u/PlusBlueberry4365

hi all, i took the bar exam for the 4th time and found out today that i failed. i told myself that i will not be taking it again until my jx switches over to the nextgen exam (happening in feb. 2028).

i currently work in a social service agency that has nothing to do with my degree. i’ve been working at for the last almost two years as a way to make money while i studied for j25, f26, and j26 bars. however, if you’ve heard anything about non for profit organizations, you’d know how poorly ran and underpaid it is

i say this all to say that i’d love some advice on the best ways to find jd preferred roles. while waiting for results i was applying for positions on linkedin, but as you probs know, finding a position on linkedin nowadays is like finding gold. i’m primarily interested in compliance and contract specialist roles. but am definitely open to other paths as long as the pay is good!

i know that many people don't like serena for one reason or another. many complaints i've heard include the facts that she's boring, her acting is lackluster with very little change in line delivery, she came directly after ac, who many l&o fans love, among other reasons.

however, i haven't really seen many people discuss how her personal viewpoints directly clash with her political ones. she positions herself as a liberal and while she does sometimes provide a more empathetic perspective to the all boys club. other times she has me confused on her political alignment.

in the episode where an adult woman passes as a teenager and kills a teacher after said teacher finds out about the affair she's having with another teacher, serena argues with jack that the girl isn't a victim because she also "consented" to the relationship and was "old enough" to know what she wanted. Mind you, she said this all before finding out about the woman's age. so she was arguing her point under the premise that the woman was actually a 17 girl. a minor, and therefor a VICTIM of statutory rape. It doesn't matter that the girl lied about her age when that was a primary selling point to the teacher and probably the main reason he chose to "groom" her.

in another episode she argues with nora about a battered woman having the sister's brother kill him on her behalf. while i do agree to some extent that the woman's reasoning for killing her husband was flawed due to the methods she used (most battered women do the killing themselves, rather than outsourcing) serena fails to contextualize any sort of nuance and immediately argues that women shouldn't be seen as helpless and she could have gotten out. again she resorts to blaming the woman entirely.

lastly, in s13 ep23 titled 'smoke' she empathizes with parents who LITERALLY pimp their own son out to a wealthy comic book writer in order to get money to pay for their younger son's expensive medical bills (the younger child had a serious heart deformity). she argues that the parents made a tough choice and put the money important use. however, she, again, fails to look at the entire picture and realize that those grimy parents destroyed one son's life to save the other, and no good or half decent parent would even begin to consider putting their child in a traumatic experience like that regardless of what the money would be used for. because what she failed to realize is that the older child has to deal with the life long consequences of his parents actions. what made this case bad was that she had me agreeing with arthur f*cking branch!

i say this all to say that many of her stances lack nuance or substance and she is excited to paint every situation with a broad strokes. she often likes to be the contrarian but the views she holds as a result are so bad and problematic. sorry this post is long, but i really needed to drag her one good time

i recently got off of the phone with an ex-friend who i’ve had a very emotionally unstable relationship with i reached out to her asking what made me a a terrible friend bc i’m trying really hard to make changes.

she tells me that me constantly reaching out to her and other mutual friends isn’t a good look and makes me seem unstable and like i’m not doing well mentally. she says that she got a text from an ex friend of mine who i reached out to right before reaching out to her saying that he got a text from me and sad it seemed. and that’s the thing i always thought was irrational. i thought that ex friends of mine sitting around talking about how crazy i am was untrue. but knowing that it’s partly true makes me sick and feel so much more hatred and shame about myself.

she says she worries that i don’t have anyone in my life and says that she wonders why i reach out to her constantly when we haven’t seen each for several years (we went to school together) and it just confirmed my own internal perception of myself which is that i’m a loser who can’t move on from the past and get over the friendships i once had and now don’t.

it sucks having so many things confirmed. some of what she said was nice, like she hopes for the best and she knows i’m hurting. but other things she mentioned refueled the negative emotions i have for myself like asking why can’t i move on and saying that j need serious (mental) help even though i’m in therapy twice a week.

idk why i do this to myself when i know the outcome. i currently feel like shit and i would really appreciate some positive energy and comments

i love scent of cecred’s products. it’s so sultry and comforting. i desperately need bey to drop a hair and body mist!

