u/UnderstandingNo2008

I have them too from time to time

When things arent going my way, or people keep disappointing me, or when I feel too lonely, or when I feel my life isn't progressing

The thoughts of Suicide mostly stem from my past trauma, the kind of stuff that can't be fixed by anything, and this knowledge that the pain I carry, I will carry my whole life cause it's unfixable and irreversible.

The only thing that helps me when I have these thoughts is knowing that there is essentially NO POINT in DYING BEFORE YOUR TIME, and we will die the only question is when and how...

So until then why not try to make something of this life, make a small dream come true, make some new memories in new cities, make some new friends, make some more money...

Cause it ain't the end, until the end.

And when that time comes, I'd like to go into that eternity smiling, rather than rejection of Life.

I'm looking for dedicated musicians who pick on rhythm and scale quick.

Willing to learn and perform with their whole spirit and can actually make their instruments speak for them.

Bass/violin/piano/guitars/drums/synth

All the works

Ok so it's her bday today..

We haven't spoken in 6 months and have had a lot of trouble in the past in our relationship, but I have transcendental love for her..

I do not want to wish her to re-ignite anything, I just hate how we left things, and I'm also blocked from everywhere which means she might not want to think of me or hear from me..

I'm hoping to send just a cake emoji at 10pm, so that I wish her the last and do not risk messing up her day..

Is this okay, or I'm being a complete idiot?

Edit: I have decided not to text her, thankyou all you kind strangers for knocking some sense into me

I've had my heart broken twice, and these were partners who had said with complete awareness and a full heart that they'd do everything to always be together.

First one cheated on me with a guy who later cheated on them, second left cause I was essentially a lower caste and that their dad would make me sit on the floor and eat from a paper plate..

Now I'm 28 having forgiven all my past, but still carrying the pain cause I never got a heartfelt apology of acknowledgement..

Not waiting for the apology, but to do it all over again and trust a woman for the 3rd time feels so daunting and tiresome.

What's the guarantee that they will not choose convenience over me again?

Hi I'm a Himachali and new to the city and don't have a lot of friends here, what are some safe places in Delhi like monuments or parks or cafes where I can just sit and enjoy rain with coffee in my thermos..

Hello everyone

27M from NCR, I've been in a serious relationship and have had serious jobs, none of which has made me happy because well I'd like to think I wasn't as emotionally mature as I am now..

Been single for more than 2 years now, and I have my eyes on a very meaningful and prestigious but also a very hard career destination for myself in the next 2 years and I'm sure I'll get there.

I want to ask people in approaching their 30s who chose to chase their dreams instead of finding someone to marry and settle down..

Is it really worth it to deny yourself the Love of a significant other for a chance to run after a dreamy life that you actually want without compromise?