u/Plastic-Cancel7091

^(I have been doing a lot of reflecting, and I am deeply sorry for how I ended things with you. I finally see the full extent of the emotional weight and pain I caused, and it breaks my heart to know I hurt you. You were the best partner and the best friend I have ever had. I hope you always know how much you were loved, valued, and appreciated, even when my actions didn't show it. Pushing you away and destroying what we built is my one of my greatest regret.)

^(My behavior back then was a reflection of my own unhealed pain, but that is no excuse. You deserved so much better. You were wonderful just as you were, and none of my mistakes were your fault.)

^(I want you to know that I didn't just get away with how I treated you. Karma is real, and the universe has a way of balancing things out. After we parted ways, I faced a lot of hardships, a toxic relationship, and a dark mental space. I truly feel I have reaped what I sowed and faced the consequences of my choices. There was justice in how things turned out for me, and I needed that reckoning to finally see the truth.)

^(I know I cannot reach out to you right now, and I respect your space completely. I have carried this guilt for a long time, but knowing your kind heart, you have likely already forgiven me. I am working on finding a way to forgive myself. I still care for you deeply, J, and I am so truly sorry for the hurt I caused. More than anything, I genuinely hope you are happy, safe, and thriving in life)

^(To Honor what I did to you, I am going to become the person you always thought I could be and the person I know I can be. Never again will I be the weak person that sacrifice things that are good, for things that are good in the moment but bad. I know it's easier said then done but I am willing to put in the work. I Love you J, and I am truly sorry.)

^(- M)

^(I have been doing a lot of reflecting, and I am deeply sorry for how I ended things with you. I finally see the full extent of the emotional weight and pain I caused, and it breaks my heart to know I hurt you. You were the best partner and the best friend I have ever had. I hope you always know how much you were loved, valued, and appreciated, even when my actions didn't show it. Pushing you away and destroying what we built is my one of my greatest regret.)

^(My behavior back then was a reflection of my own unhealed pain, but that is no excuse. You deserved so much better. You were wonderful just as you were, and none of my mistakes were your fault.)

^(I want you to know that I didn't just get away with how I treated you. Karma is real, and the universe has a way of balancing things out. After we parted ways, I faced a lot of hardships, a toxic relationship, and a dark mental space. I truly feel I have reaped what I sowed and faced the consequences of my choices. There was justice in how things turned out for me, and I needed that reckoning to finally see the truth.)

^(I know I cannot reach out to you right now, and I respect your space completely. I have carried this guilt for a long time, but knowing your kind heart, you have likely already forgiven me. I am working on finding a way to forgive myself. I still care for you deeply, J, and I am so truly sorry for the hurt I caused. More than anything, I genuinely hope you are happy, safe, and thriving in life)

^(To Honor what I did to you, I am going to become the person you always thought I could be and the person I know I can be. Never again will I be the weak person that sacrifice things that are good, for things that are good in the moment but bad. I know it's easier said then done but I am willing to put in the work. I Love you J, and I am truly sorry.)

^(- M)

^(I have been doing a lot of reflecting, and I am deeply sorry for how I ended things with you. I finally see the full extent of the emotional weight and pain I caused, and it breaks my heart to know I hurt you. You were the best partner and the best friend I have ever had. I hope you always know how much you were loved, valued, and appreciated, even when my actions didn't show it. Pushing you away and destroying what we built is my one of my greatest regret.)

^(My behavior back then was a reflection of my own unhealed pain, but that is no excuse. You deserved so much better. You were wonderful just as you were, and none of my mistakes were your fault.)

^(I want you to know that I didn't just get away with how I treated you. Karma is real, and the universe has a way of balancing things out. After we parted ways, I faced a lot of hardships, a toxic relationship, and a dark mental space. I truly feel I have reaped what I sowed and faced the consequences of my choices. There was justice in how things turned out for me, and I needed that reckoning to finally see the truth.)

^(I know I cannot reach out to you right now, and I respect your space completely. I have carried this guilt for a long time, but knowing your kind heart, you have likely already forgiven me. I am working on finding a way to forgive myself. I still care for you deeply, J, and I am so truly sorry for the hurt I caused. More than anything, I genuinely hope you are happy, safe, and thriving in life)

^(To Honor what I did to you, I am going to become the person you always thought I could be and the person I know I can be. Never again will I be the weak person that sacrifice things that are good, for things that are good in the moment but bad. I know it's easier said then done but I am willing to put in the work. I Love you J, and I am truly sorry.)

^(- M)

Idk If this letter will ever reach you but I just need to get this off my chest because it is time for me to move on from you

Dear J,

I am sorry for everything especially the way I ended things and Broke things off with you. You might think that I didn't feel anything but a part of me is still at the day where I ended our Relationship/Friendship and the last sound I heard from you was you crying your heart out.

J I miss everything about you. I miss what we had. from the way you talked, your smile, the music you were into, all of our inside jokes, when we used to play fight, Even when I used to just come pick you up and we use to just talk for hours.

J.... as of right now you are the only person who gave an effort to understand me, listen to me, and allowed me to be myself and I just threw everything away bc I was being selfish and it hurts me that I hurt you. I try to forgive myself but I cant.

Just listening to you talk and yap for hours was such a privilege. All the trauma you opened up to me about, everything you been through. The highs, the lows, literally everything. and I thank you for letting me in and I will forever cherish your Soul and who you Are.

I am sorry that there was times I kept pushing you away, times where I did not let you in, when all you wanted was me to trust you. You remained patient with me and who I was and we genuinely had a unbreakable bond until I ruined things.

J I love you and I miss the way you threw yourself in my arms. especially late at night in the car. I missed the way you Kissed me. I miss they way you talked and looked into my eyes. The way you cared about your friends and your family was so amazing even when it took a lot out of you.

I know I cant just come and go as I please and I don't want to be selfish. and I know I hurt you but just know you will forever be in my heart.

You are an amazing Girl and Im Sorry J. I wish you nothing but the best ❤️ (sorry for bad grammar too)

I am planning to go on 90 day no fap journey (I want to quit forever but I just want to have a short/Mid term goal) and wanted to see if anyone want to be down and join me. you can dm or message here if interested maybe even have a small group.