u/RemoteTest3605

SO BASICALLY, i make youtube videos and this is important to the context of this story. i am also 16 years old, which is also important to the story.

i dont do this anymore, but there was once a time when i was in sugar daddy forums and would sell n*des. I HAVE SINCE STOPPED DOING THAT for a plethora of reasons. it makes me feel dirty, its illegal and feeding literal scum (ped0s), it goes against all my morals. the reason i WAS doing it was for validation and money, which was NOT worth it. i DO NOT do that anymore and i dont associate with the me who made those choices. im embarrassed and ashamed and disgusted in myself.

NOW, on my youtube i posted a storytime about that time during my life when a particular pay pig tried blackmailing me. its been a while since ive done anything like that so i felt comfortable enough to get it off my chest. with a quick view of my profile you can see that i promote my youtube here on reddit, so like always i promoted that video on here.

i was banned from 3 of my favorite forums and i messaged the mods to try to clear things up. we went back and forth for a while. they explained very politely that i was banned because i posted nsfw content(the youtube video). i stopped messaging to get unbanned because the reason they banned me was completely valid and instead continued talking just to clarify that im not that person anymore. i am not that person anymore, i dont want to be viewed as that. they insisted that i was, that posting the YouTube video was proof that i was “advertising”. i tried to explain yet again and they shamed me (in their defense the things ive done in the past warrants judgement).

so why am i making this post? its more a venting thing. i dont think they did anything wrong because in their perspective all they know about me is what they can look at when i post. however, i want to make it clear right now that im disgusted that ive made those choices in the past and there is no part of me that desires to do that stuff again. i didnt post the youtube video to advertise but to get it off my chest because living with secrets and distain for my actions drains my soul. i am not a bad person, please believe that. i guess i cant decide if im a “bad person” because ill always be biased. what i can say with full certainty is that im trying not to be a bad person.

my last post is the outfit i wore and now i bought some bright ass loose tied pink and orange striped pants