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I cannot sleep and i have been up for way longer than i’ve been asleep. I have slept 3 light hours and cannot sleep more, i took 7.5mg of melatonin and nothing is working
I have no choice but to get up and start my work and i will do bad because im severely disorietend and impaired but i can’t sleep. I cant stand being sleep deprived and it has made me want to die before and i panicked so bad i was hospitalized, i dont know what to do anymore i just want to go to bed and its light outside now so its worse

The past few days i have been trying to sleep/ fix my sleep schedule by waking up a bit earlier and going to sleep earlier, i have been using melatonin to combat the sleep anxiety and rumination that keeps me awake.

and for 2 days(not straight i was ok for a day) I have had extremely fragmented sleep with melatonin. I can sleep but its short lived and light i either wake up by myself, a family member wakes me up, or i cant sleep at all.
I can sleep for 4 or less hours at a time and its extremely hard to fall back asleep and its starting to make me very agitated and anxious.
I have had multiple episodes of 24h+ sleep deprivation where i had panic attacks so this is scaring me alot

Hello, i have been sleeping at bad times for like 4 months now and never being asleep before 3am.

I tried to fix my sleep schedule by staying up all day after an all nighter and trying to go to sleep at night and it backfired terribly, i had been up for around 27 hours and couldn’t sleep cause i was so anxious from sleep deprivation, i started having a panic attack and had to be hospitalized for the night.
I ended up being up for a total of 39 hours before i got some completely unfragmented sleep, my sleep schedule has been bad ever since as i am too terrified to fix it via waking up earlier.

I am not sure if i have insomnia but i have severe sleep anxiety and i cant sleep unless distracted until im dosing off. I panic if i try to just lie down and sleep cause i get racing thoughts and random anxiety every time.

Im not sure if this even belongs here so pls remove if it doesnt. Otherwise i would greatly appreciate any tips or advice

Hello, i have been sleeping at bad times for like 4 months now and never being asleep before 3am.

I tried to fix my sleep schedule by staying up all day after an all nighter and trying to go to sleep at night and it backfired terribly, i had been up for around 27 hours and couldn’t sleep cause i was so anxious from sleep deprivation, i started having a panic attack and had to be hospitalized for the night.
I ended up being up for a total of 39 hours before i got some completely unfragmented sleep, my sleep schedule has been bad ever since as i am too terrified to fix it via waking up earlier.

I am not sure if i have insomnia but i have severe sleep anxiety and i cant sleep unless distracted until im dosing off. I panic if i try to just lie down and sleep cause i get racing thoughts and random anxiety every time.

Im not sure if this even belongs here so pls remove if it doesnt. Otherwise i would greatly appreciate any tips or advice

I am 2 months on T, 75mg split into 37.5mg so i inject twice a week. Long story short i wanna get dht cream to make my dick bigger so i’d only put it on my dick but apparently it will still add on to my t from shots and i dont wanna do too much and end up with aromatization or go to the hospital for bad effects if it adds like 50mg worth of T into my system on top.

I am 15 and 1 month on T(dk if thats relevant), i don’t leave my home much and dont even attend school i do online courses so i guess i would say i am stealth to strangers when i interact with them.

I am diying and none of my legal stuff is changed and in my state u need srs to change ur birth certificate sex. But im sure i can change the names just with a court petition or something but my mother is incredibly lazy so she wont do it.
I desperately want something to do + money as i have no friends, very little family and dont do school. I want a job very badly but i need a work certificate and i need to tell them my legal name and stuff, i’d rather not out myself even to an employer so is it worth just finding a hobby and saving every penny i get instead?

I have been on testosterone for 38 days now, i do weekly shots with 27g insulin needle into my thigh and stomach(subq).
Each and every time i get hard, painful and huge sterile nodules, i’ve tried so many different tactics and running out of space to inject cause they take a month to fully go away.

I cant find anything about it online i even resorted to asking ai and it didnt help either. I cannot see a doctor so pls dont recommend.
Any advice would be great

Preface: I am very paranoid about being caught and am not willing to stop my t for an appointment.

Im 15 and now a month on T, a friend of mine told me my voice is slightly deeper(she also hasnt heard me speak in a while may be placebo) but i hear it too so its deepening slightly.

Since stuff is starting to happen now im worried my mother may catch on in the next months and potentially take me to the doctor and get my hormones tested cause she forced me to get examined over 2 missed cycles before so shes dramatic.
I did some research and was just wondering if my male hormones are high but my Lh/Fsh is low(these are the 2 hormones that prove the hormones are from your own gonads i think) can they prove im on t without a confession.
Was wondering this because google is completely fear mongering and i just need a peer response.

This isnt gonna make alot of sense cause its a weird situation.

my mother is trying to sue a school district for a injury i sustained on school grounds and have permanent vision loss because of it, and she recently spoke to the lawyer about my name change and wants to use my dysphoria which is not formally diagnosed, to emphasize how bad the injury “traumatized” me because it was caused by a male(this was pre social transition)

I dont care about this case but if she tries to say the injury caused my dysphoria(it most certainly didnt have any long term mental effects on me) will it have any effects on insurance coverage and getting diagnosed in the future. Is this even the right place to ask?

Further context: im 15 the injury happened when i was 12

I have undiagnosed HS on my inner thighs and it is flaring with painful and itchy bumps, since i am fat its a very high friction area and i am currently losing weight but i cant drop it all in one day it will take a while before my thighs dont rub together.
I am not going to a dr because im not having them look near my genitals for any reason and im getting very frustrated with it.
I have some sterile needles and i want to drain a few for relief, the needles are 27 gauge i was wondering if this is safe to do as i have limited options.

