u/ProfessorLogic7

Humans are honestly very ugly. I am not only talking about “ugly people”, I am talking about humans as a whole. Nobody is truly good looking nor beautiful. We as a species have disgusting bodies with disgusting faces. Some can be “sexually stimulating” but that’s it. It dosen’t make them beautiful. In fact I still find people I am turned on by to be ugly. Humans are so ugly to the point where I honestly want to cry. Babies are gross, children are not cute in anyway at all like I seriously don’t see how anyone could think otherwise. Almost all animals are disgusting as well. SOME animals tho like (insects, spiders, certain invertebrates) can be quite fascinating to look at. They are definitely not beautiful but being cool is at least something. Humans and most animals however make me wanna scream. I can’t understand the idea of finding a human beautiful. Why are humans so goddamn ugly like I generally don’t understand. Do people actually look at beauty magazine and think “I want to look like that” whole heartedly? I have googled countless times asking “Why are humans so ugly” and all that comes up is “why are some people so ugly?” Like they’re trying to imply that there are actually beautiful hairless ape things? I could go on and on but you get the point

I am not new to veganism. I was a vegan at from age 10 to age 13. I started because of ethical reasons and quit due to fear of judgment from my peers. I didn’t look back on veganism until recently when I have basically stopped giving a single fuck what anybody thinks of me. However for months now I have suffered from metabolic and digestive issues that I am not 100% sure what it is but it has basically put me into a very strict diet made to not cause me pain. I can’t eat anything spicy, salty, processed or any food high in indigestible fiber without being in pain for usually about 2 days (Depends on what I eat). Eating a small amount of sugar seems to spike my blood sugar for hours which also made me quit that. I can’t find a single vegan meal that would work for me atm like I was ok with eating tofu everyday but I can’t even do that now so I feel like I don’t have a choice. I think I am suffering from gut dysbiosis or gastrisis but I am not fully sure. Rn I can eat almost all available vegetables and also a lot of plants but can’t find a single vegan meal that would work for me since soy causes pain while other vegan meat is very processed which is a strict no. If you have had similar issues to me I’d love to hear your advice on what would work

So recently I was very keen on starting E therapy and I was 100% set on doing it. I only knew about the desirable effects like fat in feminine areas, tits and a more feminine face and voice. However of course there is a catch with this and that is the mental effects that estrogen gives. First I’ve read that estrogen makes you feel much more sensitive and hurt to people criticizing you while T makes you not care or slightly angry. This makes me feel like I would be vulnerable and I don’t want that. I don’t want to be affected by peoples stupid and idiotic remarks. Secondly I’ve read that you’ll get moved by acts of “kindness” and like cry over it which makes you an easy target for manipulation and scams. I really don’t want to lose my common sense. It also says you’ll desire to build relationships and connect with people. this is a big NO. I don’t want anything to do with emotional relationships and I especially don’t want to desire it. I like it to be surface level and nothing more. I don’t want to be vulnerable to this world. I don’t want to desire people. I don’t want anything to with them and when I am estrogen I won’t want it either but I’ll probably hurt more by not engaging which makes me so angry to think about. Idk what to do. I want to become a beautiful woman but I don’t want to become a victim of desires. Please tell me I am wrong about estrogen. Please tell me I’ll be satisfied without engaging in relationships. Please tell me I won’t get emotionally invested in dangerous people

This didn’t even last half a year. I got physically sick and started ditching school. The school is too expensive so to hell with going another year. Idk what to do both mom and dad are setting pressure on me to start doing something. I don’t know how much longer this will last. Idk how much longer I will last. Anyways I am back now and Imma be honest I’ve kinda missed this sub

