u/TheAstromunky

I wouldn't be mad but I don't know our real needs yet, just guess work.

Just got done having a session with Bob Brothers of Studio 405 in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma USA. We're pretty much sympatico thinkers so working with him is always awesome. He has the lightest hands in the game. I barely felt this. It definitely wasn't hard to get through even close to the elbow and stuff. Bob is a wizard. If you want a cartoon tattoo and your near OKC, hit him up.

I had to attach a pic to post so here's a double rainbow from 2 days ago but that's not what this post is about. 2nd pic was one of the references if you don't recognize me from the 1st.

When I made my request the other day, I was in a really bad place. I had 3 close friends die since mid December then 3 weeks ago, my 30 year old tortoise died on that Monday and I had to help my favorite and oldest little puppy cross the rainbow bridge. I was reeling. My spirit was shattered. I wasn't going to do anything stupid because I have progressed beyond those years but I was hurt. I'd cried everyday for 3 weeks. Like ugly cried. I'm a 300 lb. intimidating looking guy on most days but for those 3 weeks, everyone saw a broken man. I made 3 request in 3 days. First, I asked if you guys would draw Raga. She was my baby and I got about 10 wonderful pictures of her to put in the corner she used to occupy. Next, I thought I'd try to get a smile or laugh again so I asked to be drawn poorly and posted pictures of myself expecting to be roasted since I'm just a big dumb dork but everyone was really nice & their pictures absolutely made me laugh or smile no matter the talent level. I loved every picture no matter how silly & people kept saying that they enjoyed using me as a reference so I thought I'd give the big guns of reddit the opportunity to take a shot at me and some did a bit, but most were really flattering and they all helped me to finally follow the light back out of the darkness. You guys shined that light for me to follow. A lot of people said a lot of words to me over the course of the last 3 weeks that have rang hollow but your pictures did something that those words couldn't. They made me focus on you and trying to properly acknowledge the services that you all were performing for me to the best of my abilities. I'm a little retarded. I don't want to go over my diagnosis but I'm not the best with words or socially at all. I want you to know what you all do for some people though, so I'm trying. A picture says a thousand words. It's true. Your pictures helped me climb out of a dark hole. I'm not 100% but I haven't broken down crying in the last few days so that's a major improvement. You did that. I didn't. I didn't have the strength to climb alone. If you took the time out of your day to draw me, thank you so much. You changed the trajectory that I was spiraling in and helped me gain my footing again. I've been humbled. I felt seen for the first time in years. You made me feel special for a day. I wish I was insanely rich instead of a lowly custodian so I could pay for your school or something in return for what you did for me but all I have is kind words. I hope every person you draw for thanks you properly for your talents. I tried my best through the process and tried to make sure everyone was addressed even if they didn't draw. It was an honor to be drawn by you all. I hope you had fun. I did. My friends got some good laughs at your takes on me (and some impressed notes too). You did a really awesome thing for me though and it goes beyond your art even though that was the needle that delivered the vaccine for my sadness. If you guys ever want to take another shot at me. I'd love to go another round eventually. I enjoyed being your subject and I can't thank you enough for picking me out of the hundreds of requests. I really needed it. I didn't know it and you didn't either but it was just the therapy that I needed. If you are still here, this far in, I'll leave you with this. Positivity breeds positivity. Be the light you want to see in the world. You all are already doing a great job. Keep it up. If anyone hasn't told you today, I love you and I hope you have a great rest of the week. Thanks again, truly.

STOP GIVING ME AWARDS! THIS IS FOR YOU, NOT ME!!! Thank you though. I've never gotten one before.

I was expecting to be trashed in the other sub but it was a very positive experience instead. I've been going through a lot but those pictures gave me some good laughs and made me smile for the first time in a few weeks. They were saying they enjoyed drawing me, so I hoped coming here would get the same reaction. I'm not talented at all. I'm a 300 lb. horror punk that cleans an art building for a living. Thank you all for sharing your time and talents and I look forward to seeing if any of you decide to draw me. I know I'm not a cute alt girl but at least I'm kind of interesting?! Not every day you see a giant middle aged dude with a mohawk. Anyway, I really do appreciate your time and talents and I'll do my best to give you the praise you deserve to receive. I'm not great with words but I'll do my best. Thanks everyone. I hope you are having a wonderful night.