Im mostly posting this for validation because me being so repulsed with trenders and my dissociation making dysphoria a bit confusing at times.

So i am a very obese person, 300+lbs
And for the last few months i have stopped binding and started wearing looser shirts/different style and my chest hasn’t bothered me for months cause im either 1; delusional and convinced myself my chest “isn’t that big” enough so i can be shirtless and not too dysphoric or 2; my actually chest isnt that big/ looks like man tits so im fine until i lose weight.
I pass in public 99% of the time, the 1% being mostly when i get outted by family.

Do i sound trender-like and has anyone else experienced this?

I did my very first T shot 57 hours ago, the first physical effect i got was bottom growth, grew a tip less than 24 hours after shot and the tip/whole dick area is sensitive and constantly “buzzing?” It kinda hurts in a way but not like real pain like overstimulating constant pressure down there.

I enjoy the fact that im growing a dick in real time it feels surreal but i cant deny that it is uncomfortable right now, im fat and my lips/mons cover it so its not even rubbing on things. I woke up and since i peed its less sensitive than yesterday, the answer is pretty obvious but it doesnt hurt to ask a dumb question for clarity. Is it gonna be less sensitive with time in a linear way or as it grows in different areas(tip, shaft, base) will it be on and off

I am 15, 312lbs and 5’4. Working on weight loss at the moment, it may be relevant that i was extremely nervous while taking my bp

Im 15 and plan to do my first T shot today, I measured my blood pressure at home and it was 110/98 which is high and google said it was stage 2 hypertension. I am overweight, walking daily and drinking enough water. Practicing calistenthics, trying to improve my weight.

I am scared i will have a stroke or something starting T but i am not willing to not start as puberty is completing and its almost too late already.

If i start 50mg of T while improving my weight and monitoring blood pressure will i be mostly fine?

I cant get frequent bloodwork but i can monitor blood pressure daily.

Im 15 and starting diy soon, still researching everything i can so i can be 100% educated and i saw some stuff about getting bv, utis and atrophy on test, i dont care about atrophy i will just cope cause im not doing e cream or telling a dr.

But i am worried about bv and utis because those can spread or get really bad i think, going to a doctor if i get these isnt an option cause im not getting it checked or anything so long story short if i get these im fucked cause i cant get help and most of the cures go in you or are creams so i wouldnt want it anyway. So are these common on 50mg of T?

I am 15m and starting diyhrt cause my state cant give it to me so it wont be on my records, i dont have diagnosed sd and havent spoken to any professionals about it specifically(tho i have talked to some about general mental issues) but i know i have it forsure and have since a small child. i only have a preferred name and pronouns on my doctors thing so they know what to call me but i havent straightout spoke about having sex dysphoria cause they cant help me in any way so whats the point?

Anyway i have been thinking recently about wanting hysto or something as soon as 18, and i know if you have documentation it can help with insurance coverage and drs willing to write a note for you.
I have a general checkup soon and i know they will ask me about mental health because i have a history of mental health issues and i just plain wont talk about it because last time i had a horrific experience, i dont need any therapy from them or anything like that so theres really no point in making them keep calling to check on me.

So for anyone who had had surgery or knows about documentation stuff, should i try to get it documented now or just wait until im 18 and then just tell them how long its been going on?

TL;DR
Should i get my sex dysphoria documented now or later for surgery, it will be annoying if i do it now but if it gets surgery faster in future i will.

Hey im 15 and very fat and starting test soon. I was wondering if i am still dieting and exercising when i start will i gain weight from it and if i do is it temporary?

And also can T help with weight loss, not depending on it but i heard it has helped people feel less tired easily while working out and that would help alot.

Any advice about changes is also welcome. They can be unrelated to weight

I am a fat dude(this is relevant) and have some mental issues that i have been dealing with for years, recently it has been anger, emptiness, violent thoughts, and lack of empathy(none of which would manifest physically so i wasnt at risk of harming people)

I have been working out lately just walking alot more, tonight after watching some tv with a family member i did some running and walking, made a grocery list and listened to music. My favorite thing to do is to listen to music i get a small dopamine hit just thinking of what song to listen to that helps my mental state sometimes.

So after my run i sat down, and felt way less angry and violent. Im not cured but the anger has cleared up, i hope to god this isnt temporary. i never run, havent ran for more than a little in months and i dont know if my day was just good, or if i really cleared my head with just some running but i feel surprisingly calm for a Tuesday night.

I am so thankful i get a break from the constant anger and irritability, i want to cry from joy just from the relief.

I am 15 and 315lbs trying to lose over 100lbs. I recently did 12k steps and with my tdee those steps got me to burn 4k calories for the day,
I will start tracking cals once my scale comes and i was wondering if i consistently burn 3800-4k cals and eat 2k is it too much because google said it is but thats ai and it lies sometimes

TW: slight female anatomical language

Im 15m and my mom is making me go get a checkup and i absolutely hate doctors and i dont care for my health outside of hrt.
The drs in my state cannot give me hrt and i resent them for it, i know its not their fault but i honestly cant control it im of course not going to express it but i rather not see one.

I dont want to be asked about pregnancy, discharge, periods and i dont even wanna mention it to tell them not to ask about it. I already have mental issues(hence not caring about my health) and talking to any professional would make it worse.
I know i sound like a pussy but i just want to be left alone i dont want my dysphoria to be made worse from “reproductive health” questions so how do i chill out if she makes me go anyway