u/Suspicious-Repeat147

I got sued for an unpaid credit card, had a court hearing. I went and the plaintiff never showed up. The judge said I won, and they might appeal it, wait for any papers in the mail about new date or whatever.
They also gave me a sticky note with a name and phone number and said I am under no obligation to call them, as far as the case went I won.
I asked if it was credit card company and he said yeah, but I googled the name and it’s actually an attorney.
Has anyone had this happen? What was the outcome? I already have crippling anxiety and this is just throwing me off.
Not denying the debt, I think I know what it is. It was a discover credit card. I have 2, and I thought it was either paid off or merged, because I only have an open account for the one. I also was able to get a lower interest rate on my card, I’m not sure why the other card didn’t.
But the paper says capital one successor of discover, but I never got anything that capital one was taking over the card. I also have a capital one card, with only a $500 limit that is not used. I really wanted this case to help me figure out what it is. There’s no history in my discover app, I can only get statements of the one card.

I’m 4’10 and 30F. Went to the dentist for a regular checkup and they asked if my parent was present…. I’m literally 30. Although funny, I’m also kind of tired of it.
Going out drinking with my friends and they always get so confused when they get carded because they never do… it’s always because of me.

I have ocd/adhd/anxiety/cptsd/maladaptive daydreaming

I feel like I’ve tried everything from medications to therapy, and I feel like I’m only getting worse but nothing has actually happened to me in a while.

I’m on Effexor, Adderall and hydroxyzine.

Initially I got on hydroxyzine from seeing a sleep doctor, was prescribed it to help sleep but that day I was up for 2 days straight.

Later talking to my psychiatrist, she mentioned that it’s like Benadryl so if you have allergies, it helps that and maybe that’s where my issues come from.

She then had me add on Effexor, which helps ocd/adhd/ptsd and pmdd. Idk, I don’t see much of a difference. Maybe a little bit if I don’t take it? But not enough to really think it helps.

Adderall ir has been the only thing I’ve been on consistently for almost 3 years now that I actually see a difference.

I sleep 24/7, I literally cannot get out of bed without it. I take it at 7am, then hopes by 8am that I’m up. If I don’t have it set up ready to take at 7am, my day is ruined. I don’t feel like it works well anymore. I still am able to get out of bed, which is primarily why I still take it. I’m talking like I used to go without taking it on the weekends and I would sleep over 24 hours. I would get up just to let my dog (older) out, make sure he has food/water and go back to sleep.

Now on all 3, I am up but I don’t feel like the “jumpstart” or I want to get up and be productive, like I used to be on just Adderall.

Random, but I drank coffee with thc, 20mg of indica while I was in Toronto, and I feel like I had exposure therapy with myself. I felt like there was a moment where a random body part would hurt and that was the “main” focus. I remember thinking, “wow, that’s why I have all these issues, why couldn’t you just tell me??” Like why my head hurts all the time, then it would go to my stomach, then my toes. I remember I would clench reeeeallly bad everywhere that I had to learn how to unclench and relax my muscles.

It was honestly the best and worst experience of my life. I don’t really smoke, I have a thc vape pen that I might hit couple times a day, but then I might lose it and not hit it for months. So vary inconsistent and I’ve never ever felt high even when I hit it daily. Other than that, I don’t really smoke.

A week later my friend gave me shrooms, scared so I only ate half of it. Didn’t feel much, but the next day I actually put a lot of my clothes away in my dresser or hung up. I’m talking, 3 YEARS I have had my clothes in baskets. I would literally keep buying storage containers instead of hanging clothes up in an empty closet and empty dressers.

Weird, but I think a day later I took the other half and the same thing happened. I put more clothes away, did laundry.

Now it’s making me want to actually try it more, even micro dosing or smoking weed at a higher dose but in a better environment.

I remember when I drank the thc coffee, and I was I guess at the peak or beginning stage, I kept thinking “this is why people with ocd shouldn’t do this” and I remember all I could think about was how everyone hated me and they were staring at me and making fun of me. I thought I could “hear their thoughts” and at one point I ate a Dubai chocolate strawberry cup and although I checked my face a million times, I was still convinced I had chocolate all over my face and people were thinking I was eating poop.

Another weird thing I remember is I never wanted to listen to music. All the sudden I hated every song on my phone, and I drove in complete silence. (I know, I shouldn’t have drove, but this was at least 6 hours after drinking the coffee, not that it excuses it) but I kept searching thru songs, and I had to turn it down to hear my thoughts. This went on for days/a week, I felt like I no longer liked my music and didn’t want to listen to music. When I was “tripping” I remember thinking that music was my escape. I was using it to avoid what was going on or drown my thoughts.

I also remember never touching my phone, besides a few googles and messages with ChatGPT basically asking if I’m dying or going to. Basically another escape, using my phone to avoid certain things.

I feel like I live my life in fast forward, and the weed and shrooms almost made me slow down and think about things. I don’t find that therapy with a therapist really helped me so much because I’m shy, don’t know how to put things in words. I don’t have the “bouncing off the walls” adhd, more add. But inside my head I am bouncing off the walls. I think it might not have worked for me because I didn’t know how to get what I want out of it and I didn’t know what to bring up, because for me everything is “normal” I’ve never known things to be different.

I initially got into therapy because I was in a very toxic mentally abusive relationship. I feel like at that time, therapy was perfect. I didn’t understand narcissism and it helped me that way. I feel like in ways I’m healed from that but ever since I just don’t think I’ve gotten much out of therapy for how much I had to pay (150+ a week, for almost 2 years).

I almost feel like I went to therapy with myself on those and it was way cheaper and way more insightful.

Idk where I’m going with this, but wanted to know if anyone else has experienced this or had similar stories.