child. I also do want to see my boyfriend everyday but I don’t know I’m so scared , I just want my life to stay the way it is forever . I guess that comes back to my fear of getting old and everyone getting old and my parents eventually I can’t stand the thought of loosing them as I’m sure many ppl can’t but it terrifies me.

Anyway if anyone bothered to read this thank you and I mean it . I’ve spent the past few days crying and I can’t seem to pull myself out this time . I don’t rlly know how therapy would help no one can stop the inevitable , it’s not like a fear of spiders were I can just choose to avoid them.

Dreading possibly getting a 2.2 ?

Hi everyone looking for some advice or comfort or something to tell me to try harder idk honestly 🤣🤣😭😭

Anyway I’m doing an integrated masters (MSci), for those that don’t know what that is u do the entire 5 years of uni without graduating in between.

Anyway this is my life I’ve worked so hard for this degree it means absolutely everything to me , despite trying so hard my GPA currently stands at 15.3 , that is a 2.1 but that’s only from 3rd year and 4th year of Univeristy which is 30% combined of my degree. I have tried my absolute hardest I study constantly, so I don’t feel bad about not trying if anything it’s more frustrating cos I’m just not getting there getting there no matter how hard I try .

I’m about to start my final 5th year exams worth the remaining 60% of my degree , these exams are brutal and I am absolutely terrified my GPA is gonna slip below the 14.5 needed for a 2.1

I’m studying about 12 hours a day just now and I have been for over a month now , I am totally exhausted , but the course is rough I’m not sure I’m gonna cut it in exams and with these exams weighing so much I’m so scared it pulls my GPA down since I’m not that far over.

Am I being to harsh or is getting a 2.2 rlly that bad because it’s honestly my nightmare rn ?? I just need that 2.1 it’s everything I’ve worked for like this has been my life and I just want a good degree .

I also do have a job lined up for September on an amazing grad scheme that I’m min 2.2 so I suppose that’s not to much of an anxiety but honestly it’s not even about that I just want a 2.1 .

Thanks 😭😭😭