u/Popular-Bill-1614

Idk i just cant do anything. I feel like i cant breathe. Stress, anxiety, pressure in my chest are constant. Racing thoughts 24/7. It feels like someone is sitting on my chest. Nothing calms me down. My head hurts. I can only eat to calm myself for a short period of time. I can’t do anything else. Nothing. Im just waiting to go to bed. Everything feels like too much. Something simple seems so hard to do. I need advice on what i can do to make this a little better. No mediation or reading or counting or journaling please. This stresses me out more than I already am. Idkd what the reason behind these feelings is. I just cant do this anymore. Everything i would love to do stresses me out- for example watching movies or tv shows, drawing, exercising…idk im hopeless

So i (f18) have been going to the gym on and off for years and this year it was going great…ive been going consistently to the gym for 4months and nothing was wrong. I was doing all the same things but then suddenly I started to experience lower back pain occasionally in a particular movement/position (not in the gym at first. Only when lying down or bending the lower back anytime). Then i also had lots of stuff in school so i stopped going to the gym for a little bit. At the same time i became obsessed with diamond painting as a hobby and i could do this for 8hours straight some days. Then my pain increased and when i wanted to try gym again as school was over and summer holidays started i could not do anything anymore. Rdls were so painful for example. Any exercise using some kind of bending movement caused so much pain. So i went to get MRI and i was diagnosed with Lumbar spondyloarthrosis (L3–S1) and started physiotherapy and stopped diamond painting. Now the pain is milder and i wanna start exercising because my life is now sedentary.
I asked my physiotherapist what i can/cant do and she didnt say anything particularly…just that if pain starts again i should stop.
And now i dont know what to do. I love the gym but im scared its bad for me. I also love walking but i want muscles and strength too.
Any advice?

I just wanna think about everything while on the ride.

Im new to anime so i dont know any…
Also i would like a good storyline and can be sad,happy,fiction,action,drama…

What i mean is that i spent the last four years dealing with lots of mental health issues…i was so occupied by it that i forgot to live. I genuinely feel like a kid that is discovering the world. I have no character, no interests, am not in fandoms, have nothing special going on, not know stuff about basic things that my generation knows and they are shocked how i dont know it…they had so much time and spent it on building their character while i am a nobody. I genuinely dont get any reference, dont know anything about idk politics, movies, music, games, fashion, famous people…basically any interests people have. I feel so left out and am spiraling. I feel like i am too late to live. I know nothing about life…i feel like i dont deserve to live and cant have friends:( i know its not the worst problem but its genuinely making me wanna die. Sorry for stupid post. Im so sorry.

Hello:)
I know some songs and bands but i wanna expand my knowledge.
Gimme all u got.

Some i enjoyed listening are: linkin park, deftones, breaking benjamin, green day, bon jovi, queen, three days grace, chevelle, puddle of mudd, superheaven, bad omens, rammstein….but like thats nothing compared to all that is out there.

Gimme old and new.
You can also share playlists if u want.

Basically anything:)🤘🏼

I feel so detained. So suffocated. Idk how to explain. So like basically i dont let myself live and enjoy the things used to or try new things. I feel like i need to know everything about everything before i can do it/enjoy it. Ill give some examples: i need to buy a backpack and i must search the whole internet look through every single one on each website and find one cuz what if there’s one better(thats why i wont buy it cuz i cant do it if its not like this), i wanna draw but i cant if im not a professional- i need to know everything about drawing and every technique and style and know all the stuff about it, i wanna cook but i cant because im not a cook and i would need go master it before i can do it, i wanna listen to music but i need to know every artist and band and all their song so i can consider myself a fan or that i enjoy music, i wanna watch a series/movie but i need to know everything about it all memes, actors, history, references, know everything about it and be in their fandom….if its not like this i cant do it. I cant live anymore. I feel so fake living. I feel like a robot. Idk if anything makes sense but yeah…i had summer vacation now but i spent all summer trying to master everything instead of enjoying it…i wanted to start watching marvel but got so preoccupied with how i have to knoe everything about ut and about comics i bought the whole membership for one year and now i dont even read it…i kept buying things to make me feel like i belong somewhere but it doesnt help. I spent my whole summer literally being under stress and didnt enjoy a day of it. I couldn’t sleep for days. I got strong meds. And at the end i didnt do anything this summer just stressing and scared of FOMO. Im really getting bad because i dont even let myself enjoy having friends and be with my fanily because i feel like its all fake. Whats happening. Help.

It can be anything. Song, album, artist.

Some i like: nessa barrett, phoebe bridgers, bon jovi, linkin park, deftones, breaking benjamin, three days grace, olivia rodrigo, queen, green day, radiohead, slowdive, crystal castles, fontaines DC…

It doesn’t have to be similar to the ones i listed! I like every genre.

Also if u can upvote this post so i get more ideas it would mean a lot😭🙏☺️