u/Terumimi04

▲ 2 r/OCD

Obsessing over a broken friendship, don't know what to do

Title explains it pretty well. I can't go into too much detail as to not give things away, but i had a falling out with a friend group a few months ago over something incredibly frustrating. And now things i used to do with them/things i remember they were into feel... Tainted. Even seeing or hearing their names sends me from a good mood to miserable. I dont know what to do and it's so, so frustrating. Especially when i want to reach out to the one person that didnt entirely ostracize me to try and see if i could explain... Something about what happened, but im still so angry at them and the group.

I dont know what to do, no matter what i try and no matter how long its been these people wont leave my brain. Any advice would be really appreciated

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u/Terumimi04 — 5 days ago
▲ 7 r/songs

Been seeing a lot of these around, so hit me

Music preference is pretty wide, but love jazz, pop punk (especially like. set it off, early panic and paramore), metalcore, and nu metal a lot, also a LOT of rpg osts

u/Terumimi04 — 6 days ago

Depression is ruining my life, the burnout I'm feeling is unbearable

Hey all. This is technically a repost of something i sent in r/adhd, but i just need all the help i can get. I feel utterly miserable almost every day recently and i just need someone to give me some advice or something. My burnout has become utterly unbearable and i dont know how much more i can handle before i explode.

I'm 21, about to be 22 and technically a sophmore bc of credits despite being here for about 4 years. I've been untreated and undiagnosed until last year for depression, adhd, ocd, anxiety, ptsd, and autism which is. Fun (/sarcasm) and am really only just getting into trying to help myself more with executive dysfunction and stuff (it's. So hard. So incredibly hard.)

I really need some help or someone to talk to or advice or. Something. College has become an utter nightmare for me. Any time i even think about doing anything for it i get into full on shivers and panic attacks and its led to me being incredibly behind on so much work. I dont even know if my professors will let me catch up because of how much my depression makes me sleep through my alarms and miss class. I genuinely feel like im in hell and its gotten to the point where I'm rethinking my entire path. And my dad is wellmeaning but doesnt understand mental health stuff well (he was against me doing therapy and going on meds for years until i got to a breaking point where he was incredibly concerned for my wellbeing) and thinks me wanting a break is me just trying to quit (i used to have a habit of just dropping stuff and not going back to it).

I feel so burnt out that even video games, my safe space and something i feel comfortable with, have begun to feel empty and pointless despite my love for them. I barely wanna do anything all day except lay in bed and watch youtube videos over and over again. Its even led to me having an abysmal sleep schedule and staying up until 5 in the morning.

Honestly I'm just desperate right now. I feel so incredibly lost and any advice would mean the world for me. Thanks in advance.

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u/Terumimi04 — 15 days ago

I don't really know how to word the question so I'm putting the explanation here. I have a habit of taking what i consider naps really, really late. Like, falling asleep at 8pm-12am and waking up 1-2 hours later. But everyone i talk to says that what im doing is basically going to sleep for a short time. Disregarding the fact that's basically what a nap is, it does make me curious about what exactly composes a nap. Is it the length of the rest, or is it about the timing?

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u/Terumimi04 — 16 days ago
▲ 2 r/OCD

Hey all. Im posting this on a lot of subreddits (or something similar, at least) because i feel like im spiraling out of control and need some help.

So, I'm 21. About to be 22. 4 years in college but still a sophmore when it comes to credits. I've been undiagnosed for years until last year. Ocd, adhd, depression, ptsd, G.A.D., and suspected autism all at once (therapist said the last one and dont have the money for a proper diagnosis, but considering my parents thought of it while i was growing up i wouldnt be surprised). I am so utterly overwhelmed and constantly feel like an utter failure. I constantly think self depricating thoughts no matter how hard people try to convince me that im not this horrible idiotic monster that i say i am.