Edit: Thank you so much to everyone who participated so far. I'm going to catch another 2 hours sleep before work but I promise to address anyone who comments when I can in a bit. You guys are all so amazing. I'm in awe of your abilities. Thank you so much for bringing a little light to my currently dark world.

Edit 2: It's about 930 CST. I'm going to be off here until my wife falls asleep in a few hours. We usually spend a few hours together after work. If I'm gone & you're waiting for a response, I promise I will get to it asap. I just don't like splitting attention when we're trying to hang out. Thank you once again to all the artist. You all are incredible.

I hope I tagged this right. Thank you to anyone who takes time to draw me. I'm an idiot with no discernible talent, so I'm honored by any pic I get. Have fun & do your worst. Thanks again. I really appreciate you.

Edit: I'm going to get a few more hours sleep before work but will respond and like anything I haven't seen yet as I can through the evening. I promise you that I won't leave you unappreciated. It's about 1140 cst. I go to work around 4, so it'll be after I get settled in at work and get some free time. You may think your drawings are bad but they're giving me a smile or laugh and those feel really hard to muster right now, so thank you. I really appreciate it and it may not make everything okay but it's making today better and when you're in the darkness, 1 day can be what you need to find the light again. I don't want to bum anyone out but I've suffered a lot of loss since mid-December and this is helping me in a way words just don't. You guys are all awesome for taking the time to do this. I hope it's fun for you too.

Edit 2: I'm off work and keep falling asleep since I never took that nap I mentioned earlier. I had too many of you amazing people making my day better. That was a good problem to have. I wish I had more to give than kind words in return because it doesn't match the actual gratitude that I have for all of you. I had a pretty good day. I haven't been able to say that in quite a while. I still had my moments of tears but I didn't break down like the past couple weeks. Life's hard but people like you make it a little easier. It may just be 5 minutes of screwing around or a serious attempt at realism but I appreciate every one of them in their own way. Some artist I feel I robbed a bit due to my lack of being able to think in my sleepy state but I wanted to say thank you one more time before I pass out. This is fun, funny and I never expected such a positive reaction. I was going to say feel free to make fun of me in the original post instead you picked me up like good brothers and sisters in the pit. You guys all deserve everything good that comes to you. Thank you so much. Good night.

It's constantly being added to & there are some on the sides, but you get the idea. I look funny in a battle jacket so I drive the Battle Jeep.

I love this song and it's been stuck in my head for 2 days. Now it can be in yours too.

Just to preface, I'm AuDHD of the list m a king variety and I came up with a way to shave my maxed out 2500 song horror punk playlist down into a more manageable number with up to 5 songs max per band (the last list had 25 max but no draft for quality). The rest is explained below. The picture is a sample of how I'm doing it. The + indicates a song/round done & the ratio is the floor/ceiling of how many songs each band will probably have in the end after finding the first song. Anyway, here you go.

TW: Severely autistic content:

After more than 145 bands, 137 have made it to round 2 of my Horror Punk playlist draft. Each round, I go down the list and add the "best song available" to my play list. If I don't completely love a song in that round, their draft is over. This will take forever to complete but should turn out a playlist that is weighted heaviest towards my favorite bands as determined by the draft. I plan to go for 5 rounds but may go more depending on the song total at the end of 5 rounds. I'm currently at 137 moving on to round 2. That means even if they ALL had 5 great songs from here on out, the most the playlist could be is 685 songs. Some bands only had 1 song available. I'm also constantly checking out new bands, so that number will grow a bit. I think I had 4 new late entries yesterday.

Edit: I'm obviously just a real hillbilly punk because I'm not a psychobilly guy for sure. I'm an actual psychobilly but it's not my music taste.