u/Raymond_R_

It is my personal playlist and my playlist for my personal aesthetic lol

The description is the title in hex and “God” in binary. I wrote it myself, I can spell in both lol.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/60NMqLJoWHFhZKsmhNfIGI?si=dq06RCO1QEalNZtJNLuXtg&pi=ix406ZpWRwCUM

I dont even mean this politically, I just think theyre hot. GENUINELY.

Its also worth mentioning I have a framed photo of Voltaire on my nightstand like hes my dead husband.

I feel like the most normal one is Harlan Ellison which isnt a good sign.

I usually practice in French as well but I couldnt be bothered. For the quiz though, 49 20 47 4F 54 20 41 4E 20 41

Also what we think about the tramp stamp✌️

Ftm? no no, FtAM 😭✌️

(99% chance I’m gonna do this btw 💔)

Peak am I right.

(I ate three biscuits with far too much honey 💔)

Just curious. I do believe in the “anything is possible”, so I’m not doubting that, I’m just wondering if anyone else has had success?

I don’t just mean making your voice smoother or a little deeper I mean a drastic change.

Even if you haven’t, any advice is appreciated. I think it might be a tricky matter since we hear our own voice constantly, but that’s just my opinion.

(I’ve been using a personal sub with affs in it pertaining to desired voice for the last day and I’m not sure my speaking voice has actually chanhed, BUT BUT my “internal monolougue” voice is starting to, a bit.

My parents have done it my entire life, and many others have done it.

As soon as an arguement is started and they accuse you of something and you reply back, it’s suddenly defensive. Does not matter the tone.

You could be calm, angry, yelling, crying.

If you say ANYTHING back, no matter how calm, you’re “getting all defensive”.

This goes into a whole “well you’re getting all defensive, and it’s making me want to shut down”. even if you’re calm. or just excited. If you don’t agree, you’re “defensive”.

there is a difference between arguing a point and being hostile and defensive.

Hello! I hope yall dont mind me visiting, its just something Ive been curious about.

What is it like being trans and POC? Whats it like bein POC in general?

Im rather the stereotypical white American, blond, blue eyes and southern. Never grew up around anyone who wasnt just white. Ive...talked to two people my age who were my ages at the times who werent white, in my ENTIRE life. Not by choice mind you, it just happened that way lmao. I really dont know where the experiences differ, what struggles there are.

Something I noticed for me, I truly struggled/struggle with the idea that not everyone is gonna like me or someone's gonna dislike me solely for a stupid matter, like being trans. Since my whole life I lived I never faced any sort of discrimination or hate in any way, suddenly facing it while already beaten down by dysphoria is..fun. I just constantly feel this need to make myself as palatable as possible so even the most bigoted of bigots would like me. Which I recognize is impossible, but its still the idiotic thought pattern I have. I dont know if anyone else has dealt with this, or if its some form of white privilege.

Im just curious, what is it like? How does it feel?

I really hope yall dont think Im invading any spaces, I just figured this would be the place to ask.

(this isn’t self promotion it’s my own personal subliminal I just thought it looked funny)

Yall gotta watch the first part of the video to really get the joke too 😭😭

https://youtu.be/Bji0GGvHXIo?si=QCmwdsgjJdIQGh9G

(DESPITE HOW SINISTER IT LOOKS I PROMISE THERES NOTHING BAD, THE JOKE IS JUST THE AUDIO I OVERLAYED AT THE BEGINNING AND END. IF YOU WORRY, USE A FLUSH AFTER. ITS JUST A PERSONAL BEAUTY + DESIRED VOICE SUBLIMINAL. the overlayed audio is for the desired voice part 😭😭🙏)

Can I actually be a man. A boy. Whatever.

I see it constantly. That trans people are just delusional, we’re mentally ill, we need therapy to make us be our natal sex, we‘re like schizophrenics. Or psychosis. That gender affirming care is just mutilation and we just need therapy.

It’s quite hard for me to argue these things when my dysphoria DOES make me mentally ill. It makes me suicidal (mostly cause people don’t accept me. Not that I hate myself.), it makes me depressed. It gives me body dysmorphia. Distress. Dysphoria is in the DSM-V right next to all the other disorders.

I hear constantly “you can’t change reality”, “I guess they’re trying to convince children reality is..flexible or something” (my father’s words), “you can’t be something you’re not”, “I just accepted I couldnt change it and was fine!“, “you just gotta accept you’re a girl. Youre not a boy, you know that right?”

I look like a boy even. I may be closeted but to all outward appearances I look like a theatrical southern boy (oh boy let’s not try to unpack the torture my very accent inflicts upon me, a constant reminder that I can never return to my home for I will be hated and seen as nothing but my reproductive organs. That Id only be stared at with scorn and hatred if the truth were revealed.) so it’s not even that I feel lesser for however I look.

