u/Puzzleheaded-Gur3167

Do you regret it? Do you wish you did anything differently?

I'm currently saving up for college and was thinking I could travel to japan for a week than go to college than get a car(1st year I'll have enough for trip to japan & car, 2nd year I'll have enough to go to college) it's not like I could go to college in the 1st year anyway since the college I wanna go to only opens spots 1x a year and I'd need more money than I could make in 1 yr. So I might as well wait, right?

added info: I already doing 1 year of community College while I save up money to go to my dream college(tho only 4 new students a year but I still believe I can get in!) while doing 1 year of community College and part time work I'll plan to have saved 16k but to go to college I need 20k and since my dream college only accepts 1x a year I'd have to wait till the year after anyways. with traveling I may go more than 1 week, maybe up to 1 month, it depends on how much it costs

I can't find an, Google and Facebook don't have clear answers so I came here. What do I measure to find my dogs size?

I'm looking at premade gear and it usually just says panel size 15, 20, ect but not how to measure it

My sister had a friend over(i thought she was gonna be 12-16) but shes like 20-30. She pet my dog who was barking at her and kept trying to pet her even when my dog gave warning bites. I couldnt say anything, i dont know why i didnt try to remove my dog from that situation but i also dont know why she kept getting in my aggressive dogs face. All i could do was cry

Im worried it could set my dog back, shes made AMAZING progress and what if this 1 interaction fucked her up and its all my fault for not being able to say or do anything.

it's also not just this time I froze, I do this with everything, I say nothing, I don't move I just cry

She might have more, I don't have the best memory

1. Sit
2. sit stay/release
3. focus
4. touch
5. orbit
6. spin both ways
7. heel w auto sit
8. up (jump on objects ex: car)
9. lay down/stand
10. recall LEARNING
11. place bed on command + exit
12. Free (after store she gets to relax/stop heeling)
13. chin rest on leg
14. crate on command + exit
15. jump over low beam
16. jump through hoop
17. go through tunnel
18. switch sides walking
19. cross(the road) + hears a car = stop
20. door boundaries + go on
21. DPT LEARNING
22. back up LEARNING
23. Hug(jump to alert to high heart rate) LEARNING - may teach boop or paw to alert instead. it depends!

more info!!! she can heel/loose leash walk next to me for 1hr-2hrs in stores. we've been to Walmart, dicks, Michael's, dollar store, CVS, staples, ect. she can be around distractions like carts, wheelchairs, strollers, birds, people. but we need to work on distractions around dogs barking at her, people barking or making noises at her, cats, horses, and stuff like that. she has been on an elevator and was totally chill with it. she's been through automatic doors too. she can do a 30sec lay & sit stay(up to 20-30ft away), her stand stay is shorter at about 10sec.

I was reading and out of no where rape was in it. It brought up bad memories and i choked myself a bit and had thoughts like if i cut up my body more there will be less of what my body looked like when it happened/if i loose weight ill also look different from when it happened. It happend over 10 years ago and im still not doing well, i feel like shit. And it wasnt even rape it was just SA by 3 different men. The first time it happened I was 7 and when I turned 13-15 I started to try and get men's attention cause of the trauma and it worked for 2 men. I don't have nightmares about it anymore so that's something

I honestly don't know what to do or how to move on

I was watching tv with my mom, when i stood up i got tunnel vision, became wobbly and blurred vision and she asked if i was okay i said "i just got tunnel vision. That happens alot" and she had no further questions and walked away unbotherd

She thinks I've recovered and have been for over a year.

Idk why she's so nonchalant about it😭

I reversed image searched the photos of the dog on Google and no results came, she's been posting since 2021, posts her face and service dog aswell as the dogs she's training and selling. She owns a board and train program and said I could do a down-payment of $250 and pay $200 a month until she's ready, so I asked if we could do a contract. If she does provide me with a contact how do I know it's real? And are there any signs I should watch for?

Instead of getting a puppy I'm thinking of getting a started dog(14-18 months), this dog will already be trained in field/hunting so I can focus on service work and more obedience/trick training while being able to already do bumper and duck dummy retrievals. I also want this dog to do dock diving so a started dog is perfect for that.

For those who got a started dog(for any reason) how did it go?

Like idk if it's just me but when people list their symptoms I'm like okay? I don't give a shit. Like heart problems?? I don't care, teeth erosion, my teeth are already fucked from neglect so whatever. Puffy face? Had that for a while, I hate it but it's liveable. Ya purging is gross, obviously 💀 who thinks it wouldn't be??

I need like actual bad side effects that I'd care about

Tw: sa involving a minor and my trauma responses

I hate my trauma. I was SA'D when i was 7 and my brain blocked it but when i was 13 i remembered it and tried to kms because of it, and throughout the past 5 years since i remembered my brain automatically sexulizes basically everything and its disgusting but my brain wont stop. My brain(when i was ~13-16, i dont remember my exact age) even gave me nightmares for months of my dad raping me to the point i refused to see him, this also happened to my grandpa with me imagining it. And when i was 15-16 id go online and talk to older men and sexulize myself and send pics and stuff. Im now 18 and i hate myself so much but im still struggling with thoughts(way bettwr now tho). I also feel like now that I'm 18 I'm expired and no one wants me, and that you have to be 16 or under to be desirable/loved. I also felt this way when I was 16, that I had to find someone to love me quick before I aged.

I've only ever told 2 people(my ex greif therapist cause my grandma died and my grandma) and when I told my greif therapist what happened she told me that doesn't sound like grieving and she won't see me for another session. And I could tell she didn't believe me and didn't care.

And when I told my grandma(the day it happened mind you) she said he did it because he loved me so I didn't tell anyone again for 10 years until she died and I told my greif therapist.

