u/ThrowRASoooSleepy

It’s nuts to think about. I never ever thought I would end up in an abusive relationship where I was basically someone’s emotional punching bag. And yet I just spent 2 years of my life stuck in one wondering what the f**k happened and how did it get this bad.

Dating someone with BPD is so scary. It starts with just a few drops of rain and before you know it, you’re trapped in the middle of a flood and trying to constantly keep your head above water so you don’t drown.

I was someone who ate poorly for years and developed all kinds of nervous system, liver, gallbladder, palpitations, reflux and UTI problems, as well as halitosis and constant dragon breath. My teeth rotted and my BO stank. I had so much damp heat, and developed psoriasis, and basically every manifestation of excess yang and low jing. I had constant tailbone pain and backache. My face was always flushed and red but my feet and hands would be freezing: stagnant qi.

I was an emotional wreck, my shen was disturbed and I had mood swings. I never became obese but I was always carrying some extra pounds and it made me winded just climbing stairs. You name it, it was off.

I ate so much processed crap, spicy food, instant food, greasy food and mountains of sugar, it totally threw almost every organ off in my body. I really flooded my body with so much damp heat that my liver and spleen qi was severely depleted and I had the most agonizing rising heat/reflux in my chest. When I went to the TCM doctor, he immediately told me I need to change my diet. He told me that what I ate would nullify the results of the herbs if I kept these terrible patterns. I was so, so sick. I felt like I was dying each day.

So I had to switch my diet a whole 180. I never ate eggs, shellfish, seaweed, nuts, berries, fish, duck, black sesame, herbal teas, grains like Job’s tears and barley, or anything like that before, and I wouldn’t have been able to before. And certainly never Chinese veggies like bok choy or things like bitter melon or chrysanthemum.

I had to train myself to eat all these things and completely radically change my diet and exercise habits overnight. At first I hated all these foods and it was a chore to eat them. I had to radically cool my body while also draining dampness, which wasn’t easy because many cooling foods also produce dampness and many damp draining foods also create heat. My doctor supported me and we did acupuncture too, he would give me heat clearing teas and advise me on how to build back up my jing.

It was hard getting the balance right. I am still not 100% healed. But I can tell you how much better I feel now within myself. A large part of it is just the natural weight loss and added nutrition of course.

But I no longer get agonizing heat rising in my chest. My feet are no longer freezing while the rest of me is flushed and red and hot. My circulation is no longer crap. I no longer have a sticky thick yellow coating or a red split tongue or psoriasis all over my scalp. My TCM doctor is proud of me and has downgraded my treatment levels from crisis tier to maintaining balance.

I get acupuncture every month and feel so grounded and calm afterwards. I owe it all to this amazing Chinese doctor who was brutally honest with me about how I had to change. Herbs would only be a temporary fix unless I changed my lifestyle too. He told me the diet component of TCM is half the battle and he was right.

we did a lot of moxa work especially around my feet, now my whole legs are twitching in many places

is this normal or am I having an adverse reaction to the mugwort?

Never thought Big Shark would fall under the microscope. Watched a video about how governments around the world are downplaying shark attack injuries and fatality numbers, in order to keep the booming tourism industry going. It’s basically all about money.

It was interesting, and got me thinking…it does feel like there’s been a huge push especially in the last 15 years or so to portray sharks as cute harmless critters and us as evil humans who are constantly trying to kill these smol bean apex predators.

You have whole media series like Shark Week basically shilling the shit out of sharks…hell even the mega-viral Baby Shark song that had people buying shark plushies for their kids and putting a cute slant on these biological killing machines.

And then you have ‘Sharkfluencers’ like Ocean Ramsey, kissing sharks on the heads and acting like they’re her friends, even when they try to take a bite out of her.

It feels similar to the pitbull psyop with pibble mommies always trying to shill their dogs as harmless and cute, even after they’ve physically attacked people. Don’t get me wrong, sharks are pretty damn cool, but I certainly don’t think they’re harmless or our ‘friends’.

Shark love does feel…a little forced somehow? Anyway if you have any more ocean or animal type conspiracies please let me know...

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I don’t think they were directly involved with the murder or anything. I just think people hero worship them a little too much for doing the bare minimum.

Some act like Fleet is the unsung hero in this case, even though he hasn’t really done…all that much? I mean, the fact he initially refused to comply with the JonBenet case subpoenas, and was sentenced to 30 days jail for contempt of court. Then when he agreed to testify, he asked that his testimony be sealed. Huh???? That sounds a little shady.

Yes, I know Whites fell out with the Ramseys, wrote an open letter for Vanity Fair which was kind of vague, Fleet and Priscilla have implied they know something BIG but apparently are too afraid of litigation to directly tell the truth. Isn’t that pretty immoral? A child was murdered. If you know something you have to speak up.

People would obviously crowdfund them anyway if they had a credible story to tell. It also seems the Whites have changed their tune over the years too. They felt John and Patsy were obstructing the truth, which I agree with. That would hint they think the parents did it as Burke wouldn’t be legally culpable anyway. The legal outcome would be the same, regardless.