I just worry..what if I am just delusional? What then? Even if I follow that I can’t force myself to be a girl. I truly can’t. If I were to choose not to be trans the other choice would be death. “Give me liberty or give me death” ahh statement. But is that not a sign I’m just mentally ill? The way a paranoid schizophrenic believes things? BUT WHAT THEN? I JUST CANNOT FORCE MYSELF. NO MATTER HOW MUCH LESSER I FEEL, HOW MUCH I HATE MYSELF, HOW MUCH I SOB, HOW MUCH I WISH IT WERE DIFFERENT, NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES IM TOLD THINGS..I just can’t.

I just want to know if I can really be a man. It’s all I want. If I really can be one. I fear, like now, no matter how much I look like one I’ll always feel a fraud. Like I’m hiding some terrible secret. Like I’m just a shitty actor commiting a sin. I just always feel like an imposter. Like someones gonna rip the mask away and see the “woman” underneath.

Sorry for the rant. Mods please don’t nuke me, I spoilered, I gave a tw. I just genuinely need help. I do believe other trans men are men I just have REALLY messed up internalized transphobia. Like I genuinely do believe OTHER trans guys are men just not ME for some reason, no matter what I do. MAN AND I ALWAYS PICTURE MYSELF FEMALE OR FEMININE LOOKIN BACK IN MEMORY. IM SHOOTIN MYSELF IN THE FOOT OUT HERE. 🫩 Also being told gender is just a social construct isn’t gonna help I’m severely brainrotted atp

(“I think therefore I AM” A= a M= man)

(someone get the reference I’m begging)

It’s a widely discussed idea on here that making your own subliminals is more effective then relying on another’s work. This is especially true when you want something really specific, or want a subliminal that covers all your desires.

I finally decided to take this advice and start making my own. I use a website specifically for making subliminals, though I am open to others methods.

Now. The questions.

-What speed is best to put affirmations at

-What volume is best for affirmations, relative to the overlaying

-What sounds are best? Frequencies? White/pink/brown noise? Rain? Something related to the topic? (I.e. if you’re making a desired voice subliminal you use voice clips of the desired voice. Or let’s say you’re manifesting golden brown hair and use the song “Golden Brown”.)

-Best formulas?
-Layering? Yes? No? How? Also, does layering not make it harder for your subconscious to process? just a question, I’ve seen sub makers do it a lot.

-How to write affs? Not just “I am _“ or “I have _“ but other things you’ve come up with?

-How to write a detailed sub when the topic is simple? (I.e. manifesting an eye colour slightly different from yours)

-What’s up with sub makers saying they used “spells”?

-Extra affs that should be added BESIDES ones directly related to the topic? for example if you’re manifesting height but add in “I have a high self concept” or something.

-How to write a booster?

-Should a booster be included?

etc etc

!ON A PERSONAL LEVEL!

I am thinking of trying to manifest a SPECIFIC voice (yall will never guess/s) but it is..very different from mine. Any suggestions on affs for it since it would be both manifesting my voice drop quite a bit, my tone change, inflections change, way of speaking change, and everything else? Plus extra advice on how to do it since we hear our voices 24/7? I thought once of the idea that changing the voice of your inner monolougue to your desired and perhaps it would help?

ANY ADVICE IS APPRECIATED NOT JUST ABOUT THIS TOPIC!

I was at a party for my piano recital coming up (tomorrow, wish me luck) and my deadname (obviously femme) and she/her were used by the teacher. I’m forced to be closeted so, not his fault.
ANYWAYS.

I was talking to the boy next to me, jokin around, and he was calling me he/him (I hadn’t mentioned it at all) and I know he saw me as a cis guy. SOMEHOW. EVEN AFTER HEARING MY DEADNAME REPEATEDLY AND MY VOICE OF COURSE. HE DIDNT EVEN QUESTION IT AND HE WOULDVE IF HE FOUND IT WEIRD.

Also bonus hopecore no one made fun of my accent lmao (if one more Californian copies it as a “joke“ or calls me a hick I’m gonna slime them out into a soft jellied thing 💔💔)

Ive seen subliminals for manifesting drugs, which is close enough mdrr

Anyways. is it possible? there are plenty of people who use subs for a new iPhone or somethin so I don’t see why cigarettes would be impossible, even if I see no easy way of it happening.

I suppose is it also possible to manifest the scent not sticking on everything?/s

Im fine with making my own subliminal.

(please don’t lecture me, I’m aware what I’m doing and why I shouldn’t. need not lecture me, it is my choice.)

RIGHT. This is my persona aesthetic, of which I can pull off because my natural features make me look uncanny and corpselike. Godbless for that really. Also I’m Southern, so my ridiculously thick accent is carrying the Americana. (just saying I’m not cosplaying that 😭) It all matches my personality and hobbies and interests as well lol

Im wondering what yall think of it? Name suggestions? How to truly combine it? Opinions? I’m aware it’s a bit all over the place.

I once had a framed photo of Voltaire on my bedside like he was my beloved husband away at war.

my favorite transmasc pride flag 🥹✌️ I too am filled with hatred for I cannot truly transcend my physichal form and have nothing but loathing born from a sort of jealousy.

(guys this is a joke, and I don’t mean to make fun of any of yall so please don’t take offense 🙏🙏)