My current/first dog is a Chow Chow, we do basic obedience/trick training(ex: sit stay, lay stay, stand stay, orbit, place command, heel w auto sit, crate on command + exit, door boundaries, recall, ect), we do Agility practice about 5-10min 2-3x a week(tunnel, hoop jump, normal jump). I will do obedience and trick training with my new dog 5-10min daily and Agility or fastcat if the dog wants(5-10min 2-3x a week). I REALLY want to do dockdiving competitions and 2-3x a week go to a lake/river to swim in and practice getting bumpers. This dog would also need to settle and relax when I'm at work(6-8 hours a day) and if I'm tired or had a long day(some days we have fun, other days we relax). if we have time and only when its 50°-60°f i like to hike 1-3 miles once-twice a week. I will also teach this dog recall so they can sniff and run around in big fields(2-5 acres), i have a 2 acre yard so they can use that daily and I live 10min from a 5 acre field. a This dog would also be my service dog prospect and I will have the breeder temperament test them and match them to me. we will do outings 3x a week for 10min-1hr(regular, most commonis 20-30min) but up to 3 hours(rare, 1x a month or less) depending on the day and how far in training we are.

Anyone else ever take a picture(or look in the mirror) of yourself and are like that's not me? For me it's mainly my face, I just look so different depending on when or where I look. I look smaller than I used to and different, cleaner?, a more baby face but still slimmer, and I can now wrap more fingers around my wrist, my measurements and weight have gone down. But I still don't like my body, I don't look like me, but maybe there is no me. My face looks unfamiliar and i dont like how fat my body looks even tho i am thinner. My face changes so often in my different ID's you can see that.

I also have my period rn and I can't control how much I eat, I'm eating so much now and I can't stop and I'm so exhausted I don't have the energy to compensate(purge) for it unless it's a big binge.

ive never looked like me , i never wamted to be me. Im also part of lgbtq+ and struggle with my geder identity so this could be part of it. I dont want to be a boy or girl, i want no genitalia. I want to be able to be nothing and anything and everything i want all at once

Today she found a tutle and tried to pick it up and carry it(I walked away from the turtle and she was like okay, I'll follow) She sometimes picks up toys and carries them, once in a store she picked out a toy and walked it to the register. She also picks up her flexi leash alot and runs around with it or carries it which is surprising cause it's heavy even for me. And than she also carries any leash that's on her when she has the zoomies.

I've tried to wait it out but she just gets upset and walks away. She'll lay her front body on me and will hold the position but I can't get her butt to go down. I am getting a trainer for this but that's in 2-3 months from now. I'm keeping the sessions short to 2-4 minutes a day. I'm training it while I'm sitting on the ground. She already knows a down stay(and I can walk away from her and she'll stay in her downstay). She's not slipping or trying to get up. She stand comfortably and holds it. She just gets confused when I wait for her to put her butt down

Most people when going though take the gear of do a sit wait, walk through than call the dog through without going back. But my SDIT currently only knows a sit stay. So I was wondering if anyone has taken the gear off, put your dog it a sit stay, walk through, go BACK to your dog release them and walk through together

edit-im not actually taking my SDIT on a flight, this is more of a training question because hospitals also have the metal detectors(which I'd train with first). I'm not planning on taking a flight till at least next fall, so I've got over a year to train more

I was scrolling through 42lolitas website and I saw they have a Homura lolita dress! But it's too expensive 🥲, but I still want to cosplay her, I'm gonna go for a cheaper option($150 or less). BUT I want my dog to match, I want her to be Madoka, so I need tips on how to make her look like Madoka. I was thinking a tutu for kids but I can't find a premade that looks like Madokas magical girl outfit. So I wanna diy it but idk how to make it look good😅. Besides the skirt I'd just do a elastic headband with 2 pink ribbons, which will be easy to make. I mainly just need tips for the skirt!

When I was 13 I started restricting cause my dad(who force fed me in my childhood) was finally kicked out by my mom and that obviously gave me an ED. At 13-14yrs old i restricted and ate>!200-500c!< a day and regularly fasted >!24-72 !<hours(sometimes purged, mainly lax, at one point i used lax daily). I lost my vision once, it went completely black after I stood up, I was dizzy alot and had no energy to even talk. After that(15-16yrs old) I started to eat more and went to >!500-800c!< a day, than it went to >!1,000-1,200c!< a day, than at 17 i ate>!1,500c!<(for 3-6months) a day, I thought I was in recovery but nope. I started binging and now here we are, I'm 18 now and have bulimia. Before I got bulimia I thought oh I'll just purge for 3 months(>!2-4x!< a week for the first 2.5 months) than 3 months came and I said one more month, now it's been 4 months(>!5-9x!< a week for the other 1.5 months) and my new goal is 6 months, and I bet once I hit 6 months my next goal will be 8, than 10, than 12. It won't end. But I can't help but want negative health effects, to be hospitalized, to get heart problems. Maybe it's to feel valid but some part might be because I've only ever felt my mom cared about me when I was hospitalized previously. But I don't want help, help sucks and it's only ever made me worse in the past.

I've been tracking days I purge for my doctors and while looking up criteria for bulimia I saw that there are other forms of purging besides vomit and I was like, wait I've been doing that without realizing it counted as purging. So I purge more than I originally thought I did and have been for years.

I'm thinking of going to the aquarium in a few months with my SDIT, what day and time of the week is the least busy but still has all the fun stuff? I've never been to this aquarium before so I'm also wondering for the people who have been have there been any issues or mean staff? Also just in general what should I bring to the aquarium for my sdit(besides leash, cape/vest, water bowl, lots of water, treats, dog food, mat)? Add on question can I bring a backpack?