u/RaceHard

So, some context. My mother remarried when I was 11, my step father Charles is and was a relatively nice man to me when growing up but nothing like with my brother. My brother (Luis) was born when I was fourteen and due to various changes at home and moving around by the time he was five I was in community college.

But here is where you start to see the lopsided relationship. Luis was already getting private tutors to learn shit like cursive and how to have a proper accent. Bullshit that Charles was paying for, while Luis did go to public school he was tutored three times a week after school and on weekends. For all sort of extra stuff that Charles cared about like that greek history from the new oddysey movie and other stuff like more algebra and stuff elementary kids don't actually do.

Its been a while now and Luis birthday was a few months back where his gift was a job. Charles made some calls and got him a job in a government office gig. It pays like 40k a year. Luis has a fully paid off car that Charles insisted he needed 20 hours of driving instructors to drive. And he was also given three credit cards that Charles started for him and are fully paid AND a freaking passport too. And turns out that he has been saving money for him since he was a baby and that there are 40k on a bank account for him. Luis does not have to leave home or anything and we are ALL supposed to be happy.

But its bullshit I never got any of that, I had to struggle with finding my first job at BK and then gamestop while going to college. And sure Charles did not kick me out or anything but he sure was not gifting me a car. I mean Luis does not have a super car or anything its a ten year odl mazda but whatever, I was never offered anything like that.

So this thanksgiving dinner I will simply pour my heart out about it, will they think I am an ass for it?

I have been wondering whether neurodivergent and neurotypical viewers sometimes approach Silo very differently, particularly when it comes to remembering details, recognizing patterns, and constructing theories.

To be clear, I understand that “neurodivergent” covers an enormous range of people, and that not all neurodivergent minds process information in the same way. I also do not think every disagreement can be reduced to neurotype. Still, certain traits, such as strong pattern recognition, unusually persistent memory for specific details, intense analytical focus, or a tendency to connect information across many episodes, seem common among at least some neurodivergent viewers.

Because of that, I occasionally find the wider discussion around the show baffling.

There are details from only a few seasons, or even a few episodes, ago that remain crystal clear to me, while other viewers appear to have forgotten them entirely. There are also moments that seem so heavily signposted that I find the repetition almost frustrating, only to discover that many people still did not interpret them that way.

>!The Vitamin D+!< storyline is one example. From the moment it was introduced, it seemed clear to me that the important implication was not simply >!vitamin supplementation.!< The system was establishing a method through which something >!could be distributed to the entire Silo under an ordinary and benevolent explanation.!< Whether every detail of the eventual plan was known yet or not, the underlying mechanism seemed extremely apparent.

I see a similar divide in theory discussions. People sometimes ask questions that are not really unresolved plot mysteries. They are questions about basic engineering, biology, psychology, or logistics that could be answered through a quick search, a calculation, or a conversation with an AI tool. Instead, the discussion becomes a thread of hundreds of mutually incompatible guesses, with speculation piling on top of speculation before anyone checks the simplest factual explanation.

I understand that communal theorizing is part of the fun. People do not always want to research everything, and sometimes they are thinking aloud rather than requesting a definitive answer. Not everyone watches with full attention, not everyone remembers details equally, and not everyone enjoys reducing a mystery to a technical explanation.

Still, I sometimes wonder whether modern audiences have become overly dependent on explicit exposition. Does information now have to be directly stated in dialogue before most viewers treat it as meaningful? Are people less inclined to pause, investigate, and reason independently because online discussion makes it easier to throw every possibility into a crowd and wait for someone else to sort it out?

My intention is not to declare neurodivergent viewers smarter or neurotypical viewers incapable. Plenty of neurotypical people are intensely analytical, and plenty of neurodivergent people watch television casually. I am interested in whether there is a meaningful difference in how certain viewers retain information, recognize narrative signaling, tolerate ambiguity, and decide when a theory requires evidence.

For those of you who participate in Silo theorizing, do you tend to remember small details automatically, or do you need the show to remind you? Do you research real-world questions before building a theory, or is the open speculation itself the enjoyable part? Have you noticed that clues which seem painfully obvious to one group of viewers can be almost invisible to another?

Its been a rough time, I have tried since he was five to get him into some structure. Team and individual sports. But he has consistently hated it and not tried at all. He tried baseball when he was 8 for a grand total of 30 minutes. He not only does not do sports himself, he hates the concept of it. I can't talk football with him or basketball because he could not care the least about it. Does not even know the positions of the games. He won't go to the gym, won't even play foosball with his brother. He spends most of his time outside school in his bedroom on his laptop. Either reading, or watching anime or paying games. Occasionally coding he says. I am worried that he has no friends, no girlfriend, and he does not go out. He is the complete oposite of his brother who is only 2 years older. I just don't know what to do I feel like we can't bond and I also feel fearful that he is not ready for the world. He also refuses to learn to drive, says its a waste of time because cars will be automatic when he is old.

There really is little to say, i have always just gone with the flow onto the next event in life. But I have reached the end of my rope and I feel that the only thing left is oblivion. My entire life has pretty much been wake up go to school get back home. I did not even go out anywhere until highschool and that was cause friends were paying for the movie tickets for me.

My first job was gamestop, then starbucks, then other retail at the airport mall. I heard from a friend about substitute teaching and tried it for bit. Then my mother got really sick and took care of her as best as I could until she died. And for the past four years i have barely held on as a substitute teacher. But financially its dead, its the summer, I got nothing. I'm applying to 13 jobs a day and even thought i have a bachelors i get no answer.

People I knew from the gamestop days became lawyers and got carreers even one guy from the airport mall got a fairly nice job. My nephew makes 150k as a regional manager for a big chain store. And here I am with nothing 15 years older and not a thing to show for it.

I am on the verge of homelessness and contemplating bad thoughts. But even that is just a pipe dream. if I was told that hey you can live in this box apartment for free and do nothing at all. I would take it. I live in a tiny box already it barely has space for the twin bed and my laptop desk. And i would be happy to live the rest of my life here if I could. I don't know what is wrong with me or how to fix it.

My sister said I am never going to get anywhere in life that I have no desires and no ambition that there was zero way any woman would ever be interested in me and that I am certainly dying a virgin. It should've hurt to hear that, but honestly, it just sounded like the truth. Is there even a point to living? Just to suffer? I no longer know joy, havent been happy in so long I have forgotten what that is.

And now with the looming threat of being out on the streets because i cant even scrounge up 600 a month I feel worthless. I dont even deserve a rejection from those places I apply to, its just silence that I get. Its not like i wont try, i put on a front for the two zoom interviews I have gotten so far but both ended so quickly it was obvious they did not want me.

Between 3 credit cards, its like 6k in one, 6k in another and 3k in another.

They are maxed. Due in 4 days. I dont have money or a job anymore. I have maybe 30 days of a home. im 35M with a useless Computer IT Bachelors that i have never worked in as a field. I have struggled over the last 3 years with the debt, not making headway and I guess this is my finish line. I no longer know what to do, no application gets an answer, taco bell basically said overqualified and old. So im looking at sleeping on the streets in a month if I don't find a solution.