Hi I’m turning 21 this month and I don’t know what to do to celebrate. I only have one friend and my boyfriend. I don’t know many people. I would only be inviting my bf and his brother and my friend. So just the four of us, I need ideas that won’t make me feel like a loser for not being able to drink when I turn 21 because I’m on probation.
I smoke weed but I live in Texas so that’s not an option unless I drive to New Mexico.

I can’t even touch the cup. I’m given a white flat plastic stick that has a hole on one end to hold the cup to use as a handle. I’ve got 24 months and I’m only 1 month in so far. The first time I was on probation it was for 20 months and I failed every single drug test for thc. Sometime through my 20 months I had got a prescription for thc through the compassionate use program in Texas but they still were discouraging me from using. This time I got my thc prescription approved by the judge. My lawyer asked him in open court if he would approve it following with lots of reasoning and context. My lawyer filed a motion to adjust my probation conditions to get it filed. So I can’t get violated for it anymore. Which is so stupid I got violated for it even though the prescription that was written by a doctor that represents the state of Texas like what a fucking clown show with the weed laws out here.

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Me 20F and my 24M bf have been together for almost three years of dating. We moved in together before we started dating. We have been living together ever since. We have been homeless together (shelters, hotels, my car) and we currently live in a 2016 Catalina coachmen and it’s doing us nicely for our little life but I can’t help but always feel like we have no emotional connection. He was brought up in a household that would punish him for crying or having emotions basically. Now as an adult he has an incredibly difficult time making any sort of emotional connection. He works a blue collar job as a lead electrician so I understand most days he is tired and doesn’t have any energy for me. I wish he would compliment me. I wish he would look at me. I wish he was more perverted towards me. I wish I felt like he wanted me. When we are in the car he just is on his phone if he’s not driving and then at home he usually is just playing cod on his ps5 and then just goes to bed as soon as he gets off the game and makes zero time for me. I feel so ignored and under appreciated. I don’t have a job as for lack of transportation so I’m a stay at home girlfriend. The laundry is always clean, the dishes are done, I make him home cooked meals at least 5 times a week on average, I keep our rv spotless. (while also owning a dog and cat in a small space). I just see how other guys talk about their girl and brag about their girl and it’s like why won’t he do that for me? I’ve literally been begging him to please just treat me like he is interested in me. He said he really does want to do all that kind of stuff but he says it makes him feel uncomfortable to basically show love and it makes him feel weird bc of his childhood.

All I want is for my boyfriend to come home from work and look happy to see me. I just want to feel appreciated.

When I don’t take my psych meds on time, my life is horrible. For example, if I wake up at noon, it’s already been way too long without my meds and I wake up in a state of panic, anxiety, and depression. I try to set an alarm to take my meds before I have to get up and then go back to sleep so that when I wake up my meds have kicked in already. I’m struggling with keeping on top of that and I end up not taking care of it early in the morning and I woke up today at 12 overflowing with anxiety I just busted out into tears as soon as I opened my eyes it’s like I couldn’t even handle being alive at that point. When this happens I get into hysterical emotions and it’s so difficult for me to calm down. If I managed to take a clonazepam to calm me down, it’s so weird I can feel the meds working at first and it’s so uncomfortable. In my mind I can tell the meds are trying to change my thoughts and it makes me physically and mentally uncomfortable until it keeps kicking in and I get the relief. I struggle feeling like I’m insane. I feel like I’m crazy and every day I think about death.