I love u so very much my sweet baby I wish u would never leave me I wish we could've worked things out I wish I could've held on to my patience with u a bit longer I wish I savored our last kiss I wish there didn't have to be a last time for anything I wish I had every memory im gonna listen to ur old voicemails again and let myself yearn and tear apart for another year I can't take this
I was falling in love
Now im only falling apart
Nothing i can do
Total eclipse of the heart :(
I'm 20 in LA very lonely no job no school just looking for someone to get out of the house with ive been isolated from the world for a while. Im down to do anything try new things just genuine ppl I wouldnt judge anyone I dont wanna feel judged, I love to laugh :) or even just keeping company ive been lonely a very long time
I'm 20 in LA very lonely no job no school just looking for someone to get out of the house with ive been isolated from the world for a while. Im down to do anything try new things just genuine ppl I wouldnt judge anyone I dont wanna feel judged , I love to laugh :) or even just keeping company ive been lonely a very long time
Cuz there was an actual realistic chance there. I would've truly stayed. An actual life changing decision. I fucking loved you.
U cheated u lied no matter what I did or said. U manipulated me and still take no accountability for what you've done to me, definitely dont even feel fucking bad. Ur so happy with making me believe it was my fault and making me blame and hurt myself for it and u never protected me. I have so much to offer, and I know there are so many people who would never even think of doing what u did to me.
Not at all. Ur gone. I stayed in the end u didnt. I remember when we first met 5 years ago now in July, I told u that you'd be the one to leave me.
...
I project myself on u
Then back to me
There's a reason that she doesn't call me back
It's the way
It's the way it really seems
Y u acting like u fucking forgot me
They all gonna laugh
Same hoes talking on what they never know
They'll learn to reap what they sow
I'll be the one to teach them math
Complexity in holding their hand
With the same one that reach for the hip
I used to look in their eyes when I speak
Now never explain
just let it hit
Make sure they never forget
Now they scream
Saying sorry they never mean
I know now love they never meant
Regret in every heart I sent
But I don't wanna be the fool
In anger I've always known the sore loser
For a play of words I secretly keep a tool
No cheating in a game I never agreed to
They search for the fragility in me they once knew
But that's a side even I mourn losing
A limerence buried beside a girl I miss
Cuz I grieve the days when a kiss was just a kiss
They undressed the suit into disdain
Convinced me mutual love was something insane
They thought my cries would only turn cold
But I never stagnated inside my cope
They severed our ties
I made a noose from the rope
Horribly smiled stabbing myself
With the same knives left in my back
Learned to savor wine dripping from the cracks
Back when I still believed in hope
Now powder in my nose
A different kinda smoke
The extreme of a newer life
I ain't the one they once knew
Words turned wounds
Scarred me indefinitely
In places I once let them see
So I feed my fire with those sticks and
stones
The same ones that pierced me sitting alone
Now I show them the extreme
Of the reality they taught to me
Bang.
Then suddenly
Their world spills the same color
We were all taught to call love
Red.
Roses
Valentines
Sweet cherry kisses
Red.
The color of lust disguised as devotion
The shade behind temptation in motion
Purity colliding with sin
Still maybe I'll let another in
But until then
I'll follow memory to the edge of the earth
Red trailing behind every step
Not death
But the burial
Of who we were instead.
Dead.
Like the version of us I saw in the future
now gone before it ever arrived
All I see now is
Red
They all gonna laugh
Same hoes talking on what they never know
They'll learn to reap what they sow
I'll be the one to teach them math
Complexity in holding their hand
With the same one that reach for the hip
I used to look in their eyes when I speak
Now never explain
just let it hit
Make sure they never forget
Now they scream
Saying sorry they never mean
I know now love they never meant
Regret in every heart I sent
But I don't wanna be the fool
In anger I've always known the sore loser
For a play of words I secretly keep a tool
No cheating in a game I never agreed to
They search for the fragility in me they once knew
But that's a side even I mourn losing
A limerence buried beside a girl I miss
Cuz I grieve the days when a kiss was just a kiss
They undressed the suit into disdain
Convinced me mutual love was something insane
They thought my cries would only turn cold
But I never stagnated inside my cope
They severed our ties
I made a noose from the rope
Horribly smiled stabbing myself
With the same knives left in my back
Learned to savor wine dripping from the cracks
Back when I still believed in hope
Now powder in my nose
A different kinda smoke
The extreme of a newer life
I ain't the one they once knew
Words turned wounds
Scarred me indefinitely
In places I once let them see
So I feed my fire with those sticks and
stones
The same ones that pierced me sitting alone
Now I show them the extreme
Of the reality they taught to me
Bang.
Then suddenly
Their world spills the same color
We were all taught to call love
Red.
Roses
Valentines
Sweet cherry kisses
Red.
The color of lust disguised as devotion
The shade behind temptation in motion
Purity colliding with sin
Still maybe I'll let another in
But until then
I'll follow memory to the edge of the earth
Red trailing behind every step
Not death
But the burial
Of who we were instead.
Dead.
Like the version of us I saw in the future
now gone before it ever arrived
All I see now is
Red
Can you tell me sweet things?
Rhetorical I know the real answer tho
I did You Wrong
My heart went out of place
And in the game
I lost you
What a price to pay...
I'm crying
Ohhhh baby baby :(
Each night under this moon
I sit alone
Hoping you get home soon
Come home soon
I sit in my room
Each and every night
Wondering how you are
Are you feeling all alone?
For I, miss you sooo
For I, love you soooo :(
And I never let you go...
In my very last goodbye. Maybe not last for me cuz u know I cant get over this and u r already over it but u agreed to never reply to me not matter what so I can finally move on too. I hope in my final absence, you find happiness that I could never give you. I wish you nothing but the best deep deep in my heart i hope you have everything you ever want. Keep building lol ill try to mind my own buissness :)
And I cant force myself to feel differently. Its just how I feel and I havent been able to want anyone else