u/Powerful_Guidance_76

Just delete this b#$%hit, they never hear. Just some greedy company try every possible way to squeeze the player. Play it for 3 years now enough is enough. When they introduce new matchmaking system thought gonna enjoy it but all just a lie. One after another bad update never point the big problem. Just continuously introducing new broken Brawlers and duh 🙄 events. Always reducing something for for f2p. Make is impossible for 6 lvl to progress need 9 or 11 lvl for min progress. Toxic community, severes issues, trophy pushing not worth it and broken brawlers or nothing. With every update dust so many brawlers. Odity Shop is biggest fraud. Switched from coc to this now just going back to coc atleast they are player friendly not like this bs and croyal. Sign off from this $hit.

I am tired i don't want to do any more competition to compete some random guy to get her attention which is totally divided equally between us. I never want this kind of triangle in my life just for happy I am still doing this bullshit but nkw a days I'm at my limit. SEEING this guy to compete with me just make me completely shut down my emotions to show I am not affected. I need to pull my self from her life. I am at rock bottom. This should be end soon other wise I'm gonna loose my sanity. I don't want to live with thi if in my life. First step departure 11:22 pm tue may 2026 My heart is beating so fast It's hurt so much. I am going to throw up. No one deserve this not her fault she going through too much. She is suffering so much why I'm the reason for her pain. I can't take it but I can't let the things go on like this. I just run away cause I am feeling this things inside me. I never want to feel like this for her.

Reason

I fell in love very slowly and reluctantly with my best friend along a 8 year timespan. I realized progressively that I depended on her emotionally way more than a usual friend, and whenever we hung out or were together we were close, in terms of friendship and of physical space.

I never want to feel that way cause she is not capable to reciprocate my feelings. Emotionally she is exhausted all the past traumas, relationships, health and family issues make her to not had any feelings for me ever.

But I can't help it. It's not like I have full control of my feelings to not fall for her. I don't fall for her at first but I fall for her little by little everyday fot these many years. I don't know what is going to happened by dragging this friendship with that kind of feeling.

What is happening now

She is wearing a protective shield around her. When I thought I will be with her and show her my feelings slowly. But she add one of her best friend in between like a wall and now she want to treat both of us equally so we don't feel any dispute in between. The first time I meet her after reaching canada I'm really excited about that I just leave everything to meet her and that's the first time she introduced her pubg best friend to me that day. I try to take It casual but she start to use him as some kind of shield that she uses when ever she had to meet me. When ever I meet her she invites him or he was there before me no matter what he always ready to come like he don't have any other thing to do which like a big heartbreak for me but I try to look not affected by this. Well things got more and more escalated and now he is living with her sharing a rent with her. I want to scream so much when she tell me that like damn She is sharing everything with from starting to end but she never share this thing to me only after he move there and start living with her. That's give me the biggest scare on my heat that still heart but for her happiness I show like it's don't affect me in any way but deep down I'm start drowning in my own feelings. I know they are just friends and nothing more but still It's hurt so hard. In starting I just on my feelings when we go to gaming center to play that show too much care for that I feel like I'm some kind of stranger and I do stupid things there to get her attention on me.

That guy is not a bad guy he helped her with her past relationship when she feel in love with some one from his friend. He really do take care lot of stuff for her and help her in many way that's why she let him around her. But some time I just can't see him doing all the stuff that I wat to do. I am look like some kind of heartless guy but deep down I want shower all my care and love on her. I want some exclusivity in her life which is just too much to ask. When I had moments with her where I can show her my soft side and take care of her or just show how much I care but that guy is there to do that all the time. At one point I just start pulling myself back like this is not my place to take care of her. I can't even able look at that scene that I start to look at away when something like that happens. I truly want to have just a single day her for last 2 years and still waiting for this dream to come true but maybe not everyone deserves that. Well there is one more reason why I start pressing feeling One time I see one of her best friend confess to her and she just cut off her that like a traumatizing incident for me or like some kind of warning. I just never pull my self to show her my true feelings. I'm just her best friend which she can rely for anything. She don't ask for this feelings and I don't fall for her intentionally that's just happened and I really don't have any regrets about that. She is really strong and kind person which deserve all the love and respect. May god bless her with tge best life and give her what ever she want in life. I still have lot of things to say lot of things I feel lot of feelings I want her to fell but maybe this is for the best. I'm not and never want to break her heart any more If possible I just want to walk away from her without saying anything. I don't want her to ever know how I feel about her, how beautiful she looks in my eyes, how my heart skip beats when I see her, how eagerly I try to be her side forever, how I want to be something more that friend, how I dream about her every day, how much I thought about her, how much she means to me and how important person she is in my life.

