u/Solid_Bad_4403

I’ve always wondered how atheists go through life without help through any gods, prayer or any other supernatural means. I am a religious as I went to a Christian school but didn’t grow up overly religious, but just believed in God. But I also believe in subliminals, reality shifting, and the supernatural. I’ve also did magic before but I’m not sure if those results was a coincidence.

For the past few years, I have been kinda questioning my religion for a while due to my father dying,contradictions, and science it but I really want to stick to it bc I need help through my life because my life hasn’t been great since my dad passed away and want my prayers to be answered. Also, I want to go to Heaven to see my dad. I feel like I would be severely depressed without it. Also, I’ve been listening to subliminals as well to help me get through this life and get the results and goals I need.

I’m trying so hard to exist, but can’t. I want to die so bad. I’m so alone. I have social anxiety and talking to other people is very difficult and mentally exhausting. This is my last year in college
and have zero friends here. I’m just in my room most of the time. If not, in class or driving home to my mom. My mom is the only person that’s truly keeping me alive. I do still have grandma, sister, and baby niece but it’s very hard to stay alive. Everyone is striving while I’m stuck. I have no partner to talk to. I’m 22 and never had anyone to love me back romantically. I want someone to hug, joke around, and spend my life with them. I constantly dream of a better life. I life that I need so bad.

God has not helped me. I prayed so many times to help me. I need Him. Why won’t He help me. Just kill me. Please just let me die. Let me die in my sleep. I don’t want to live anymore. Why was I born? I have no motivation to live. I need Him to speak to me! Give me a sign that Your listening!

I just want to shift when I sleep and just want to wake up in my DR. Is there anyway to do this?

For example like Liu Kang(Human), Johnny Cage, Kung Lao, Kitana, Jade, Kano, Sonya, Scorpion, Sub Zero, Jax, etc. Basically the “mortals”. Not beings like Raiden or Shao.

It’s apparent that these humans and human like beings(Edenians) have some form of super strength.

How strong are these kombatants? How much do you think they could lift or exert(like the force behind their attacks)?

Curious about this as I personally like the concept.

So I attempted to shift last night for the first time in a while. Here’s what I did:
\- I was tired, so I wanted to shift in a sleepy state and laid on my back
\- I put on a shifting sub in my headphones
\- then I focused on my dr

Then I felt something happen. While my eyes were closed, I felt my eyes involuntarily roll back, my body felt tingling, and my ears felt warm. It felt weird so I stopped it and started to breathe heavy. I mightve shifted, but I was too anxious.

How can I get over anxiety when trying to shift?

Also, here’s the sub I listed to: https://youtu.be/ykXB\\\_lvT2Dc?si=4Xf6NlOxmLA-mwVL

Janitor ai is pretty good replacement for chai imo. It’s completely free, has good long chats(a bit too long sometimes), and nsfw.

The only downsides is that chats/stories can be a little inconsistent, so u would have to manually change the bots words to be consistent within your narrative.

I just wanted to share bc I see a lot of ppl justifiably upset about the insane prices for chai and I was tired of paying.

Janitor is on IOS, Android, and website