u/Sol_Sertum

I can't stand my life anymore. 36 years old italian male, never worked, never finished school, 148 iq, 200kgs with hormonal problems, mounjaro helped a lot this last year, lost 50 kilos. Still I cannot find a job, surviving with the minimum wage the ridiculous Italian state concede. I don't have anything, any possible validation in life. I want this to end, one way or another. Lately I'm having anger issues as I never had before in my life. Everything makes me snap. I just try to refrain and limit myself to yelling and cussing versus god (not that I believe in him), but I am at the end of the rope here. I. simply. Cannot. Keep. Going. Like. This. I don't know if it's a cry for help or if I'm just at the end of my rope here. I just can't keep it like this. Sorry if it's the wrong place for this kind of message. I feel like exploding with rage towards myself.

I can't stand my life anymore. 36 years old italian male, never worked, never finished school, 148 iq, 200kgs with hormonal problems, mounjaro helped a lot this last year, lost 50 kilos. Still I cannot find a job, anything, any possible validation in life. I want this to end, one way or another. Lately I'm having anger issues as I never had before in my life. Everything makes me snap. I just try to refrain and limit myself to yelling and cussing versus god (not that I believe in him), but I am at the end of the rope here. I. simply. Cannot. Keep. Going. Like. This. I don't know if I'm asking for help or I'm just at the end of my rope. I just can't keep it like this. Sorry if it's the wrong place for this kind of message. I feel like exploding with rage towards myself.

I have some fidgets where the usual Paracord won't fit. Anybody know how the thinner strands types are called?

As the title implies, it's my best set and I really love that they're interactive with some of the skills, but brown it's hard to match and mix. The closest thing it comes to mind it's wotlk naxx 10 man t7, but that's even more blur

Hi, I'm sorry going off-topic like this. But I think I could get more than asking in a medical subreddit. After a while (30-40 minutes) that I'm sorting my cards for deckbuilding and just organizing, I get physically sick, fitting a vasovagal syncope, spinning head, nausea, chill sweat. I was wondering if anyone here suffers from it too and what you do to remedy it.

I will absolutely talk about it with my medic as soon as she will be back from vacation but I was wondering, it couldn't just be me.

Edit: I wear prescription glasses already and I'm not feeling eyestrain.

Edit 2: I sort them in my bedroom or living room where I am not sick at all, and there's not high humidity and the cards are in a good environment, so I would esclude CO2 or mold.

I really was just wondering if someone else had a similar situations

I can't keep up. The mental hospital is not working, I still cannot sleep.. and the nights are full of negative thoughts and reminiscence of all the problems that form my life. There's no joy, as that would require money, or real life friends. I feel completely alone and useless and not worthy of even being here. I genuinely don't know what to do. 36yo man child who never worked in his life. I just wanna disappear.

I miss my cat so bad on top of that. She died last year after 15 years together and it broke my heart