Reality

But in reality that is never gonna happened and I accept it. Between her struggles and my feelings I choose not to say anything. I have planned to leave her slowly but it's take me one year to make up my mind that I am doing soo much damage to myself and especially her trust on me. I decided to give her enough reasons to hate me little by little. Start pulling my self away from her little by little. I know she gonna hurt by tgis but I don't have any other way. I don't want to just confess and finch everything in one shot It's going to be really traumatic for her. I just want to slip away slowly that she don't feel like that's her fault. I am just so pathetic being that not able to take care of my one and only precious person in this life. Such a pathetic friend to fall in love with her. Such a pathetic that feel to much that It's hurt her intentionally or unintentionally. Why I am the kind of person that I hate most. From today onwards nothing is going to same I am not going to live in delusions and dreams of her. I will be with her forever in some other life.

I just write the 10% of the full story I am just writing it as a proof that there was a time when I just truly love someone with full of my heart. If ever something happened to me please atleast one person is there who is going to remember my pain under my smile. Sign-off.

Goodbye, My Love

Please never forget the memories that once felt like forever

I am tired i don't want to do any more competition to compete some random guy to get her attention which is totally divided equally between us. I never want this kind of triangle in my life just for happy I am still doing this bullshit but nkw a days I'm at my limit. SEEING this guy to compete with me just make me completely shut down my emotions to show I am not affected. I need to pull my self from her life. I am at rock bottom. This should be end soon other wise I'm gonna loose my sanity. I don't want to live with thi if in my life. First step departure 11:22 pm tue may 2026 My heart is beating so fast It's hurt so much. I am going to throw up. No one deserve this not her fault she going through too much. She is suffering so much why I'm the reason for her pain. I can't take it but I can't let the things go on like this. I just run away cause I am feeling this things inside me. I never want to feel like this for her.

Reason

I fell in love very slowly and reluctantly with my best friend along a 8 year timespan. I realized progressively that I depended on her emotionally way more than a usual friend, and whenever we hung out or were together we were close, in terms of friendship and of physical space.

I never want to feel that way cause she is not capable to reciprocate my feelings. Emotionally she is exhausted all the past traumas, relationships, health and family issues make her to not had any feelings for me ever.

But I can't help it. It's not like I have full control of my feelings to not fall for her. I don't fall for her at first but I fall for her little by little everyday fot these many years. I don't know what is going to happened by dragging this friendship with that kind of feeling.

What is happening now

She is wearing a protective shield around her. When I thought I will be with her and show her my feelings slowly. But she add one of her best friend in between like a wall and now she want to treat both of us equally so we don't feel any dispute in between. The first time I meet her after reaching canada I'm really excited about that I just leave everything to meet her and that's the first time she introduced her pubg best friend to me that day. I try to take It casual but she start to use him as some kind of shield that she uses when ever she had to meet me. When ever I meet her she invites him or he was there before me no matter what he always ready to come like he don't have any other thing to do which like a big heartbreak for me but I try to look not affected by this. Well things got more and more escalated and now he is living with her sharing a rent with her. I want to scream so much when she tell me that like damn She is sharing everything with from starting to end but she never share this thing to me only after he move there and start living with her. That's give me the biggest scare on my heat that still heart but for her happiness I show like it's don't affect me in any way but deep down I'm start drowning in my own feelings. I know they are just friends and nothing more but still It's hurt so hard. In starting I just on my feelings when we go to gaming center to play that show too much care for that I feel like I'm some kind of stranger and I do stupid things there to get her attention on me.

