Do I even want to heal?
Hi.
I’m upon high suspicion that I have Anorexia. I think about food and weight constantly, and I don’t really know what to do.
I know I cant get better without medical intervention, but how do I tell my parents that I’m really struggling? Part of me wants to get better, be done with this, but part of me wants to be skinnier before I ask for help.
I think I want to be skinnier because I think people will take me seriously, or maybe just the part of me that is this ed just wants me to reach my goal weight before I go running to anyone for help.
I don’t really know what to do, or why I want this.
I really hate talking about my feelings, so I’ve been pretty reluctant to tell anyone about my problems.
Somehow, I eat very little but still gain weight which I dont understand and also kinda just triggers me more into my ed.
Idk what I’m really asking for here, but I just kinda want some advice on what to do.
Part of why I havent told anyone is because I think it will upset them, also since I‘m not underweight part of me thinks I don’t have an ed and it’s like a false alarm to tell my parents. idk.