u/SaveMe3221

I have a serious gambling problem and I am in a huge debt. honestly, I am running out of ideas, so I’m hoping someone here has dealt with something similar. My biggest problem right now is Duel. For the record, I told their support and they either ignored it or told me get help in real life, we do not have such option etc.. so they literally do not give a flying fuck. They are the DEVILS. They’re basically the only crypto casino I can still access after asking other casinos to block me. I’ve contacted pretty much every other crypto casino I used to play on and told them directly that I’m a gambling addict, that I was making multiple accounts to get around restrictions, and that I needed to be permanently blocked. For example, Shuffle and Rainbet actually blocked me properly. I can’t access them anymore, even with a VPN, I am only getting a black screen and have only one devixe. Duel is completely different. I can self-exclude, make a new account literally seconds later, and deposit again. I don’t even need an email address or a VPN. It’s basically username, password, deposit and I’m gambling again. This has become a huge problem because I’ve lost an insane amount of money on Duel. I’ve blown through paycheck after paycheck there. Whenever I’m sitting at home bored and get the urge to gamble, I know I can be back on Duel within seconds, and that’s exactly what keeps happening. I’ve tried Gamban, Cold Turkey and other blocking software. None of it has been enough because I can always find a way to remove or bypass it. I’ve been to therapy, I’ve tried Gamblers Anonymous, and I don’t gamble in person anymore. I’ve actually managed to stop gambling physically, but online gambling is still fucking me over, and Duel is the main problem because they’re the one place I can keep making new accounts and depositing. I’m not looking for someone to tell me to just install Gamban or self-exclude because I’ve already done that and it hasn’t worked. I’m trying to find an actual technical solution to block ONE specific website from my phone permanently, including if I try to use a VPN, without blocking the rest of my phone or the entire internet. Ideally I want something I can set up once and then not be able to disable when I get the urge. Has anyone actually managed to do this? I’m at the point where I know I can’t rely on willpower, so I need to make it technically difficult or impossible for me to access this one site. Any practical advice would be seriously appreciated. They don’t have bonuses as well so every time I lost, I couldn’t wait for let’s say monthly to have something to eat but I trash every fucking thing there. I lost thousands, like literally thousands and I still cannot find a way to avoid them.

I can’t believe when was the last time I didn’t bet for 20+ days. 10 years of hell, I really hope I will not relapse as I did many, many times. After about 15 days you realize how gambling doesn’t make sense and how pointless it is. Losing thousands every month, depression, anxiety, embarrassment… month after month. Still drowning in debt but I honestly feel better and see a way out. I relapsed millions of times and even after pausing for some time I always came back; not sure why, every time I realized it’s pointless and wrong I felt better and more confident yet I came back. Just one small bet changes it all.. I really hope this time I won’t be back. I can’t remember the last time I managed to avoid it for 20 days.. urges are there too so I hope I will make it. Stay safe, everyone.

Samo otvoren i upaljen, nekoriscen. Uz njega bi isla i kutija. Kupljen u yettelu

Pre oko 2 meseca prodao sam USDT preko Binance P2P platforme. Kupac, tj neka devojka mi je uplatila novac na bankovni račun, nakon čega sam oslobodio kripto. Ime i prezime se podudaraju na Binance-u i na bankovnom racunu, sto uvek i proverim pa sam joj pustio kripto. Samo da napomenem da Binance trazi sve moguce podatke za registraciju, pasos, lk, pa cak i snimak sa lk….Transakcija je uredno završena na Binance-u i imam zvaničan P2P Order Receipt sa order brojem, datumom, iznosom i potvrdom da je transakcija completed.
Nakon toga, banka me je kontaktirala jer je platilac reklamirao transakciju (ne samo ovu nego valjda vise njih na Binance-u) kao zloupotrebu i rezervisala mi iznos od 130.000 RSD… da li je ona to radila da bi dobila novac nazad ili je neko ukrao njene podatke zaista ne znam, ali svakako ne objasnjava cinjenicu da je ona uredno bila registrovana na Binance-u i verifikovana.. jedino ako joj neko nije ukrao sve moguce podatke i naterao je da se snimi s licnom kartom. Elem, navodno je ta devojka u junu prijavila zloupotrebu racuna u aprilu….Transakcija je od aprila! Tražili su dokaz osnova priliva.
Dostavio sam:
Binance P2P Order Receipt (gde pise njeno i moje ime)
istoriju transakcije,
prepisku sa kupcem direktno sa Binance-a
Banka mi je odgovorila da ne može da prihvati P2P potvrdu kao adekvatan dokaz jer smatra da P2P trgovanje između fizičkih lica nije regulisano u Srbiji i da kao dokaz prihvata isključivo ugovore i fakture.
Uložio sam zvaničan prigovor banci i čekam odgovor.
Da li je neko imao slično iskustvo ili zna koji bi bili naredni koraci? Da li ovakav stav banke ima zakonsko uporište i da li ima smisla dalje se obraćati NBS ili angažovati advokata? Da se razumemo i nije toliki problem platiti, ali kako je moguce da neko prijavi transakciju posle 2 meseca i moja banka ne stane na moju stranu, i unapred me optuzi? Molim da se javljaju samo oni koji su upuceni, ne znam kome da se obratim a savet mi je sada zaista potreban jer zelim da zastitim sebe, nikada nikoga nisam prevario niti bih to ikada uradio, jednostavno želim pravdu a ne da me neko otvoreno krade. Hvala unapred