That guy is not a bad guy he helped her with her past relationship when she feel in love with some one from his friend. He really do take care lot of stuff for her and help her in many way that's why she let him around her. But some time I just can't see him doing all the stuff that I wat to do. I am look like some kind of heartless guy but deep down I want shower all my care and love on her. I want some exclusivity in her life which is just too much to ask. When I had moments with her where I can show her my soft side and take care of her or just show how much I care but that guy is there to do that all the time. At one point I just start pulling myself back like this is not my place to take care of her. I can't even able look at that scene that I start to look at away when something like that happens. I truly want to have just a single day her for last 2 years and still waiting for this dream to come true but maybe not everyone deserves that. Well there is one more reason why I start pressing feeling One time I see one of her best friend confess to her and she just cut off her that like a traumatizing incident for me or like some kind of warning. I just never pull my self to show her my true feelings. I'm just her best friend which she can rely for anything. She don't ask for this feelings and I don't fall for her intentionally that's just happened and I really don't have any regrets about that. She is really strong and kind person which deserve all the love and respect. May god bless her with tge best life and give her what ever she want in life. I still have lot of things to say lot of things I feel lot of feelings I want her to fell but maybe this is for the best. I'm not and never want to break her heart any more If possible I just want to walk away from her without saying anything. I don't want her to ever know how I feel about her, how beautiful she looks in my eyes, how my heart skip beats when I see her, how eagerly I try to be her side forever, how I want to be something more that friend, how I dream about her every day, how much I thought about her, how much she means to me and how important person she is in my life.

Reality

But in reality that is never gonna happened and I accept it. Between her struggles and my feelings I choose not to say anything. I have planned to leave her slowly but it's take me one year to make up my mind that I am doing soo much damage to myself and especially her trust on me. I decided to give her enough reasons to hate me little by little. Start pulling my self away from her little by little. I know she gonna hurt by tgis but I don't have any other way. I don't want to just confess and finch everything in one shot It's going to be really traumatic for her. I just want to slip away slowly that she don't feel like that's her fault. I am just so pathetic being that not able to take care of my one and only precious person in this life. Such a pathetic friend to fall in love with her. Such a pathetic that feel to much that It's hurt her intentionally or unintentionally. Why I am the kind of person that I hate most. From today onwards nothing is going to same I am not going to live in delusions and dreams of her. I will be with her forever in some other life.

I just write the 10% of the full story I am just writing it as a proof that there was a time when I just truly love someone with full of my heart. If ever something happened to me please atleast one person is there who is going to remember my pain under my smile. Sign-off.

Goodbye, My Love

Please never forget the memories that once felt like forever

I am tired i don't want to do any more competition to compete some random guy to get her attention which is totally divided equally between us. I never want this kind of triangle in my life just for happy I am still doing this bullshit but nkw a days I'm at my limit. SEEING this guy to compete with me just make me completely shut down my emotions to show I am not affected. I need to pull my self from her life. I am at rock bottom. This should be end soon other wise I'm gonna loose my sanity. I don't want to live with thi if in my life. First step departure 11:22 pm tue may 2026 My heart is beating so fast It's hurt so much. I am going to throw up. No one deserve this not her fault she going through too much. She is suffering so much why I'm the reason for her pain. I can't take it but I can't let the things go on like this. I just run away cause I am feeling this things inside me. I never want to feel like this for her.

Reason

I fell in love very slowly and reluctantly with my best friend along a 8 year timespan. I realized progressively that I depended on her emotionally way more than a usual friend, and whenever we hung out or were together we were close, in terms of friendship and of physical space.

I never want to feel that way cause she is not capable to reciprocate my feelings. Emotionally she is exhausted all the past traumas, relationships, health and family issues make her to not had any feelings for me ever.

But I can't help it. It's not like I have full control of my feelings to not fall for her. I don't fall for her at first but I fall for her little by little everyday fot these many years. I don't know what is going to happened by dragging this friendship with that kind of feeling.

