Being too much
I guess this is a bit of a rant/ off my chest. I'm feeling quite low at the moment. I (29f) have recently moved to a new country, and don't have any friends yet, so I'm feeling extra lonely. I'd usually feel lonely even in my home country, because I don't ever feel like people get me, and now I just worry about being able to make friends again.
I consider myself odd, and have always had self esteem issues, but have been getting better with it all once I learnt I had ADHD.
The thing is, I feel things very intensely. I'm a very emotional person. Before, where I wasn't able to regulate very well and didn't know I had ADHD, I understand why it may have been hard to be my friend. But now, I've done a lot of work on myself, and I often keep the emotional wobbles to myself, rather than having outbursts. With that said, I also feel the happy moments very intensely, and I feel like I want to share these with people, even the small things, but often times, I feel like I'm making a big deal out of things because of people's reactions. I just feel like I've taken 10 steps backwards, because I really just don't know how I can be myself, but also not scare people away. It makes me quite sad, and makes me feel isolated.
Do you feel this way at times? How do you cope?