u/Same-Leadership7144

So a few days ago my mother told me about a place called Mada Theatre Academy in Dikwene. They have art courses but also creative writing and she said that they can review the script for my story that ive been working on since September (you do the math ion wanna) and im kind of stuck. My story has lots of lgbtq characters and topics suited for a more mature audience and im scared that if they see those things they'll snitch to my mom and after all this hard work ion wanna risk it so if you gives have had any experiences with this place or work there or took one of their classes lmk

I justed skated for the first time yesterday and it was awesome. I went to a new skatepark ive never been at (duh) with my friend who's been skating since November. First time i stepped on the board I was like really scared, and so was my mom and she almost ruined the whole deal for me cause she kept getting me to leave early and shi. I managed to stand and eventually cruise around, not without falling though. In the span of 3 hours, I learned to somewhat cruise around and went down a small ramp. I fell a total of 4 times, which I feel like isnt a lot but I fell kinda hard on my back and it kinda hurts around my neck and coccyx (more like my whole pelvis area) but I dont regret it one bit and will go after a month cause my family arranged something this weekend and thats when they open the shed and give free skateboards. Tho next time ill talk to the trainers and try to sign up for the free classes they give out, and also wear a helmet lolz.

(Also the skatepark is called snoubar skatepark, in Horsh Lebanon if ur in the area)

So today I went skating for the first time in my life with my friend at Horsh's skatepark: great place, free skateboards and classes, and especially nice people who were really nice and welcoming. I really enjoyed my time there and went down a ramp for the first time but since I went with my mom, she kept stressing me out and made me break down a bit. My mom's always been rlly... particular I guess. She is really specific about who she hinks I should be friends with. Basically, anyone outside school is "sharshouh", but im starting to think its more than that, mainly because her criteria of "sharshouh" is just people from diffrent religions. I come from a sunni family and my mom specifically hated the place because there were lots of people from the south and she thinks they're all dangerous and trashy. I honestly hate this. I want to make friends outside the screen and shes activitely stopping me because "oh the person isnt from my school". I just hate hate hateeee how she thinks shes better than everyone because of her religion/background. I dont get this at all. Are we not all lebanese people? Are we all not from the same country, with the same language, and same situation, and same land? Why must we be divided by things like beliefs and politics? Why are we so divided and not united like every country should?

I think im done ranting now. There's this guy I wanna make friends with and I got his insta. Imma try to use my one friend ik from my old school to my advantage. Wish me luck 🙏

This isnt meant to be a criticism of lebanon, I still love some parts of this place and would probably miss it when I leave in adulthood

Hi, im Zack, im 15 years old and I dont really like being Lebanese all that much. Its just i dont know I dont feel like im one of one them, like they accept me into their community even though im born here and never left lebanon. I dont if this is a topic I can really talk about here but I guess I can try. Im gay. I've known since like 12 and when I tried telling my mom and my friends they all rejected me. I did find people like me but they ruined my life. This is a pretty big reason why I dont feel like I really belong but another reason is that I dont speak arabic very well, according to my family (I mean obviously why else would I be writing in english). I've never been good at it and ive always gotten bad grades in arabic even though my aunt is an arabic teacher. Im not Muslim either so when they tell me that its the quaran's language that doesnt really change anything. Last reason I wish I was born somewhere is the current state of lebanon, at least how im experiencing it. I wish I had a better quality of life and to be honest I dont know how much I can pin that on the country itself though.