Has anyone experienced this type of anxiety?
I developed an anxiety disorder after a traumatic experience with drugs when I was 14. Never touched drugs since. I am now 24 and for more than 10 years I have not had a single day where my body felt completely normal.
The strange thing is that I am not afraid of panic attacks anymore. I know what they are. I know I am not dying. I have done all the medical tests and everything came back normal.
My problem is that my body seems stuck in a constant fight-or-flight state. I wake up with my heart already pounding, I have constant jaw tension and pain, shaking legs, exhaustion, fatigue, weakness, and this terrible feeling that my whole body is under stress for no reason.
I have tried multiple medications, psychiatrists, and different approaches, but nothing has ever brought me back to feeling normal.
I am not looking for someone to tell me “don’t worry, it’s anxiety” because I already know that. I want to know if anyone has experienced a nervous system that feels permanently switched on for years and if anything actually helped them.
I feel like my mind is calm, but my body is constantly fighting against me. I even developed ulcerative colitis and yeah.. I am really tired.

In the last month, I’ve had two experiences that genuinely left me confused. The first happened while I was in the hospital. I met a nurse there and we got along really well during my stay. Some other nurse told me that she is married so I mentioned that in the next convo with her, and she said: yeah everyone here thinks that, but we separated. We do not see each other anymore and live apart. Then we talked a lot, there was obvious chemistry in person, she gave me her phone number before I left(was very nervous to ask but she gave it) we hugged goodbye, and we talked about getting a drink after I got out of the hospital. She hold my hand a couple of times, always were touching me and even rested her head on my shoulder. After I left, I texted her.. she replied: I am sitting with my husband. When are we giving you the therapy? Are you feeling better? That confused me because she had never mentioned him before during my stay, only once when I did, and after that the conversation basically died. I later asked if the drink was still happening and never got a reply. The second situation happened last night. I met a girl while out with friends. We talked for a long time, she told me I was polite and gentlemanly, we got along great, she held my hand, found herself on my Instagram through my phone and followed herself. Accepted and followed back also yesterday night, maybe half an hour later. We talked about going on a date and seeing where things go. Before leaving, I told her I’d give her my number and she could contact me whenever she wanted. She liked the idea and took my number. The next morning (today) I woke up and found out she had blocked me. No damn reason at all!! She could just remove me or something, why the hell would you block me? What confuses me is that this isn’t an isolated thing. My experiences with women often seem to follow the same pattern: in person everything goes great, we laugh, talk, exchange contact information, there seems to be mutual interest, and then afterwards they disappear, stop replying, remove me, or block me. I’m honestly trying to understand whether I’m repeatedly running into unusual situations, or if there’s a pattern in my behavior that I simply can’t see. Because from my perspective, things seem to go really well face to face, but somehow fall apart immediately afterward

Spoiler alert, it’s something bad. I wasted my whole paycheck in 20 mins at the beginning of the month and was left with 20 bucks for 10 days. Was surviving on one meal a day, got into 4 k debt this month, was deeply depressed and ashamed.. so I was praying to God every day for some bonus from the company, some additional payment, some shit that might save me.. well something happened. Bank called me today and accused me of P2P transaction from two months back with some user that reported today that it wasn’t him who sent the funds. It was 1.2 k. Yeah, I sent some proofs to the bank and they rejected it, asking for something else and etc. Not sure how it’ll end but if it does bad, I will have to pay 1.2 k and I already released crypto in that same amount two months ago. Another day, another loss. Worst period ever for me, 4k debt personal debt and 15k credit card debt (all borrowed this month!!!), with 0 in my bank and 0 until Monday (the salary day). I am 24 only but having health issues like I am 50, lost everything I ever had and earned. No car, no girl, no family.. instead of showing everyone who I really am I spent my whole life gambling and ruining relationships. Most of my debt is towards loan sharks so yeah, good luck with that you stupid addicted idiot. Why don’t I just shoot myself? Can’t afford a gun is the only logical explanation. Don’t gamble guys, please.

