u/TrippingFish76

I’m sick of seeing good options and then an option is just like 10mil or 1 billion etc. , obviously everyone is just going to choose the money. If it’s specifically about money and both / all options involve some way of attaining wealth that’s fine i get it, but when it’s a question of which magic pill to take or which superpower u want and then one of the options is a ton of money it completely ruins it, because obviously everyone chooses that..

Be more creative and stop putting a billion dollars or however much money as an option. It is boring and ruins the question.

possible trigger warning (self harm / suicide and self doubting trans related thoughts)

I don’t know what to do.. my sister keeps talking about wanting to kill herself, she has been very depressed. She is trans (MTF / AMAB) and has been openly trans for about 3 years now , and on HRT (estradiol) for about a year now. We are both in our 20s , her being 2 years younger than me.

She is very depressed about the way she looks, she keeps saying she is ugly and doesn’t look like a girl / how she wants to look like and is constantly self doubting and hating on her self. I try to tell her that she is pretty and there’s nothing wrong with the way she looks but it doesn’t really help, i mean i am her brother, and i am a cis male so i don’t understand first hand what it’s like, i know i can’t know how it feels.. But i don’t want to lose her.. she keeps saying how she’s been suicidal like a every day all day and always thinking about killing herself and how much she hates herself and how she looks.. i just don’t know what to do.. i’m terrified of losing her, but i have no idea how to help.

And recently she has been going on this trans 4 chan page that seems to me to be like transphobic and very negative and pessimistic, she keeps talking about her bone structure and how since she didn’t start HRT before puberty she is screwed. I try and tell her it’s BS and there are plenty of trans woman who transitioned later and look just fine, but she is convinced she is ugly and doesn’t look like a woman and will never look how she wants to. She says she just wishes she was born as a cis woman. She says she wants to get a bunch of different surgeries like facial feminization and laser hair removal and stuff but she says it will cost like $100,000 , and she seems pretty hopeless about being able to ever afford it. And she doesn’t even have a job rn, but she is on her last year of her degree. Like i think she looks fine like she isn’t ugly and she looks feminine to me and she’s in good shape and skinny and stuff, i feel like she’s being way too hard on herself, but i understand that i can’t know how it feels for her, and if she feels like she needs the surgeries then i support her and feel like she should go for it, i told her it’s attainable and she just has to get a good paying job and save up, and that being at home in bed all day alone isn’t helping.

Plus she’s fighting with her BF, and like i feel like he’s been the only thing keeping her alive, he is overall a very kind person and he seems very caring and stuff and they seem really good together , other than him sometimes having episodes of getting really angry and like super stressed about everything and self harming sometimes.. but the main issue is that he is poly and he won’t stay completely monogamous and since she doesn’t want to lose him she has reluctantly agreed to it, and he’s been seeing some other people and that has made her upset and things have been rocky with them lately bc of it. but she feels like she can’t live without him and loves him with all her heart and if she loses him she will kill herself.. which scares me.

I honestly just have no idea what to do, i try my best to talk to her and comfort her and tell her it’s going to be ok and that like it’s only been a year and she needs to give the HRT more time to work, and that she needs to see a therapist and she should get a job so she’s getting out of the house and interacting with other people and doing stuff, and also to get money ofc.

And it doesn’t help that we live at home still and our parents are not very accepting of her being trans, they only recently found out, and my dad got super mad and stuff , my dad basically told her “if she’s going to dress and act like a woman then he doesn’t want her to be a part of his life or in his house” , now things have calmed down but they still call her by her dead name and misgender her and basically act like it never happened.. she has talked with my mom privately about it more tho and mom at least seems to be more accepting and understanding about it she says, but my dad will never be ok with it i feel like.. and our other brother is moderate to severely autistic and follows everything they say (like being conservative and anti trans / anti gay and stuff) so he is always calling her “weird and gay” and stuff , my parents tell him to stop and be nice and stuff tho at least.. but yeah it’s all just a lot for her and constantly being misgendered and called by her dead name and forced to wear boy clothes at home all the time has been bad for her mental health as well.

I’m just so scared of losing her and i don’t want her to die, she texted me about wanting to kill herself earlier today when i was at work and i broke down and started crying.. i called her and made her promise she wouldn’t.. She is okay now, she’s sleeping. But fuck man i don’t want her to die, i’m so scared, it’s nerve wracking, i don’t know how to deal with this.. i’m not good with this sort of thing.. i try to talk to her and tell her it will be okay, last night we texted for hours about all of it and after we finished talking she said i helped her and gave her hope and made her feel better, but then today she was right back to being suicidal and texted me about how much she wants to kill herself and hates herself and the way she looks.

I just don’t know what to do. What should i do?

Just finished my first play through after 177 hours, i love this game! It is amazing! And i want to keep playing, but i’m kinda sad that it’s over now. And i’m wondering what to do now. I still want to build a nuclear power plant, planning on making a 8 rod per min / 2 plutonium rod per min sinked / 100GW nuclear plant, but after that i’m not sure what else to build on this current world. Without having a clear objective and goal to work towards i get lost.

Obviously starting a new game is the most obvious choice, and i most likely will, but after all the time and effort i out into this world, it just seems kind of… wrong or sad to just abandon it and be done with it forever. Does anyone have any ideas for projects or things to do that have a clear goal / purpose and aren’t just like… make 100 HMFs per minute for the hell of it. I want something that has a purpose.

And as for the new game whenever i decide to start one, i was thinking random resource nodes, and for space elevator parts should i do like 5x? or 10x? or just go straight for 100x? i do have a ton of extra space elevator parts as it is, even with 1/min, after 20 or 50 or 100+ hours they add up. is random nodes and 100x parts good for a second play through? or should i try something else first?

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I’m curious if you red voters would go blue if you thought the chances of the majority voting blue would be higher, or if you would choose to survive guaranteed no matter what , even if the chances of dying are very small and billions would die if you choose to survive at all costs.

Blue: 90% chance the entire world population lives ( including you), 10% chance you and billions die

Red: Billions of people die(at least 1 billion), but you survive no matter what (100% chance billions of people die and 100% chance you survive)

This is a single person vote, only you are voting in this scenario.

basically i mean if there was a 90% chance that blue would win in the original scenario, would you pick blue? or would the 10% chance of death make you choose red (in which case billions are guaranteed to die)

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I am sick of these “it was never about the cat” heathens! It has always been about the cat! G13 would not exist if not for the cat! The entire reason we say g13 is because that is where the cats little pink nose was! If there was no cat there nobody would be saying g13! Do not act like g13 came out of nowhere regardless of the cat, the cat is the reason why we say g13! g13 is where that little pink nose is! The perfect spot to aim! If the cat moves then the target moves as well! You fools that say it’s not about the cat ignore your heritage, you sully the purpose of g13, you spit on its origin, it is BLASPHEMY!

IT WAS ALWAYS ABOUT THE CAT DO NOT PRETEND OTHERWISE YOU HEATHENS