For the last years in my life I have been feeling very lonely. I have bought multiple beautiful statues of naked women and some Barbie dolls to make me feel less alone. It worked splendidly and I felt very happy. I decided to buy more company so I went down to the sex store to buy inflatable sex dolls and a fleshlight. They didn’t have the sex doll so I only bought the fleshlight. I thought that this sextoy would make me feel less lonely and much more connected. I’ve never found sex to be attractive but I had a strong feeling that by engaging in penetration my deep seated loneliness would fade away. I also thought that having a fleshlight would do the same thing. I went home and started playing with it. I was hoping to feel a rush of oxytocin but I felt nothing at first. Then I started feeling disgusted by its presence and put it far away from reach thinking everything would be good. However the feeling of disgust for penetration and the feeling of general disgust towards genitals became so overwhelming I went several blocks away to throw it in the trash. I could never imagine how much revulsion it would make me feel but here I am. I now know that I will never want to have sex and that there are other much better ways to cope with loneliness. Sure real sex might give you some closeness feeling but it will be greatly reduced by this horrendous disgust I feel towards sex. I was planning on spending way more money on sex despite it not making me horny so I guess I learned something valuable for 20$. However the guilt and disgust remain and I am currently not feeling like doing anything

I am not ashamed of being a sexually submissive male hence why I am making this post. However it would be a lie to deny that living as a submissive man feels very disappointing and isolating. The main reason for the intense disappointment is women. Since most women are subs they wont feel satisfied with a sub man and usually ends up resenting them. Sub men basically have the same mentality but the difference is that dominant men exist and almost zero dominant women exist which leads to a huge void since basically no woman can fulfill my desires. Women still have nice bodies but that’s about it. Don’t get me wrong I definitely wouldn’t mind having a woman’s body as my plaything but I just want to submit to something greater and more powerful. When I was younger I used to hope this greater being would be a woman but no that would never happen. I just want to be a fetus or intestinal worm inside this powerful woman and she’d be my godess but no woman on this planet is great enough for me to feel this way about her. They’re all weak and boring. Sometimes I want to be trampled by a large female horse and then be eaten by her to live in her intestines. However they only live 30 years at max but hey still something right? Idk the best thing to hope for would be a cosmic alien woman with 300 times the strength of a human and I’d be drooling over it

Is it possible to take it out without taking any further steps and having it out forever if the only methos used was alchohol for 5 days

I have felt like this through periods of my life. Mainly my younger years but this feeling has also stretched throughout my teenage years and now my early adult years. I feel insanely dissatisfied with my body. I have had different standards throughout my life on what I should look like and it changes quite drastically as time flies but almost never was I satisfied with how I look now. The thing is I don’t envy anyone for their looks either because I don’t even wanna look like any of them. I don’t wanna look like a human because there is just something about the human body that displeases me. Especially the body of a man. I absolutely don’t want to have the body of a human man. Sometimes I fantasize about being a human female but honestly that can also get stale quickly. Something about human bodies, the way it becomes old and decay or how sensitive and delicate it is to how easily dismembered it is idk. I generally just don’t like the design of it. I feel like this about most living beings as well which kinda sucks but yeah. Idk if I’ll ever be happy looking like this. When I was younger I used to plan “accidents” to change myself but usually never went through as they took a lot of courage to do. However when I was taken away from my family at 15 I didn’t have anything to lose and became obsessed with my appearance to the point where I stopped eating and burned my face and finger nails hoping I could mark my entire body in 3rd degrees burns. This time was also different cause I now had alcohol which helped me build up the courage to light myself on fire. My plan failed and I only got a third degree burn in my leg. I became super depressed and constantly fantasied about looking the way I wanted to look and ended up laying in bed for days having maladaptive daydreams about how my crush would react to my looks. This actually carried on for years and eventually I stopped being anorexic as it didn’t fix anything and now ig I have more mental energy to do stuff but I still feel like I’ll never be happy looking like this. Beaty is one of the most important things in life and I have never been able to look the way I want and it’s very hard to do so when your entire species is ugly

I’ve been looking and can only find feathers from males. The most preferred would be female ostrich or a peahen. Other birds work too. Has to be a somewhat reputable site