What is happening now

She is wearing a protective shield around her. When I thought I will be with her and show her my feelings slowly. But she add one of her best friend in between like a wall and now she want to treat both of us equally so we don't feel any dispute in between. The first time I meet her after reaching canada I'm really excited about that I just leave everything to meet her and that's the first time she introduced her pubg best friend to me that day. I try to take It casual but she start to use him as some kind of shield that she uses when ever she had to meet me. When ever I meet her she invites him or he was there before me no matter what he always ready to come like he don't have any other thing to do which like a big heartbreak for me but I try to look not affected by this. Well things got more and more escalated and now he is living with her sharing a rent with her. I want to scream so much when she tell me that like damn She is sharing everything with from starting to end but she never share this thing to me only after he move there and start living with her. That's give me the biggest scare on my heat that still heart but for her happiness I show like it's don't affect me in any way but deep down I'm start drowning in my own feelings. I know they are just friends and nothing more but still It's hurt so hard. In starting I just on my feelings when we go to gaming center to play that show too much care for that I feel like I'm some kind of stranger and I do stupid things there to get her attention on me.

That guy is not a bad guy he helped her with her past relationship when she feel in love with some one from his friend. He really do take care lot of stuff for her and help her in many way that's why she let him around her. But some time I just can't see him doing all the stuff that I wat to do. I am look like some kind of heartless guy but deep down I want shower all my care and love on her. I want some exclusivity in her life which is just too much to ask. When I had moments with her where I can show her my soft side and take care of her or just show how much I care but that guy is there to do that all the time. At one point I just start pulling myself back like this is not my place to take care of her. I can't even able look at that scene that I start to look at away when something like that happens. I truly want to have just a single day her for last 2 years and still waiting for this dream to come true but maybe not everyone deserves that. Well there is one more reason why I start pressing feeling One time I see one of her best friend confess to her and she just cut off her that like a traumatizing incident for me or like some kind of warning. I just never pull my self to show her my true feelings. I'm just her best friend which she can rely for anything. She don't ask for this feelings and I don't fall for her intentionally that's just happened and I really don't have any regrets about that. She is really strong and kind person which deserve all the love and respect. May god bless her with tge best life and give her what ever she want in life. I still have lot of things to say lot of things I feel lot of feelings I want her to fell but maybe this is for the best. I'm not and never want to break her heart any more If possible I just want to walk away from her without saying anything. I don't want her to ever know how I feel about her, how beautiful she looks in my eyes, how my heart skip beats when I see her, how eagerly I try to be her side forever, how I want to be something more that friend, how I dream about her every day, how much I thought about her, how much she means to me and how important person she is in my life.

Reality

But in reality that is never gonna happened and I accept it. Between her struggles and my feelings I choose not to say anything. I have planned to leave her slowly but it's take me one year to make up my mind that I am doing soo much damage to myself and especially her trust on me. I decided to give her enough reasons to hate me little by little. Start pulling my self away from her little by little. I know she gonna hurt by tgis but I don't have any other way. I don't want to just confess and finch everything in one shot It's going to be really traumatic for her. I just want to slip away slowly that she don't feel like that's her fault. I am just so pathetic being that not able to take care of my one and only precious person in this life. Such a pathetic friend to fall in love with her. Such a pathetic that feel to much that It's hurt her intentionally or unintentionally. Why I am the kind of person that I hate most. From today onwards nothing is going to same I am not going to live in delusions and dreams of her. I will be with her forever in some other life.

I just write the 10% of the full story I am just writing it as a proof that there was a time when I just truly love someone with full of my heart. If ever something happened to me please atleast one person is there who is going to remember my pain under my smile. Sign-off.

Goodbye, My Love

Please never forget the memories that once felt like forever

And I'm not talking "Oh, my wife/husband/SO is my absolute best friend", I mean the type of thing where you are friends with someone, have feelings for them, but are worried about ruining the friendship, are scared to confess, don't know if the feelings are mutual, etc.