today i had my monthly visit with my psychiatry team. usually how it goes is i’ll talk to a resident doctor, then after we’ve discussed all of my problems and concerns he’ll brief the attending then bring her onto the call. usually the attending is very cheerful and friendly and will empathize with whatever i’m going through.

but today was different. after telling the resident for the millionth time that i’m so stress because i’m studying for the bar exam. he bring her back in and she basically goes in on my therapy progress. she tells me that they’ve changed my medication for anxiety so many times and it sound like i’m not doing enough skills training in therapy to manage my anxiety levels for the bar. while i try to understand her point of view i feel myself getting more and more enraged and defensive. i politely (i think) tell her that my therapist and i haven’t really been discussing my bar exam prep this time around because i’m so stressed that i don’t want to think about it in sessions and would rather deal with other things. then she stops me and tells me that i need to talk with my therapist about it.

idk, it really made me feel even worse and more anxious about my studying. it made me feel like i wasn’t doing g enough in therapy and it almost felt like she was attacking my therapist’s capabilities. i understand it’s in her job does to steer me in therapy right direction and provide honest feedback. but it just came off cold and demoralizing. idk, what do you guys think?

i've been going through an emotional spiral since yesterday because i keep being reminded how meaningless and depressing my life has been. i recently told an ex-friend how bad i felt about finding out about my fp getting married and she read the message then didn't respond. then, i sent a follow up message apologizing for trauma dumping and how much i think about all of the friendships i've ruined and the only thing she did was thumbs up the message. i felt so embarrassed and dissaponted in myself for messaging someone who obviously wants nothing to do with me. then, i texted an old friend about an errand she was supposed to do for me and she responded saying that she didn't bc she just gave birth to her baby. i'm happy for her, but i'm sad because she along with all of my other friends from law school has moved up in the world and have accomplished so many things since we all graduated and i still sit here with nothing to show for myself. this friend also forgot my birthday for the 3rd year in a row and it really solidified my feelings and fear of being forgotten and disposed of by people in held closely. it really makes me sad to think that not only have i not accomplished as much as my peers in every aspect of life, but that they're able to forget about me or defriend me so easily.

i've been going through an emotional spiral since yesterday because i keep being reminded how meaningless and depressing my life has been. i recently told an ex-friend how bad i felt about finding out about my fp getting married and she read the message then didn't respond. then, i sent a follow up message apologizing for trauma dumping and how much i think about all of the friendships i've ruined and the only thing she did was thumbs up the message. i felt so embarrassed and dissaponted in myself for messaging someone who obviously wants nothing to do with me. then, i texted an old friend about an errand she was supposed to do for me and she responded saying that she didn't bc she just gave birth to her baby. i'm happy for her, but i'm sad because she along with all of my other friends from law school has moved up in the world and have accomplished so many things since we all graduated and i still sit here with nothing to show for myself. this friend also forgot my birthday for the 3rd year in a row and it really solidified my feelings and fear of being forgotten and disposed of by people in held closely. it really makes me sad to think that not only have i not accomplished as much as my peers in every aspect of life, but that they're able to forget about me or defriend me so easily.

i work a 9-5 job but on the weekends i feel like i waste my time sleeping. on friday and saturday nights i go to bed past 1a-2a and sleep in until 1p-2p and the when i wake up i feel like complete like complete shit. but i feel like the reason i do this is bc i want to stay up as long as possible to get my time back. i feel like i’m wasting my life away and i don’t get why i can’t just be better about getting up earlier. please lmk i’m not alone

i just came to the realization that i feel more depressed, lonely, and empty during the summer. i believe it’s because while everyone is usually sad in the winter due to seasonal depression and the cold, during the summer most people are at their best mentally because its brighter for longer, they can hang out the people they love, go on vacation, etc. but i think that those things just really remind me how alone and empty i am. it also reminds me how behind i feel in my career and relationship status. people all around me are living their best lives and i just feel so small and disappointed with where i am in life and who i’ve pushed away. i just don’t really know how to keep going or how to cope anymore. i’m so tired of it all

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