Do I even want to heal?

Hi.

I’m upon high suspicion that I have Anorexia. I think about food and weight constantly, and I don’t really know what to do.

I know I cant get better without medical intervention, but how do I tell my parents that I’m really struggling? Part of me wants to get better, be done with this, but part of me wants to be skinnier before I ask for help.
I think I want to be skinnier because I think people will take me seriously, or maybe just the part of me that is this ed just wants me to reach my goal weight before I go running to anyone for help.

I don’t really know what to do, or why I want this.

I really hate talking about my feelings, so I’ve been pretty reluctant to tell anyone about my problems.

Somehow, I eat very little but still gain weight which I dont understand and also kinda just triggers me more into my ed.
Idk what I’m really asking for here, but I just kinda want some advice on what to do.

Part of why I havent told anyone is because I think it will upset them, also since I‘m not underweight part of me thinks I don’t have an ed and it’s like a false alarm to tell my parents. idk.

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u/Sea_Cockroach_9100 — 1 day ago

why can’t i eat more?

Hi, I’m a 5’3 female and I weigh 118lbs. I get maybe 5000 steps a day? idk. I eat 800-900 cals a day, I feel physically sick if I eat more than that.

Any guesses why?

I also don’t really understand this, but I’ll eat like 700 calories and then gain weight. How is this even possible? Do I have the metabolism of a fucking alligator?

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u/Sea_Cockroach_9100 — 1 day ago
▲ 57 r/cutting

be honest, if you saw my arms would you notice?

they do turn a little more purple when i’m cold.

the ones on my thigh are my most recent ones, almost 23 days old. all the others are older than that, but mostly less than a year. theres a bunch that arent visible unless i pull on my skin and then theres a ton of white lines.

u/Sea_Cockroach_9100 — 1 day ago

Do I even want to heal?

Hi.

I’m upon high suspicion that I have Anorexia. I think about food and weight constantly, and I don’t really know what to do.

I know I cant get better without medical intervention, but how do I tell my parents that I’m really struggling? Part of me wants to get better, be done with this, but part of me wants to be skinnier before I ask for help.
I think I want to be skinnier because I think people will take me seriously, or maybe just the part of me that is this ed just wants me to reach my goal weight before I go running to anyone for help.

I don’t really know what to do, or why I want this.

I really hate talking about my feelings, so I’ve been pretty reluctant to tell anyone about my problems.

Somehow, I eat very little but still gain weight which I dont understand and also kinda just triggers me more into my ed.
Idk what I’m really asking for here, but I just kinda want some advice on what to do.

Part of why I havent told anyone is because I think it will upset them, also since I‘m not underweight part of me thinks I don’t have an ed and it’s like a false alarm to tell my parents. idk.

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u/Sea_Cockroach_9100 — 6 days ago
▲ 2 r/Underweight+1 crossposts

why can’t i eat more?

Hi, I’m a 5’4 female and I weigh 121lbs. I get maybe 5000 steps a day? idk. I eat 800-900 cals a day, I feel physically sick if I eat more than that.

Any guesses why?

I also don’t really understand this, but I’ll eat like 700 calories and then gain weight. How is this even possible? Do I have the metabolism of a fucking alligator?

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u/Sea_Cockroach_9100 — 6 days ago