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life just feels brighter. confidence, clarity, love, joy, peace, serenity, been attending PAA and seeing a CSAT, just got accepted in university, messaged the girl I’ve loved since high school, working and saving nearly $2k a month, $70k in investments, fit, young, live at gome, life is good, I have so, so much to be thankful for.

life just feels brighter. confidence, clarity, love, joy, peace, serenity, been attending PAA and seeing a CSAT, just got accepted in university, messaged the girl I’ve loved since high school, working and saving nearly $2k a month, $70k in investments, fit, young, live at gome, life is good, I have so, so much to be thankful for.

life is better, working, attending PAA, keeping well, messaged the girl I’ve loved since high school, journalling, praying, seeking the Lord, building real authentic relationshipà. It’s do worrh it

I work at a fast food place and a guest starting unhinging out of nowhere after I responded with “we only have one size, do you want a Cobb salad or a southwest? those are our largest” to their “do you have a large salad” question? I guess they wanted a yes or no, including cutting me off, potentially cussing in a foreign language, completely disrespectful, while I would usually have to communicate a boundary, this time I was so calm and collected i just let them put a show on for the store lol. this happens very rarely at my store. they ended up realizing they were getting a little hyper and said thank you and I just let them walk away. People are crazy, man

I’ve deciding cutting out porn is a healthy thing to do, and quite frankly, a bare minimum for myself. I’ve noticed incredible benefits such as increased clarity, confidence, love, vividness, vitality, sex drive, time management, body fitness, sleeping more peaceful, exercise more and better, closer to God, reading Bible way more, connecting through worship. I’m noticing when a beautiful girl comes through my work for example, I’m much more attracted to her, my tone softens and I’m really drawn to her, obviously it is a work environment so that is about it, but my sex drive is getting higher. I had previously hit 30 and 60 days after falling in love with a girl before it didn’t work out. I realized I was trying to use porn to medicate and run from late light loneliness while in my thoughts and/or stress/anxiety. I’m now facing myself and becoming a better man, leaning entirely on God, I need Him.

one thing though, as part of how much more masculine I feel, is the anger, I had an outburst when I found the cat peed on my favrouite sweater, I just couldn’t control it, my masculine anger was just overflowing. I got so angry it just felt like so much pressure. it might be understandable to be angry about that but even at work I’ve been feeling more aware of my anger, maybe this is a good thing, and I was just attempting to medicate it with porn.

fortunatly, I’ve been educating very well. Attending PAA meetings (amazing) listening through “your brain on porn” and attend church weekly. I even see a CSAT now. I journal as well.

i see so many beautiful girls I am attracted to, and who seem to be approving of me too, I just want to be a pure man. I’m 24 btw. 17 days free from porn

11 years in addiction (from 12 to 23) pretty much took away or at least hijacked much of my adolescence and youth, in jr high and high school I was pretty deep in porn.

My recovery from porn addiction has not been linear, no-ones is I think, but I remember the first time I tried to stop in September 2022, it was literally excruciating, paring that wirh other goals.

now, having celebrated 60 days clean and 30 days clean, Ive had many mini-wins, and they are still just that, wins, because everytime I get back up, the results come back too, here’s just a few:

CONFIDENCE

CLARITY

LOVE

GENTLENESS

SERENITY

AMBITION

CREATIVITY

MEMORY BOOST

HIGHER STANDARDS

CLEANER

MORE GENEROUS

MORE SELFLESS

CLOSER TO GOD

READING MY BIBLE

PRAYER

NO LONGER EMBARRASSED BY SEARCH HISTORY

GOING TO GYM MORE

MORE SELF CARE

MASCULINE ENERGY

ANGRY LESS

MORE GRATITUDE

SKIN IS BETTER

GIRLS DRAWN TO ME

I can go on..

life is brighter, this is the good life, it’s not always easy, and that’s ok, because I know now deep in my heart, that it’s worth it. I love going to PAA, getting a CSAT, rhis is great. you can do it my friend. Be gentle on yourself

whoever recommended Porn Addicts Anonymous (PAA) to me, THANK YOU. I’ve been attending countless meetings and it’s been great. meetings are online, anonymous, free and at all times.

it’s gone from something that I felt I had to sacrifice to now learning I actually am on a journey of RECOVERY and HEALING, I am so thankful to God for His leading through it, after 11 years, it’s rooted pretty deeply, yet I see LIGHT at the end of the tunnel. feeling pretty proud of myself to be honest.

i cant imagine it won’t be long before i get a sponsor and begin the twelve step process.

just open, real conversation with other people who truly understand. so great. I feel like a man of God for once. I feel pure. I feel loved.