u/PurpleHarlow

Context:

A family member offered my spouse and I the following - 20% down payment for a new condo that my spouse and I would own and profits are split when the condo is sold. The condo is very reasonably priced considering the current real estate market in Ontario Canada. However do to unexpected circumstances that occurred the down-payment is no longer guaranteed.

My spouse and I (mostly me) kinda romanticized/day dreamed of what it would be like to live there, it would be closer to my spouses workplace he could walk to work, we are looking to start a family in the next year or so and the condo is a 2 bed it would be ready to move in the fall of 2027. The location of the condo is also great close to amenities, and in walking distance from my family memeber, we don't see each other often as we live in opposite ends of the city.

Do to the extenuating circumstances the conversation I had with my spouse is this, we should pray to God about this condo, if its in His will then he will make a way for the 20% down payment, if it's not His will then may He not allow it to happen.

I have anxiety issues, I feel way too nervous and anxious to fully believe that something will come to pass if I do not know for sure how or when it will, ai hate not know how oong something will last, like for example if I going through sowmthing causes me suffering or hardship I want to know how long it will last so I know when it will end. Obviously more often then not I do not end up knowing. This my thorn in flesh you could say 😅

I trust and have faith in God that can do all things, He is the ultimate provider, but I know God is not a genie that grants wishes.

I don't want to believe and get excited that He will do this for us, to be disappointed when He doesn't (that had happened far too often). I feel like I just need to grieve that this will not happen so I don't feel even more disappointed for believing that it will, and then it doesn't. At the same just because I don't see how we can get 20% ($60,000) by the end of the year or by March 2027 the latest, doesn't mean it God can't He can do all things.

So I feel conflicted and confused of how to understand Mark 11:24

[24] "Therefore, I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they will be granted to you."

On one hand I want to be excited and believe God wil I do this and we will get this condo etc but on the other hand its His will over mine, which makes feel like yeah, its not going to happen so I'd rather not get excited just accept that it won't happen, and if does then great and if it doesn't then at least it won't hurt as much.

I hope I make sense, I ask for people to be kind but also direct with what they comment with, I genuinely looking to understand, and if you can share a testimony or prayer, encouragement anything like that would be appreciated.

First of all call center agents of the GoC how are you?

CDCP and EI agents how have you maintained your sanity?

I started with EI in 2022, since Feb or 2025 I have been on assignment with CDCP. I, like many others are burnt out, I have been desperately applying to get out of this call center position since I started, with no advancement.

Is there any hope with the current environment of bring able to move?

My goal isnt necessarily a promotion or a higher pay grade (I wouldn't say no to it) I just don't want to be a call center agent, I want to be off the phones in an admin position so bad.

Feels hopeless and feels like I'll be nothing more than a center agent.

What are the chances of being able to move in the current climate?

4 years ago I prayed and begged God for the job I have....now its the job that I can't stand, I hate it. I work a call centre job for GoC and I naively thought this would be my foot in the door and I would be able to move up or navigating to an administrative position, it will fix my finances etc, I am going on my 5th year as a entry level call centre agent with no sight in being able to move around with the current WFAs and job cuts happening.

Since the day I started I have begged, prayed, asked and cried out of frustration, anxiety and sadness to get a different job position. I have been told do you job as if it's for the Lord, as if I am directly doing or working for Him.

This job honestly has left me a shell of myself, I hate it, I hate the way I have to do it, I hate the way clients are, entitled, lacking common sense, argumentative, exhausting, pure exhaustion. I hate how micromanaged I am, I hate that my schedule is so tightly organized by someone else, every single call monitored, nitpicking at every little thing, meanwhile the standards set by the employer are impossible to achieve 100% so we are set up to fail. Morale is low, people are using sick leave because of burn out. Just feel empty and bitter. No insensitive to try harder, in hopes of being able to grow or move up or to a different position.

I so desperately want to have some sort of side hustle to make money, where I have control and freedom over my schedule, I just dont know what that is. I feel uninspired, no mojo, no passion, no excitement to do or create something.

There are many perks to my job that I am greatful for, I just can't keep pretending or hiding my true feelings of what I have to do to have the perks.

I need to stick it out till at least next fall because my husband and I are in the process of buying a property, but my gosh all I want is to just not be a call centre agent. I feel like I am not good enough or skilled enough for anything else based off the rejections I have gotten for other positions I have applied for. Even though I have experience for an admin position.

I have asked God so many times why am I being kept here? I know I begged for this job more than just trusting you, instead of trusting the provider I trusted the provision. Please Lord just get me out of here....and I here nothing. I see nothing, no glimmer of hope or opportunity.

I just don't know how to have a change of heart or mind about it, or what I should be understanding during the time I am here

Jane Doe 1 found out recently that the Fall of last year they were SA'd by John Doe 2 (Jane Doe 1 was influenced into a "deep sleep" by John Doe 2 🍵) who was the friend of John Doe 1.

John Doe 1 in rage of hearing this attacked John Doe 2 to the point where John Doe 2 ended up in the hospital and John Doe 1 is in jail.

The paternity of a child is also question as a result this.