I am 25 male from Europe, I wasted my whole paycheck for 20 minutes as soon as I received it. Had to borrow from loan sharks to pay my rent and I owe about 4k now. I have a pretty decent salary for my country but I took another job right now at the direct competitors apart from the one I am working so I can pay my debts off. Scared to death that they will discover me and that I will be fired, and if that happens there might be a big problem with loan sharks. I also have nowhere to go if I lose this job. Is it worth the risk? I honestly have no idea. This is the worst period I ever had and may God help me to survive and get out of this hole I dug somehow. I have around 20 bucks for the next 5 days until my salary. The worst addiction out there and worst I have ever been so far. I really hope I will make it out. Love you all and thank you everyone for the support which I never got before in real life.

24 male here from Europe. I got into 4k debt in May only. I also do have a bank cc debt, around 14k euros left but it’s a monthly payment so not bothering me that much. But as of this.. I owe to loan sharks and my friends. I make 2k a month but when I pay my rent and everything else, I won’t be left with almost nothing. In a worse case scenario I will be paying this 4 k debt for around 6-8 months.. Yep, the whole year destroyed. What about you, how long took you or will take you to pay the debts off? My biggest problem is that when I have debts, I cannot live normally. Wherever I go, whatever I do, no matter on what I focus.. I always think about the debts I have.

This month I took it too far, lost the paycheck in 20 minutes, had to borrow from loan sharks for my rent, then lost some of the borrowed money too, then borrowed from my friends and lost that as well.. I had terrible relapses and phases in my life when it comes to gambling but this one was worst by far. Not only that I had money last month but I had a lot and lost all of it and got myself into a debt again, for millionth time; but this debt and losses were much bigger than before. Salary is in 10 days and I have around 30 bucks on me, barely leaving my home and eating some cheap stuff just to survive. No more gambling for me, ever, I am done here. I am reading the Allan Carr’s book, some other ones too, trying to watch the movies and to meditate, to exercise, to focus on something else.. but it’s not going well. My mind is constantly checking bank apps and my crypto wallets where I am paid to to see if some miracle arrived, some bonus or anything, picturing and thinking what if something good happens, what if I receive a couple of k now from my company as a reward, what if this and that.. I know the miracle won’t happen, to be frank I didn’t deserve it at all, I know that consequences are here now and I must stay strong, but I am bored and so depressed without the money and with those losses which ruined my summer that I genuinely have no idea what to do next.. cannot focus on anything literally except on debt, how much I could have and those fucking what ifs….10 more days of this, and days are sooo long. Any advice and support is appreciated. Thank you god for this great community.

Last month I had 3k saved and no debt. This month I have lost everything and now I owe 1650 euros to a loan shark, 500 bucks to my friends and 2k to my colleague (girl). I am so ashamed to the point that I just want to stop existing. I have 20 dollars to my name until 15th of this month. Came to the point where I have no one else to ask for money at least to survive. Even the loan shark told me that he cannot lend me anymore. My salary is 2k dollars a month and in the next 6 months or so I will be penniless. No car, no girl, no family, nothing. I have nothing literally, except the anxiety disorder which I cannot heal from. Gambling ruined and destroyed me. Relationships and trust from my friends are broken, and I have done it god knows which time, but this time is worse by far. I managed to borrow from everyone I could and there is no one else left that can save me this time. 10 days with 20 bucks? Sure, no idea how but yeah

