I hate my work place and this is all my faut....
I can't take it anymore. I am exhausted. I'm at my lowest point and I feel like I see no way out.
I can't stand the place where I work anymore. I just can't. It has completely destroyed me.
This is entirely my fault... I let this happen right from the first red flags that appeared.
I've been working for them for a year and I have never been respected.
This company in Romania does not respect its employees. They only respect those close to them. It's a construction company that operates as a family business.
They don't pay salaries on a monthly basis, or at least I don't think they do. I tend to believe they just pass the money around among themselves and use the regular employees and laborers as slaves. It also breaks my heart that we have many workers who came from Asian countries, for example Sri Lanka, and the company treats them terribly.
What expectations could I possibly have left for the Romanian employees?
They have simply broken me mentally. I demanded my rights through a formal complaint, which only made things worse. I was moved far away from home and put in a filthy, unfurnished, roach-infested apartment with 3 other guys from Sri Lanka.
They forged my signature and lied that I had resigned when the authorities I filed the complaint with came for an inspection. They mock and abuse me every single day.
I was given an ultimatum on Friday... 'Either you stay here with us, or you go home.'
They told me that the job position I was working at on the site back home has been eliminated. Verbally, on Friday. Not a single piece of paper to prove this.
In a whole year, I haven't received a single payslip, so I don't even know if my state taxes and contributions in Romania are being paid.
I have one more week left to stay here, and things seem to be getting worse and worse. I feel the abuse intensifying by the day. I feel it destroying me more and more mentally.
Theoretically, on June 3rd I was supposed to go back home and continue working there. That option no longer exists.
Everyone tells me how disappointed they are in me, that they can't stand me anymore, that I smell awful, that I'm lazy, that I do nothing. Bullying to the bitter end.
The worst part is that right now, I haven't received my salary in two months and I have no way to leave. I don't know if I'll ever see that money if I leave by resigning.
We've been living solely off my girlfriend's money... which is very little... whenever I got my salary, I made efforts to compensate for her efforts and help her out.
I haven't had a salary for two months. She is desperate, I am desperate.
I can't do this anymore.... I really can't....
I'm writing all these lines with tears in my eyes....
I tried everything. I tried to be good. I tried to work as legal as possible and I tried to be honest everytime....
I just can't do it anymore......