All of them are non-believers I am the only one who is, I have prayed for the Lord to save them no matter how or what it takes save them, and this happens, I worry that this situation will push them further away from the Lord instead of closer. On the other hand the dark truth has come to light and this may be the situation where they have a radical encounter with the Lord.

Please pray that the Lord heals their hearts, brings justice and shows mercy to John Doe 1 who acted in rage. While what John Doe 1 did was not right, what human who cares for a friend not react that way, (imagine if this was your daughter, or sister or mother who this happened too), I believe that the Lord knows this, that does not mean He will disregard the of the actions of John Doe 1, I just hope and pray for mercy and grace.

I know the Lord is near to the broken hearted and those who crushed in spirit, vengeance is the Lords and the wicked will not go unpunished, I know He is rich in mercy and grace, I believe that the Lord will come through. I am in complete disbelief of what happened and why, and I feel mentally paralyzed.

My mothers mental health has been gradually getting worse, there was a period where she was "stable ". Since the 27th of June the episode started gradually, we (me and other family members) think what triggered it this time was that her Employment Insurance payments have been exhausted.

She first would sit out on the patio and talk as if there was someone there. She then started to leave the house before 8am and not return till 4:30pm or just before 9pm.

She then started to return covered in mud and bring sticks into the house. She said that her 3rd eye has opened and she sees in 5D, and she is a chosen person by the "creator", she has been going to a forest area somewhere and she says she is finding signs and symbols like twigs that fell on top of each other to look like a cross, or a white feather on the ground is the feather of an angel. Odd shaped rocks that symbolize something. Its all very demonic but ahe claims to be a Christian meanwhile she is also racist. She hasn't ate well for awhile but she hasn't at anything in over a week and she is dehydrated you can see on her face and skin, her skin is soo severely sun damaged her face looks like brown leather, she has a water bottle that she refilled maybe twice in one week. She hasn't been bathing either, a family member had to tell her to bath.

We tried to talk to her and address things and it ended abruptly, we tried to set boundaries and we took the twigs and stick out of the house and the house key was taken, she didn't want to give it at first. One family members thought is that she knows she can come in and out of the house and she takes advantage of it. She once said she was going to go back to our home country and when she was asked about when she is going she said now said its not my time to leave, that was sometime this week.

She left the house Friday 3rd of July at around 4:30pm and has not come back since. We don't know what to do, we have spoken with a crisis line and basically our health care in Ontario is soo bad that until she posed physical harm to herself or someone else she won't be kept in the psych ward for treatment. Reporting her would lead to her being brought back to the house but then she would leave again.

This is the lowest she has ever been where she has chosen to sleep outside, the area luckily is safer compared to some and its near an area of new built town homes. But still I am just thinking the worst and the rest of the family think she will return once all her resources have ended, when she has finally hit rock bottom.

Update:

She was seen on the front door camera this morning (5th of July) between 5:07am till 5:16am, 6:09am till 6:24am, and then again from 7:07am till 7:47am.

She didn't ring the doorbell but it seems she may have come back to get more water because she left her water bottle in the front porch.

She isn't living with me, she is living with another family member, they want to essentially provide an ultimatum, express their concerns for her and provide the following options: either you accept medical help and if you do you get the house key back, if not then your ticket out of yhe country will purchased and if you don't take that either then you can't stay here and need to find somewhere else to go. She will most likely choose the latter if the 3, the family member she was staying with feels unsafe, my mother is unpredictable we fear thr voices in her head will tell her to do something dangerous/violent.

My husband(38) and I(31) have been together for over 2 years (have know each for 7+ years) and we just got married a few weeks ago. When we started dating, we agreed to wait till marriage. It was hard at first because we are very attracted to each other and we were all hot and heavy for each other, we set firm boundaries, we didn't want to fornicate like we have in the past with others before we started dating.

As time went on the desire (which i would say was very lust fueled) died down. We got married and that was a bit rocky there was a lot going and we were moving in together the same week we got married. We were both tired, stressed out and overwhelmed. Especially him, he works a job where he is lifting and moving things daily, he starts work at 9am finishes around 7:30pm 5 days a week with another job on Saturdays. The 10 days we took off to get married and move in, out that 8 of those spent moving mostly his things and 1 day was the wedding the next day was the only day we relaxed.

Since then we tried being intimate twice, first time we tapped out half way, the 2nd time we didn't go far at all, we wanted to but it wouldn't go up for him and he was distracted by some pain which later turned out to be an issue with his tooth and ear.

We have been working and neither one of us are in a "sexy" mood, more so him he is tired often, I am worried he is just burnt out and running on auto pilot. With me my job takes a lot of my energy and we are still adjusting things with our home.

Both of us were looking forward to finally being "allowed" to have sex since are married, but it felt like we spent so much time saying no sex before marriage cause its a sin and we should be honoring God etc, that when it came to it we both just felt awkward and now not even in the mood for it.

I initially started being celibate well before we started dating I wanted to do things right and do it the way God intended. We love each other very much and we are attracted to each other but we just don't know how to be intimate in the context of marriage we have both only been intimate with other people outside of marriage, and we are both mentally and physically exhausted.