Need advice
Need advice regarding sadhana and worship
I've been going through a difficult period for quite a few years now and recently things have become much worse.
I've dealt with family problems, health issues and a lot of conflict in my life. On top of that, there are people in my life now who genuinely dislike me and have talked about physically harming me. Some friends have stepped in and stopped situations from escalating, but it feels like things keep getting worse with time.
Throughout my life I've tried to live according to dharmic values as best as I could. I've stood up for people when they were being mistreated, helped friends through difficult situations and tried to be loyal and fair to the people around me.
Unfortunately, it often feels like my kindness and willingness to help others have become weaknesses that people take advantage of. Sometimes it genuinely feels like the more I help people, the more trouble comes back to me.
Despite everything, I don't want revenge or to become bitter. I don't want to lose the values I've tried to live by.
What I do want is protection, courage, inner strength and the ability to continue walking my path without fear. And if there are people acting against me unjustly or trying to harm me, I pray that their harmful intentions and actions fail before they ever reach me.
For those experienced in Sanatana Dharma, which deity would you recommend worshipping or doing sadhana for in a situation like this?
Whatever you recommend please try to make it fast acting as im tired of physically and mentally defending myself since few years, im u18 so its not something easy.
Still I have the strength and courage to keep fighting.
I've heard people mention Narasimha, Kala Bhairava, Hanuman and others in the context of protection and overcoming hostile circumstances.
Which deity would you recommend and what would be a suitable beginner-friendly sadhana or daily practice?
Thank you.