24m here. I was in the hospital for 7 days as I had some problems and I met this nurse there. She is 2 years older than me only and we matched instantly. She then called me to chill with her and some other nurse together as I was youngest there and me and both of them were similar age. We chilled for some time and spoke, then she started touching me on my arm, she laid down and I started touching her hair and etc. We had a great time and her shift passed so tomorrow another nurse told me that she is engaged as I mentioned that this one is beautiful to me, and also that other nurse told me that it’s a shame that she is engaged and that we would be a great couple. Anyway there was another shift of hers and we started chilling again, ate together, were left alone and spoke for some time and I intentionally asked do you live with your husband? She said no, I am living alone, everyone here thinks that my marriage is going well and that I am happy but honestly its over, and said that she felt a need to tell me that. Night ended and in her next shift I was going home, and hugged her, she was cuddling with me and laid on my shoulder. I asked if she would be ok if I take her out, she said yes and gave me her number. In between we spoke a lot more and without me asking that one time she NEVER mentioned her husband or boyfriend. I decided to message her two days after she gave me a number and asked her how she is as she mentioned she barely sleeps, and she responded “Sitting with my husband. How about you? Taking your meds?” Dude….. I replied something short and she just left me on seen. I messaged again asking how she is, and if she wants to go out with me when she is free. No response. What the actual fuck? She probably wanted the attention, yeah, but why giving me number? She was so gentle, lovely and caring in the hospital and I could see in her eyes that she cared. Obviously I will give up at this point but why, why would she do this?

Last month I had 3k to my name and no debt at all, except for the bank credit one which I of course gambled away 2 years ago - around 15 k euros left. Now I have 100 bucks to my name until my salary which is in 25 days. I have around 2k in debt to my colleague and around 1400 euros debt to a loan shark. Feeling sick of myself and unable to go out, unable to do anything except for a work which I have to do and I am working from home. I have a very good salary and much higher than a lot of people in my country (around 2k), but yeah, it’ll take me around 5 months to pay everything off and to live on bare minimum. Another summer destroyed and I am only 24. Years are passing by and I am still destroying myself every once in a while. Stay safe folks.

Debts again after being debt free for some time. I will need a couple of months for personal loans and 2-4 years for a bank loan to be paid off. Ironically I never bought myself anything with around 20k which I borrowed from a bank. By anything I mean a car or anything bigger. No car, no apartment or gold, nothing. Gambling destroyed me and I look 35 even though I am 24. I was so happy with my friends after trying to off myself three days ago after a loss and was laughing and enjoying, then I remembered that I am in debt again and that I have no money again so I almost started crying. I am definitely cursed and it’s so hard to be happy. I hate myself and gambling and coming back to this over and over after doing well for some time is just.. self hate and hell. I love life but my summer is destroyed for sure - another one. I feel sick remembering what I did. Just today spoke with my friend and he told me that he wishes he has my salary as I am able to save some money every month..irony huh? This hurts man, this hurts so much to the point where I am tired, just a zombie walking and living through this hell which I created.

Yesterday I lost my whole paycheck, around 2k in 30 minutes. I didn’t even pay rent, bills, phone bill, haven’t pay off my debts.. I feel sick and cannot get up. I work from home and have a decent salary in my country with which I can live however I wish, but yeah, here I am, covered in debts and owe around 15k to a bank loan, around 2k to a friend of mine and now 1.2 k to a loan shark which I needed to borrow today to pay my rent and to survive this month. Last month I had 3k to my name and was having a great time, felt amazing, no debts except for a bank but got it under control..I am scared I will lose my job, I have no motivation to get up, I cannot breathe properly. This is god knows which time I am doing the same. I am 24 only but constantly thinking of killing myself. No parents, no family at all, no girlfriend, no car, nothing.. gambling took everything for me. I hate myself and hate everything around me. I did so many bad things to feed my addiction plus I drank a lot and while drinking instead of enjoying I always think of how much I gambled away (around 40k and more) and it makes me aggressive so people are avoiding me. I would be homeless if I didn’t get the cash today from a loan shark which I know. No idea how will I pay that off either. I feel sick and tired of myself, honestly.

I got paid yesterday and was calculating everything as always, and would be living on minimum due to losing everything last month and lending money from some people. Now I lost my paycheck and whole 2k is gone. I don’t even have a money to pay rent, to pay a bank credit which I owe because of gambling. I don’t have money for bills, food, phone bills, and I don’t have anywhere to go. I feel sick and will probably end up killing myself. If there is a rock bottom, here it is. Next payment is maybe in 30 days, so no idea how am I going to survive. I hate myself and my life. Self exclusion doesn’t help as I keep creating new accounts and keep on losing. Next step? No idea.