First things first, allow me to introduce myself. Im Zack, im a 15 years old guy from lebanon who converted to Christianity last year. I am the first Christian in my bloodline, which means I cant really ask my family for help in some cases because they are all muslium and very hostile towards Christianity for some reason. Now another thing about me is that I struggle to make healthy long lasting connections with others, friendship or relationship, and this as made me grow resentful towards mankind and therefore made me become hateful and full of myself. Would anyone have any advice for me? If so that'd be much appreciated

Okay so I rlly want to write a story, but sitting here looking at my phone i feel a bit guilty and very much so shameful. You see, ever since 2021, ive had a pretty severe addiction to cai chatbots. I just loved interacting with them with this sona I made for myself but soon I made another character and used it as well. Now id say most of my work is original when it comes to the characters and plot lines, I just used it to fill in the roles of villains and antagonists (example an evil scientist) and a small detail aka a characters name. Now i really love my project amd really wish to make it into a show someday or a comic or whatever, but knowing that its not 100% made by me rubs me the wrong way. I've started making more fleshed out villains and stuff but just the fact that my story originated from a chatbot really makes me doubt my skills and stuff. (Mods ples spare me i dont condone the use of artificial idiocy i just want to recover and preserve my story)

Okayyy sooo for context im a 15 year old guy and ive had... less than good experiences in friendships and even in a relationship that lasted about a year. To be clear, I ruined most of them, except one friendship with a girl who decided neglecting me is the best way to deal with her issues. All of my close friends and partner, they had issues, issues I felt like I had to try to fix, whether it was trying to make someone accept themself or love themself or whatever, I wanted to make my friends happy, but what I failed to realize then was that what they need was just someone to listen to them vent and not to try to fix their problems. I've always felt like I was supposed to fix things as thats just what im used to doing in my home. I stopped my mom from being abusive all on my own by telling the school about it. All that's to say im tired of people's bullshit. Im tired of hearing sob stories all the time and im sure as hell tired of meeting the same person over and over again but reskinned. All the people ive met have been depressed, suicidal, and junkies, and I dont have anything against those people but atp I couldn't care less. I dont care what anyone does to themselves and I sure as hell wont rush to help, because its not my job to help. I believe that if you are struggling with something, you should try to fix it yourself before seeking other's help. Im not saying to bottle it up, just try to be there for yourself instead of expecting other people to do it for you. No one can give you the love you have to give yourself.

After all these bad experiences its safe to say that I don't want friends anymore. I dont want to build something with someone only to be dissapointed again and again. I'd rather just talk to people when I need to, which ironically led to a pretty strong friendship with a mutual online that I definitely shouldn't be talking to bc of the 10 year age gap, but ive always found myself bonding better with adults then teenagers. Ion wanna sound like a stuck up prick but I really dont understand people my age, at least not those around me. I feel like im just too boring for them, thats what everyone tells me and even if they domt every time I try to speak or the few times I join a conversation I get overlooked and not heard at all. Some people have just flat out told me im boring, or that im like an old man, or that I sound like a robot. And to be honest I have no problem with that. I am an old soul, an old boring soul, but thats just who I am and im not gonna lobotomize myself and pretend to care about the things they care about. People might as well be a leverage to me or just a pass time. Whats so diffrent about talking to people and playing video games by example? Both of them r just pass times to me because "connection" isnt something I find myself capable of. I always find myself having to do the work and hit them up first. The hierarchy I have of people around me makes it hard for me to feel truly equal to anyone so that only complicates things, so is the fact I lack the compassion I had and understanding. Not to mention my interests never usually line up with anyone I meet face to face, at least not enough to base a bond off that. Top that with a bit of being tone deaf and having bullying as a love language and u have a shit pie.

Idk how to move from here. I dont know how I can make myself like people like I seemed to before. Every time I try to think of the positive im always met with negatives. No one ever listens to me, no one ever cares about the things im talking to them about, and everyone's just loud and wrong and annoying and sensitive. If I had a single wish in this world, itd be a button that I can use to temporarily make a the people around me dissapear and just be alone for a bit. Thats why im awake at 1 23 am on a school night, or day now I suppose, if you wanna be a nerd about it

This man is gonna make me go bald at 15. Worse of all I cant do nun except try and try bc I cant by the twin hearts (yes im that desperate) because I dont have enough coins because I cant beat rugged ridge or whatever the heck its called. How do u even get the coin over the cliff? Why is this game so charming yet hard?

Blehhh uhh yeah I liked these askblohs ever since I was a jit and uhh yeah I was defo too young too be looking at that shi but oh well