My depression (and other things) have made this semester a living hell. I'm way behind on assignments because i have had absolutely 0 energy or willpower. Especially the past few weeks which have been an utter nightmare, I'm constantly spiralling. Technically i have an exam today but i told the professor i was having a mental health crisis and im hoping he lets me make it up.

I've been wanting to take a break from college, but my dad isnt a fan of it (he's a good person, he's struggling to understand all of this since its mostly new to him, but he's trying. He just doesnt want me to give up on college bc im close to finishing. I dont wanna give up either, but if i keep this up my brain is gonna explode.)

I just need some sort of advice or reassurance that im not entirely screwed. I feel like an utter mess and i really just need someone to tell me that this is ok and its just burnout hitting incredibly hard. (Its gotten to the point where video games, my special interest and safe space, have become sorta hollow in recent times)

Thanks in advance.

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u/Terumimi04 — 21 days ago
▲ 3 r/autism

Hey all. The title basically explains what im going through but I'll explain further bc i really need some support in what im dealing with.

I'm 21, about to be 22 in less than a month (not excited in the slightest, i hate being an adult). After years of wondering if there was something wrong with me, finally got some proper diagnoses(is that the plural for diagnosis, i forget) last year. Adhd, Ocd, Depression, (c)ptsd, G.A.D., and an informal autism diagnosis from my therapist (would get a proper one but i feel like this is a bad time, and family does not have the money for it.)

I've been in college for about 4 years but I'm behind on credits and basically a sophmore. I've been going through a lot of emotions lately, since ive been digging into a lot of childhood trauma that i didnt realize was this bad til now. Its been making me feel so overwhelmed and I've had so many breakdowns and meltdowns recently, to the point where I'm at least a month behind on all of my schoolwork, maybe even 2.

I feel so weighed down and like a burden to everyone i know, and I'm so afraid everyone i love and care about is gonna leave me and I'll be alone for the rest of my life. I'm suffering so much even though technically right now my life is fine. My head is constantly swirling and i feel like I'm gonna explode at any minute.

My sibling has been a massive support for me but she's busy a lot of times and has her own problems she's dealing with so i don't wanna burden her, and my dad is trying to help but he still doesn't really understand mental health stuff. I've been wanting to take a break from college for years but he just thinks i want to quit bc i used to just quit things i didnt like a lot. It makes it hard to come to him as much as i love him.

If anyone could just give me... something, I'd really appreciate it. I have an exam today but im tempted to tell the professor that my head feels like its exploding so i can try and delay it or something. But i dont know if thats the right call. Sorry if this isn't the right sub for this, i just feel like i desperately need help.

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u/Terumimi04 — 22 days ago
▲ 5 r/ADHD

Hey all. 21, about to be 22 and in college. I've been untreated and undiagnosed until last year (alongside depression, ocd, anxiety, ptsd, and autism which is. Fun (/sarcasm)) and am really only just getting into trying to help myself more with executive dysfunction and stuff (it's. So hard. So incredibly hard.)

I really need some help or someone to talk to or advice or. Something. College has become an utter nightmare for me. Any time i even think about doing anything for it i get into full on shivers and panic attacks and its led to me being incredibly behind on so much work. I dont even know if my professors will let me xatch up because of how much my depression makes me sleep through my alarms and miss class. I genuinely feel like im in hell and its gotten to the point where I'm rethinking my entire path. And my dad is wellmeaning but doesnt understand mental health stuff well, and thinks me wanting a break is me just trying to quit (i used to have a habit of just dropping stuff and not going back to it).

I feel so burnt out that even video games, my safe space and something i feel comfortable with, have begun to feel empty and pointless despite my love for them. I barely wanna do anything all day except lay in bed and watch youtube videos over and over again. Its even led to me having an abysmal sleep schedule and staying up until 5 in the morning.

Honestly I'm just desperate right now. I feel so incredibly lost and any advice would mean the world for me. Thanks in advance.

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u/Terumimi04 — 23 days ago