u/Random_Introvert_42

So...I watched an amusement park documentary and they interviewed an employee of Europa Park who said thrill-seekers should ride coasters in the evening as the track "warms up" so the trains run the fastest in the evening after having cycled all day. Is that true? Does track (and I guess suspension-)temperature make a difference like that?

Ok, etwas holprig aber ich erklär's: Ich hatte letztes Jahr einen sehr schweren Autounfall, volles Programm mit Rausschneiden, Koma, Luftrettung, etc. Ich bin (wohl entgegen der Erwartungen) wieder auf den Beinen und halbwegs funktionstüchtig, aber mit Einschränkungen vor allem von 'nem Hirnschaden. Jetzt ist mir mittlerweile mehrfach gesagt worden ich soll das "in die Öffentlichkeit tragen", "was daraus machen", "das für die Gemeinschaft nutzen". Als "Speaker", im TV oder online, Aufmerksamkeit für Verkehrssicherheit/Koma/Hirnschäden generieren, Aufklären, als Motivationsspender für Leute die sich mit ähnlichem herumschlagen dienen.

Nur....wie ginge das? Vor allem wenn man jetzt nicht sehr extrovertiert ist und nicht eh schon mit großem Social Media Gefolge herumrennt. Von den Vorschlagenden gabs da immer mehr oder weniger n Schulterzucken bzw "XY (da waren schon Martin Rütter und Gina Rühl dabei) hats doch auch geschafft". Deshalb frag ich jetzt mal hier.

The blog (which can also be found on Reddit under r/TrainCrashSeries) usually covers railway-incidents, this is the second time it's covered a roller coaster accident after previously publishing an article on the Smiler-collision.

Der ID.Polo GTI, das derzeitige Topmodell, gibt 6.8s auf 100 an und eine Höchstgeschwindigkeit von 175kmh.

Die Höchstgeschwindigkeit toppt schon ein Golf IV 1.6 (Werksangabe) oder ein gut laufender 1.4. Die 0-100 ist 0.3s schneller als ein handgeschalteter Golf IV VR6 (der den Polo bei der Höchstgeschwindigkeit komplett stehenlässt). Letzterer wiegt tatsächlich ca genausoviel wie der Polo, hat aber auch Allrad an Bord. (Notiz am Rande, größtentechnisch hat der ID-Polo den 90s-Golf eingeholt).

Für den Spaß hätte VW aber auch gern min. 40.000 Euro. Für den Golf VR6 legt man maximal nicht einmal die Hälfte hin. Mit allerlei Ausstattung.

Was genau ist also der Reiz, auf den VW bei dem GTI setzt? man will n elektrisches (Stadt)auto? Da gibts bessere/günstigere Kandidaten. Auch unter Neuwagen. ID-Polo OHNE GTI-Ausstattung inklusive.
Man will einen zügigen VW-Kompakten? Warum dann den ID-GTI nehmen wenn es dutzende Optionen mit denselben oder besseren Fahrleistungen für weniger € gibt?
Man will einen schnellen Stromer? Auch da gibts bessere Optionen als den Elektro-Polo.

(Und bevor gemeckert wird, das ist kein "gehate" auf den ID-Polo, ich find den gar nicht schlecht, ich sehe den Reiz der GTI-Version nur nicht.
Die Unsinnigkeit von "Injection" auf einem Elektroauto außen vor, solchen Murks machen ja auch andere Marken.)

I kinda don't know how to word this but I still...needed to talk/ask about it so...sorry if it gets confusing (didn't really know what flair to use, either).

I was told in various ways that me surviving my accident at all was a "miracle", that I "used up all the state's guardian angels", that it looked "more like recovery than rescue", that "someone must have plans for me" etc. When my parents were notified about my accident the wording about my condition was "if he makes it" (sure scared them). After a few weeks the doctors/nurses/etc started talking about how I'd pulled "an impressive recovery".
I watched a docu-series (accompanying an emergency doctor) on TV yesterday and they happened to talk about someone who'd had a similar-ish accident and survived "against all odds", with the emergency doctor there describing more or less my accident as a "worst case scenario" in modern road traffic (tiny car vs big car with high speed-difference). Which felt...weird.

And yeah I've gradually looked at the remains of my car and...it makes no sense at all that I lived, much less that I'm still walking around on my original legs. I've literally had someone ask me how I managed that and I...can't explain it. The car (ignoring the damage caused by the fire department peeling me out of it) doesn't look like there was survival-space for the driver, someone on a forum calculated the impact forces and....they make no sense (to me) either.

Maybe it's because I'm not really a person who believes in "higher powers" or that sort of thing but...I really don't know how to handle the situation, the status of "I objectively shouldn't be here still". Talking about the accident tends to feel more like "woe is me", mentioning the insane absurdity of me surviving feels like...bragging? Seeing the survivor on that docu-series, or being told I should write about it/"become a speaker" or so....how? It's not just me being introverted, it's...I did f*ck all in that. I got blindsided by the other car, cut out, put in an artificial coma and flown to a specialized clinic. I had exactly zero input on what happened, be it the survival or the initial "impressive" recovery. But I also can't just go "alright, glad I survived, moving on".

I guess what I'm trying to say (I'm falling into blabbering, sorry) is...has anyone found themselves in a similar situation, being faced with somehow handling a "nonsensical" survival? It might make no sense but I'm kinda stuck on "what am I supposed to do now?" since apparently my accident was a bit...out of the norm :/

(I hope that post made some resemblance of sense)

So...my accident was in September, and I've supposedly done pretty decent with recovering. Externally I pretty much only got some scars and (oddly permanent) bruises left, but even those are "gone" if I got a shirt and 3/4-length pants on. I do have some "invisible" physical damage though, related to a TBI, the hospital stay, and there's some mental/psychological consequences too. And maybe it's because I'm an introverted person, but I REALLY HATE IT when those consequences make me behave "odd", draw attention, etc. I "stick out" sometimes, and I can't change that, and it's really uncomfortable. Especially because I look "fine". Even when I get a chance to explain why I am the way I am...that's not always something I want to do either (generally, but also "woe is me"-kind of feeling). I get exhausted fast, even from non-physical "efforts" (like dinner party kind of events), my memory is shit, I struggle with word-finding difficulty and emotional regulation, I get headaches a lot...and I can't "act over" that all the time.

Like today, at a rehab-gym (!!), some trainer I'd never interacted with walked up, looked at my training plan and went "you could do a little more, don't you think?"? I did shut him up with "I'm not doing not too bad for having been in a coma half a year ago", but...I don't know if he believes me, I don't want to bring that up all the time, and it got me some weird looks from people around us :/ And that was a literal place with *only* people in a rehab-program for something. And even there I apparently stuck out.

Don't get me wrong, I know I should be happy that I still got all my original limbs, can use them all, etc, and I am, but...I sometimes feel like that "looking normal"-thing also makes it stick out more when I hit limits caused by the internal stuff :| I feel like maybe people would be more understanding if something was "visibly wrong".

I hope that makes sense :/