But in that more recent interview with Allan Prendergast they seemed to be leaning BDI. Theres also the bizarre confrontation with Patsy‘s family where Patsy’s father sat on his pistol all night because they were convinced Fleet White wanted to kill them. What the hell is that all about? Are the Whites and Ramseys/Paughs both just huge drama queens?

I don’t know, there is just something a little bit gung-ho about Fleet White, he talks a big game then doesn’t deliver, seems to let his ego cloud his judgement a bit. He was there on the party night the 911 call was accidentally placed. He and Priscilla hosted that Christmas Day dinner. He was up that morning searching the house for JonBenet’s body. He was there when John found the body. But after the murder, both families act like they barely knew each other. And for the guy who knows a lot about this case and was present at many crucial moments, he didn’t really tell us all that much….

I’ve been experiencing stronger than usual emotional turmoil for the past few months and have been lashing out at the people around me. It makes me feel absolutely horrible. And the worst part is they’re still trying to be tolerant of me, but somehow it makes me feel even worse.

In this kind of scenario is it better to just self isolate so you don’t hurt the people around you? I can’t afford to see a therapist. I hate myself and how I’ve been treating the people I care about lately and feel like I’ve already hurt them past the point of repair and I’m so scared of burning bridges permanently, at the same time I don’t want to make them worried by disappearing. Knowing I have hurt them is making me even more self loathing and depressed and hating myself.

Besides constant fatigue and low folate, that was actually my main symptom and the symptom that caused me to try and find a diagnosis.

My breath would have this constant nasty rotten cabbage smell to it ever since I remember, which must have been excess methionine I was breathing out through my lungs.

I would always eat a very meat and dairy based diet so that was probably part of why even as a child I got ‘your breath stinks’ comments. Very embarrassing and isolating, and I still haven’t fixed it completely, but at least now I have a general direction to go in regards to healing.

Has anyone else had these symptoms? Back of my neck hurts and feels strained like I slept badly on it.

If I hold my phone up or raise my arms, my hands and wrists go numb until I lower them again.

I lost a lot of blood on my recent period and my body feels a lot worse. I am feeling the deficiency badly.

Some of you who are longtime BB sufferers may already know and practice these but this is what I’ve learned.

1. The sticky mucus in oral and throat biofilms can make bacteria up to 500x more resistant to antibiotics and mouthwashes. That’s insane.

Unless you disrupt this film, the antibiotics and antiseptic agents have a good chance of not even being able to penetrate the bacteria walls to kill them.

Good, all natural and safe biofilm disrupters include green tea, baking soda, and mechanical brushing with a high powered electric toothbrush. Use these to gently scrub your whole mouth with before your mouthwash or antibiotics.

2. The 3 main gases that cause bad breath are

• Hydrogen Sulfide: Smells like rotten eggs.
• Methyl Mercaptan: Smells like rotting cabbage, sewage or feces.
• Dimethyl Sulfide: Smells like gasoline or decomposing vegetables.

Other chemicals are:

• Ammonia: Very pungent nauseating musty chemical smell, like pee and old body fluids.
• Trimethylaminuria: buildup of this chemical causes a rotten fish odor in the breath

Based on how your breath smells you can work out which one you are likely exhaling most.

Zinc aggressively neutralizes hydrogen sulfide gas. Use zinc mouthwashes.

Apples, cherries and celery contain enzymes that help break down methyl mercaptan. Look for mouthwashes with chlorine dioxide and diluted 3% hydrogen peroxide also helps get rid of this gas.

Dimethyl Sulfide is also responsive to chlorine dioxide and zinc washes. Reduce methionine in your diet for this one too! That means lay off dairy, eggs, fish and red meat. A vegan diet is good for this one. I’m not advocating veganism but try it for a week and see if there’s an improvement.

Lactulose binds ammonia in the gut. Zinc supplements also help reduce ammonia in the blood and breath.

For Trimethylaminuria, you will have to do a low choline diet (no red meat, eggs, fish or beans) , you should try activated charcoal and chlorophyll, and you may possibly have to take metronidazole. Please make sure you have a diagnosis before getting treatment. I just recently learned I have mild TMAU from genetic testing.

3. There are antibiotics and mouthwashes that only target gram negative or gram positive bacteria. Most people have a mixture of both. If you are going to take antibiotics or use medicated mouthwash make sure it can kill both types.

4. Brush literally your entire mouth. The very back of your teeth and wisdom teeth are prone to smelling like shit because they’re hardest to reach. Brush the very back of your gums, your tongue, your cheeks, the roof of your mouth, gently brush the tonsil and back of your tongue area too if you can without gagging, I mean brush everything! Put some mouthwash on the toothbrush and gently scrub every speck of your mouth. And of course, brush every surface of your exposed teeth and the gums. Floss too.

5. If your bad breath gets way worse in the morning then your bad breath is almost certainly originating in your mouth and throat.

