Should I apologize?
On one hand it’s something I still think about daily and something I hold deep regret for. 100 percent the one thing in my life I wish I could go back to change if I could it would 100 percent be that.
On the other hand I don’t want to interrupt her life at all or make her feel threatened in the slightest, as I realize what someone might feel if a stranger messages them etc .
I’ve always wanted to apologize for the worst thing I ever done in my life. It’s been 15 years or so. I was too much of a coward to do it then but I would if I could today. I was too wrapped up in it. It still keeps me up some nights thinking about it.
I still have her info and could reach out for the purpose of saying I’m sorry but I’m not sure if it’s the right move.
She probably saved my life back then. I feel like I owe her a thank you, explanation and apology.
Shes got her own family now and looks happy in pictures: I couldn’t be more happy for that. I just wish I came clean when it was all falling apart. I’m sure she knows, of course she does but it’s always unsettling to think about. I don’t want her to think I was some lold man creeping or something. Just a dumb kid who was extremely unhappy and a ton of other bad excuses.