Just had to call an ambulance because I thought I was dying after waking up
I just feel so hopeless right now. Woke up at 7am with a full blown panic attack, my HR climbed to 160bpm+ and I legit had the worst feeling of impending doom. I thought I was going to die. I was also all alone.
I called a friend who’s coming over now, but I kept getting worse and called an ambulance (europe) thinking ‚this is it, my heart is going to explode‘. They took my vitals(ECG, blood pressure, spo2 all fine) and I started to feel a bit better.
I can‘t do this anymore. I have been battling anxiety for years, now nocturnal panic attacks have appeared since last year. I don‘t know what to do. I‘m in therapy. I have virtually no stress in life. My family, partner, and friends are all loving and supportive.
The panic attacks ripping me out of dead sleep are the worst too, so disorienting and I still feel so anxious afterwards too. I hate this. I feel like this is going to be my life forever. Just fearing the next big one and resetting the progress I have made.
It feels like a never ending battle that I know I can‘t win, only manage. I‘m young, how will I cope when I get older and start having actual emergencies? It feels like a rigged coin flip of panic attack vs heart failure