I thought I was numb to romantic feelings, but then I found hope
I don't know if this is the right kind of subreddit for this or if I used the right flair, if I'm wrong about either of these things please correct me and direct me to a subreddit that IS appropriate for this kind of thing. So, for context:
I'm 15 years old, male, and in my second semester of tenth grade. Being Autistic, I was bullied throughout elementary school (middle school is part of elementary school where I live) because I acted different from everyone else, and if I did anything that was embarrassing that people would have just completely ignored if it was anyone else, people made it a huge deal and didn't let me forget it for years. It got so bad to the point that I thought I might have subconsciously cut myself off from feeling any kind of romantic attraction, because I knew that if people found out about it, they would instantly tell everyone and embarrass me even more.
Then, when I got to high school, I pretty much got a fresh start, but the trauma from the bullied I experienced throughout elementary school still lingered. I still found myself feeling no romantic feelings whatsoever, and on top of that, even talking to people became hard for me because I was afraid of embarrassing myself.
Then, in my second semester of ninth grade, I met this girl. Actually, maybe "met" isn't the right word, because although we were in the same science class, we never interacted with each other. It wasn't until we had another class together in my first semester of tenth grade that I actually interacted with her.
After getting to know her, I found out that she's one of the kindest people I've ever met, and that we have several similar interests like music and anime. Late in the semester, I developed feelings for her. After finally developing romantic feelings for someone after so long of feeling nothing, I found hope that I wouldn't die alone because of my past trauma.
Things aren't all good though. When the second semester of tenth grade started, I no longer had any classes with the girl I liked, so now I don't know how to interact with her without making it awkward. What can I do?