u/TrashManTrashLife

I'm sorry this is so much text but please help guys, I'm beggin' ya I'm struggling here.

So I'm mid/later 20s FtM (on T for years, quite male presenting but you can definitely tell jf you're looking for it & I kind of mentioned it so I'm sure he knows unless he's as dense as a neutron star haha)

I'm bi but have only ever had relations with women or NB people and I find like everyone "attractive" but am very rarely "attracted" to people. Generally the thought of all that nonsense grosses me the hell out unless I'm into the person which is again rare. I pretty much only know how to flirt with women and even that is the most bull "I'm obviously from a butch lesbian community and think carrying stuff for you makes it clear I like you".

Anyway, I'm finishing up getting my CDL to do trucking and it's obviously not a pro-homo environment hahaha (though I swear truckers are actually like one of the gayest populations in the US but whatever lmao) and I'm really into this guy in my class but I have no idea if he's bi or gay (usually not helpful anyway) or anything. Not dating anyone, no wife, no kids, has never said anything about dating history and I've asked him tons of shit about his life (I do this to everyone I love listening) I just don't have the balls to straight up ask if he's dated anyone in the past and what gender they were. 😂

*To clarify this is not a workplace environment or a work endorsed company. People do not really act professionally lmao

He smiles a lot when I tease him, teases me back at this point, likes to talk to me, offers me help with stuff (but he's just a nice guy so), I make him laugh a lot, and we talk a good amount but to be fair I'm also just obnoxiously high energy (the brrrrrr I gotta go run in circles kind haha), like to make most people laugh, and other than mentioning my one queer issue I pretty much accidentally mostly just talk about stereotypical "dude" stuff because... I'm a dude idk hahaha so I doubt he thinks I'm flirting with him. I even mentioned my ex girlfriend in conversation at one point. 🤦

He's not like one of the flag hat, stripper bumper sticker, bald eagle shirt macho men but he was a mechanic and dresses super typical plain guy so it's not like I'm gonna get any clear flags here. He's seen the pride collar my dog wears and plays with my dog but tbf I'm trans which I'm sure he knows so....idk hahaha

So yeah. Basically he's probably straight, I got his number, I already work so flipping hard to present male without throwing my personality out the window, I really frickin don't need people knowing I like guys if I can help it, but I really don't want to miss out on shooting my shot with possibly my one attraction for the next 3-4 years because that's about how long between my crushes FML.

Idk. Just. Send help. Please. How the flip do I ask this.... :' |

Sorry for cross posting I posted this in r/dating_advice for some reason but this isn't really dating advice so oops haha trying again. Thanks guys!

I doubt anyone will read all this but please help guys, I'm beggin' ya I'm struggling here

So I'm mid/later 20s FtM (on T for years, quite male presenting but you can definitely tell jf you're looking for it & I kind of mentioned it so I'm sure he knows unless he's as dense as a neutron star haha)

I'm bi but have only ever had relations with women or NB people and I find like everyone "attractive" but am very rarely "attracted" to people. Generally the thought of all that nonsense grosses me the hell out unless I'm into the person which is again rare. I pretty much only know how to flirt with women and even that is the most bullshit "I'm obviously from a butch lesbian community and think carrying stuff for you makes it clear I like you".

Anyway, I'm finishing up getting my CDL to do trucking and it's obviously not a pro-homo environment hahaha (though I swear truckers are actually like one of the gayest populations in the US but whatever lmao) and I'm really into this guy in my class but I have no idea if he's bi or gay (usually not helpful anyway) or anything. No GF, no wife, no kids, has never said anything about dating history and I've asked him all sorts of shit about his life (I do this to everyone I love listening) I just don't have the balls to straight up ask if he's dated anyone in the past and what gender they were. 😂

He smiles a lot when I tease him, likes to talk to me, I can make him laugh pretty easy but to be fair I'm also pretty obnoxiously high energy, like to make most people laugh, and other than mentioning just today my one queer issue accidentally mostly just talk about stereotypical "dude" shit because... I'm a dude idk hahaha so I doubt he thinks I'm flirting with him.

He's not like one of the flag hat, stripper bumper sticker, bald eagle shirt macho men but he was a mechanic and dresses super typical plain guy so it's not like I'm gonna get any clear flags here.

So yeah. Basically he's probably straight, I got his number, I already work so fucking hard to present male without throwing my personality out the window, I really fking don't need people knowing I like guys if I can help it, but I really don't want to miss out on shooting my shot with possibly my one attraction for the next 3-4 years because that's about how long between my crushes FML.

Idk. Just. Send help. Please. How the fk do I ask this.... :' |

TLDR; pregnant black cat @ Troutdale TA needs safe birthing home

Hello, not sure if this is allowed since it's more Gresham but there is a friendly and beautiful black cat at the TA in Troutdale who is PREGNANT. I expect she will have kittens very soon and it is not a safe area people drive like idiots there and she wanders around the lot. No shelters are taking right now and it is not a safe place for her to birth.

In the past I would have tried to at least take her in until I could find them all homes (I live in a van so I can only foster) but I just literally cannot right now, financially or safety wise, my current van conditions and temps would be dangerous for her and the kitts.

If there is anyone who can possibly take this cat at least to foster, I can help with homing the kittens when they come and introducing you to the mom since she already knows and like me.

Please don't respond to this post with "Call this shelter" unless you have a direct resource you are very certain is open to helping at this time. While I appreciate the sentiment my last round of trying to place an injured stray (less than a month ago mind you) was all rejections and telling me to literally "put it back where I found it" until I finally got Dove Lewis to take her because she was badly in need of medical. They will not take a healthy cat just because it is pregnant and in this case I obviously will not be bothering her unless someone else can help.

I have one absolutely terrible photo of her haha sorry but I can take a better one next time I am there.

Thank you so much in advance and whether you can help or not I hope you have a great day and weekend!

Hello, not sure if this is allowed (pretty short rule list for this sub haha) but there is a friendly and beautiful black cat at the TA in Troutdale who is PREGNANT. I expect she will have kittens very soon and it is not a safe area people drive like idiots there and she wanders around the lot. No shelters are taking right now and it is not a safe place for her to birth.

In the past I would have tried to at least take her in until I could find them all homes (I live in a van so I can only foster) but I just literally cannot right now, financially or safety wise, my current van conditions and temps would be dangerous for her and the kitts.

If there is anyone who can possibly take this cat at least to foster, I can help with homing the kittens when they come and introducing you to the mom since she already knows and like me.

Please don't respond to this post with "Call this shelter", while I appreciate the sentiment my last round of trying to place an injured stray (less than a month ago mind you) was all rejections and telling me to literally "put it back where I found it" until I finally got Dove Lewis to take him because he was badly in need of medical. They will not take a healthy cat just because it is pregnant and in this case I obviously will not be bothering her unless someone else can help.

I have one absolutely terrible photo of her haha sorry but I can take a better one next time I am there.

Thank you so much in advance and whether you can help or not have a great day!

TLDR; pregnant black cat @ Troutdale TA needs safe birthing home

I can't make myself do fucking anything and I know I know I know I have to. The only thing that can motivate me to even move is my dog who I constantly feel like I'm disappointing and the thought of some imaginary person I might meet someday in the future who might love me and need me to be able to care for them so I can't entirely fall apart and have to at least brush my fucking teeth so I'm not too disgusting in the future.

I'd rather just die though. I'm exhausted and I want it to stop. The noise, the voices, the terror, the anger, the crushing feeling of knowing everyone is suffering and I'm not doing enough to help them. Just make it stop.