u/PurplePikaPanda

I know my worth isn’t dependent on either elements of it but I feel sometimes like I’m not good enough to be included in my friends life. As a result I notice I put myself a lot of pressure to succeed socially and romantically both failing.

Romantically it fails because I’m just overwhelmed by how to present myself because I’m worried of not being accepted for who I am since my “friends” already don’t

I don’t want to be in a relationship as a bandaid solution but I miss having moments shared with someone that isn’t just catching up. Looking back at this year I have many memories of a good year but I also look back at the disappointment surrounding friends where most of my conversations are small talk and seeing stories of friends meeting up at things I wasn’t invited to

I know my worth isn’t dependent on either elements of it but I feel sometimes like I’m not good enough to be included in my friends life. As a result I notice I put myself a lot of pressure to succeed socially and romantically both failing.

Romantically it fails because I’m just overwhelmed by how to present myself because I’m worried of not being accepted for who I am since my “friends” already don’t

I don’t want to be in a relationship as a bandaid solution but I miss having moments shared with someone that isn’t just catching up. Looking back at this year I have many memories of a good year but I also look back at the disappointment surrounding friends where most of my conversations are small talk and seeing stories of friends meeting up at things I wasn’t invited to

I’d like to point out, I’m not familiar with his play style but from seeing his stats I notice he is more of an attacking midfielder which tbh I don’t think we need. This isn’t a diss on him and more a check in

We already have many attacking midfielders and I feel we need more of midfielder who can either serve like Kroos or Casemiro. I also love our current midfield, with Fede, Arda and Jude and Brahim on bench and while rotation is good. The amount we’d pay for him he’d start leaving one of the 3 on the bench unless we change formation where Mbappe and Vini are both upfront where hopefully they don’t walk over each other. We will need a RW/RM besides Mastantuono

I feel we should also be looking eventually for someone to replace Courtois when he retires if Lunin were to leave to get more playing time

TLDR: Check in if I’m only one not interested in getting Enzo Fernandez because I feel we need players elsewhere first

My blog: photography/cool buildings/different locations/lesser known places

I am not planning on posting yet because I find the idea of making it more like a book more fun to me than articles considering I’m doing focusing on photography

I want to show off cool buildings that are lesser known whether it’s in a popular location or not. Obviously I’ll include beautiful buildings I find that are popular too.

Here are questions I have:

1. What should I put in text portion a) fun facts (I love) b) ramblings c) quotes/poems I found about said place d) mish mash

2. Should I start with a) Where I live (one of the most visited cities in one of the more visited countries in the world) b) lesser known places and work my way backwards where I will eventually go to the large places last

I don’t even know how to describe it but interested to see if I’m the only one lol

I want to do things linked with my special interest, like making playlists and I want to make travel blog (not limited to where I’ve been). But as I get started I just get tired and I wish that I could have someone help carry that weight.

I’ve been feeling up and down regularly on this with it being bad since the new year and feeling even worse over the past month.

I’m also feeling constantly tired (sleepy) and tired of being the one to reach out to friends but if I don’t reach out I don’t get messages. So I just end up doing things solo which I’m fine with but I wish I didn’t have to do constantly.

PS: is there an AudHD group chat or something because I want a more regular social life but besides coworkers and family I don’t really have that. And god knows how much I’ve tried making friends

I want to sort my music but between genres, emotions I feel, when I hear them and tempo.

My friend tells me I have a fairly emotive taste which I would agree but because I struggle with naming certain emotions idk how to create playlists with that as my North Star. I have some songs where it’s happy but also sad, some song idk even know mood but it’s like comfort but not in the best friend kind of way and more love (like the Village, take me to church and songs like that)

I listen to various genres of EDM, alt/indie rock, pop, musicals, (Glee) and then some other songs from other genres (idk how to describe them).

I wish I could give the songs I like in one playlist then have someone sort them out for me lol