I was an amazing kid, played soccer and studied hard. I was so pure and smart, caring, kind. However, my issues started at a very young age: I saw my father only a couple of times in my life and my mother wasn’t ever really there for me. I never felt truly loved. I started drinking with mates at around 14 and never really stopped. Back then and now as well, I drink only once a week or a couple of times a month. Basically, what happened with me is that I developed an anxiety at such a young age; it was a weed induced trauma and psychotic attack which I never recovered from. Since then, I was not in a serious relationship, I have an anxiety whenever I meet someone new, my heart beats like crazy, I am shaking and sweating and etc. I can only feel secure and confident when I am drunk, well I used to be, but lately whenever I drink I feel much worse too. Nothing is working out for me, I cannot have a girlfriend (looks is not a problem, that’s for sure), I cannot relax. After drinking night I feel shame a couple of days after, anxiety the day after and depression two days after so strong that I want to off myself. I did so many terrible things while drunk, I look and behave disgusting, I speak like I am retarded, I always reach out for a bag and then things get worse too. I am a nice person while sober and others love spending time with me but I don’t feel good when I am, I am anxious and scared, my mind is just against me until I have a first drink. I started masking my problems off with alcohol and people usually know me and remember me only when I was drunk which is disgusting as I feel like I have so much to offer, but when drunk everythinf worse about me and all the saddness I feel on the inside just comes out. No therapy and meds ever helped, no meditation, nothing; and believe me I tried. What do you guys suggest me? I obviously cannot keep this up, I feel so bad because of what alcohol is doing to me and what kind of behaviour I show towards others when drunk. When sober, everybody loves me but I hate myself. When drunk, I love myself but everybody hates me and laughs at me. Deep down I am just a sad, lonely person. Any suggestions and advices are appreciated, but I don’t know what to do anymore, anything I started I stopped doing because of a drunk and stupid nights I had. My only happiness and situation I am looking forward is night out, knowing that I will get so drunk to forget everything around me and that I will be depressed days and weeks after yet I keep doing so. I really need love, a girl who can truly love me, yet I never found one as I was always scared to go out with her sober. I am bleeding on the inside. I am also scared to show people who I really am when sober as they all know me when I was drunk and disgusting, so my mind is telling me that there is no point in pretending. It’s like people who told me I am disgusting and terrible when drunk convinced me that I really am that kind of a person overall and I cannot change it ever.

Didn’t know where to start, and didn’t know to which community I should go to, so I will just leave a message right here. I was an amazing kid, played soccer and studied hard. I was so pure and smart, caring, kind. However, my issues started at a very young age: I saw my father only a couple of times in my life and my mother wasn’t ever really there for me. I never felt truly loved. I started drinking with mates at around 14 and never really stopped. Back then and now as well, I drink only once a week or a couple of times a month. Basically, what happened with me is that I developed an anxiety at such a young age; it was a weed induced trauma and psychotic attack which I never recovered from. Since then, I was not in a serious relationship, I have an anxiety whenever I meet someone new, my heart beats like crazy, I am shaking and sweating and etc. I can only feel secure and confident when I am drunk, well I used to be, but lately whenever I drink I feel much worse too. Nothing is working out for me, I cannot have a girlfriend (looks is not a problem, that’s for sure), I cannot relax. After drinking night I feel shame a couple of days after, anxiety the day after and depression two days after so strong that I want to off myself. I did so many terrible things while drunk, I look and behave disgusting, I speak like I am retarded, I always reach out for a bag and then things get worse too. I am a nice person while sober and others love spending time with me but I don’t feel good when I am, I am anxious and scared, my mind is just against me until I have a first drink. I started masking my problems off with alcohol and people usually know me and remember me only when I was drunk which is disgusting as I feel like I have so much to offer, but when drunk everythinf worse about me and all the saddness I feel on the inside just comes out. No therapy and meds ever helped, no meditation, nothing; and believe me I tried. What do you guys suggest me? I obviously cannot keep this up, I feel so bad because of what alcohol is doing to me and what kind of behaviour I show towards others when drunk. When sober, everybody loves me but I hate myself. When drunk, I love myself but everybody hates me and laughs at me. Deep down I am just a sad, lonely person. Any suggestions and advices are appreciated, but I don’t know what to do anymore, anything I started I stopped doing because of a drunk and stupid nights I had. My only happiness and situation I am looking forward is night out, knowing that I will get so drunk to forget everything around me and that I will be depressed days and weeks after yet I keep doing so. I really need love, a girl who can truly love me, yet I never found one as I was always scared to go out with her sober. I am bleeding on the inside. I am also scared to show people who I really am when sober as they all know me when I was drunk and disgusting, so my mind is telling me that there is no point in pretending. It’s like people who told me I am disgusting and terrible when drunk convinced me that I really am that kind of a person overall and I cannot change it ever.