I hate this world
I hate everything I hate my body I hate my father o fucking can’t stand shit I just wanna sleep I just wanna go to a home that dosent exist I just want to escape this depressing hell hole of a wold that isn’t filled with anything I wanted I wanna be free I wanna be happy but what the fuck am I supposed to do “go to college get a good job” is that all there is? And what what get lucky? God I swear I only get like this when I’m drunk and I am fuck my life ugh fuck everything, the news is depressing my government wants me dead I can’t even be happy what’s the meaning of all this shit if there truly is a god then why am I so fucking unhappy I’m 16 this shouldn’t be the world I live in fuck this hellhole ugh can’t even feel shit for myself because I’m constantly told I’m blessed for my life is that what god intended? Fuck my life Imnot even religious and I beg for a feeling that isn’t the unending feeling of dread for my future. I only admit this shit when I’m fucked ugh I just wanna be myself without feeling like I’m gonna be crucified or a fat loser