u/UpbeatFlamingo2016

I dealt with parental CSA during my childhood and cut off the parent at 14, I’m 18 now and have been trying to heal. It’s been a been weird journey but lately I think I’ve been having some form of age regression I’m not sure is normal. My mental gets bad at night specifically so I just smoke weed every night to silence my brain enough to sleep. The issue is on the occasions I don’t or don’t start soon enough I’ve been having these weird episodes, I’ll think about it and get a bit freaked out and pretty sad like usual (I’ve been diagnosed PTSD) but it’s been going more into regression lately which is completely new. I’ve always collected toys from my childhood so that was its own form of coping I guess but now I get into a younger state of mind when this happens. It sounds dumb but I curl up with my childhood stuffed animal and I feel vulnerable like I don’t understand what happened or something. I also crave comforts younger me liked like a kids cuisine or my little pony. What I’m really scared is weird about it is I think of wanting my boyfriend for comfort and it’s almost the same feeling of how I used to want an adult for comfort. I don’t know why this is happening and I don’t want tell my boyfriend even though I usually tell him everything, I feel ashamed. Please tell me this isn’t super weird and it’s common, I feel gross about it.

Spoilers ahead
Olivia being involved in the Monse x Caesar situation felt messy enough to be honest. When they involved Olivia with Caesar it felt like a lot but I did like them together. But then to throw ruby and jasmine together? And then Monse kissing spooky? And then Jamal having a thing for Monse for a hot second? It’s not that I objectively hate any of these pairings it just feels like dry predictable writing to be pairing everyone like that. That gripe aside amazing show I just finished it and loved it
I don’t wanna get a ghost..

My iPhone 14 has been having issues charging unless at certain angles, so I bought a new charger but found it’s any charger, and now it won’t even work at certain angles. it’ll show the charging symbol and vibrate and then immediately end. The only way I’ve been able to charge is through magnet on my powerbank, but that being said I don’t think it’s a battery issue. I can also wiggle chargers in the port that I know aren’t loose so I believe the port must be loose. Anyone else have this issue? Was it expensive to fix?

So this is pretty hypothetical as I don’t know if I’ll get my time off approved since I have a 2 week trip in August already BUT what’s a good budget for a week in Kyoto? Or two maybe? I’m thinking one is more realistic to ask off for. I probably won’t be doing much clothing shopping because of sizes but I wanted to try some things like the tea ceremonies where they dress you up in the kimono and try some good ramen places! I’d probably like to get some souvenirs and anime merch while im there but nothing too insane. I also don’t really care where I stay as long as it’s safe and clean (debating an Internet cafe) any thoughts would be appreciated! I’m already estimating the ticket to be around $1500 so ticket deals or tips on prices for that are appreciated too. Should I visit Tokyo too if I aim for two weeks? Kanayama may be a good calmer place for me, I’d like to see the town silent hill f is inspired by