If your bad breath stays consistently bad all day and gets a lot worse after certain foods. Then it’s likely systemic/body bad breath. You will likely have to cut out dairy, simple sugars, high choline/methionine/cysteine foods, and sulfur rich foods like onions and garlic. Because those nasty bacteria in your mouth and gut, who make you smell like shit, love devouring all the byproducts of those foods and turning it into shit smelling gases.

Get your tonsils removed or lasered if you get stones. If the bad breath smells like it’s coming from your stomach, get an endoscopy to make sure there’s no sores or ulcers or rot in your esophagus or stomach.
If you have really smelly farts and stools as well as bad breath. Then you may have to change your diet and take activated charcoal and chlorophyll. Get tested for SIBO. Genetic testing for metabolic disorders is good too.

Regularly change your toothbrush/brush heads at least 1-2 times a month.

Probiotics did not help me but they should be taken after antibiotic courses to help replenish good bacteria. Always check with a doctor.

Hope this helps at least one person out there.

I sleep with my mouth open at night and my mouth and throat gets super dry.

I’ve noticed my tonsils also dry out a bit and kind of shrink during sleep. This shrinking action seems to dislodge the stones quite a bit.

Because when I wake up I’ll often immediately get a big one. One of my tonsils is way bigger than the other and it’s always that same one too, that the stones will pop out of.

The crypts in my tonsils are very tight and it seems so hard to open and clean them without a ton of bleeding.

I noticed if you take them out and leave them somewhere they shrink to a tiny size and lose their bad smell. I’m guessing it’s because the anaerobic bacteria get exposed to oxygen.

From the mid 1990’s to around the mid 2010s there was a huge alien/UFO subculture.

Then after Covid arrived it felt like people stopped caring about far off conspiracies like aliens, and started focusing more on real world conspiracies.

As in, the socially engineered ones that are happening and affecting people in our daily life, like manmade pandemics, oil company wars, human trafficking, Israeli influence on the US, the Epstein class and wealth divide etc.

So it seems strange that Trump and Obama are now confirming alien existence. As Tim Dillon said, nobody even cares about aliens anymore.

Is it just another bread and circus hoax to distract us from the very real crimes and scandals and exploitation going on in our world?

does that mean the origin of my bad breath is likely confined inside my mouth and throat?

I’ve been paranoid that I might be the 10% of people who have extraoral halitosis meaning it originates inside the body like the intestines or liver.

but tbh it seems to get worse without mouthwash and during sleep so is it likely just shitty bacteria inside my mouth?

When I rub my back teeth I noticed it smells just like the tonsil stones. It’s like a greasy film that stinks. I brush that whole area including the very backs of my gums and cheeks thoroughly and use mouthwash and it disappears for like 20 minutes, but my breath still will smell bad anyway, and the stinky film will reappear again. This is so nasty.

I’m in the UK but hold a EU passport. The prices here for impacted wisdom teeth are crazy. Been quoted £400 minimum each which would be £1600, not including sedation and x rays.

Otherwise it’s going to be a year on the NHS waiting list. I can’t wait that long. I need these things out asap, they are infected and hurting my mouth.

I’ve heard good things about Hungary and Romania. If you know anywhere that can do surgical wisdom tooth removal for under 200 euros per tooth, please let me know.

I was wondering why my bad breath stopped being so room filling lately. I had been taking mild painkillers. Now it’s starting to make sense. Turns out tylenol (acetaminophen) reduces cysteine and methionine levels in the body. High levels of cysteine and methionine in the body cause that rotten egg/boiled cabbage smell.

Ive long suspected I have a metabolic disorder that causes excess C and M levels. However, you obviously can’t keep taking tylenol forever or even long term, so it is ruled out as a treatment plan. Sucks.

it’s like a sickly sweet rotten smell. Kind of like the smell of home cooking gas, the scent that gas companies use to scent the gas so people will smell it.

anyone else have this particular odor? I’m starting to think I might have hypermethionemia because it smells worse after eating dairy and high protein foods. when I eat fish my body odor starts smelling like fish too.

Google says it’s highly effective against sulfur gas producing bacteria. unfortunately it’s also really hard on the microbiome of your mouth and gut so you will have to take loads of probiotics afterwards to replenish them.

not sure if it’s worth it but I’ve seen a few success stories that make me wonder.

I’ve noticed almost all of us on this sub with bad breath have this issue of a white or yellowish tongue coating and stickiness/cloudiness in the throat. Often our tongues are red tipped or inflamed with bite marks around the edges too, and phlegm at the back.

Even when we tongue scrape and brush our tongues the coating and stickiness seems to remain for a lot of us. When I look at my friends or family members tongues they’re all pink and glossy and normal.

It’s only me who has bad breath and has this whiteish sticky tongue coating. I’ve taken antibiotics and anti fungal/anti candida meds and aside from that the doctor doesnt seem to care at all. When I talk to him about my tongue coloring he looks at me as if I’m crazy.

I’m considering trying to talk with a traditional Chinese medicine doctor because they seem to the be the only people who take tongue coatings seriously and see it as a major sign of internal health problems. I have nothing to lose at this point.