u/Upper-Set-3371

Hello everyone! This is the story of me thinking that I am in the biggest friend zone ever, while everyone around believes I am blind and she likes me even more than one her. It's quite long so I understand why you would not wanna read through it, but I really do appreciate if you do read and give me your opinion. With that being said, let's cut to the chase.

At the beginning of the school year, I got to know 2 really cool people, one or them is this girl I met in the school student council (other countries probably have that, but I am not sure), which I was a part of too. They are from the same class, but there isn't anything going between them at all(gotta point that out). I got to know them and we started helping out in the student council together.

One day, on Valentine's day, we had a box for students to send love letters anonymously to anyone, but our job (my ftiends' and I) was to get rid of any bad letters. That's when I learned she had a crush on someone in her class, but she seemed quite open about it, cause she had a letter for him.Iv even tried to help her find it after she lost it. But at the time, I didn't have a crush on hers it didn't bother me.

After some time i became a lot closer to these two,and started talking to them a lot outside the council. But one day, after a few months after the Valentine's event, I for some reason started developing a crush on her, despite knowing she already liked someone else. But for some reason, I continued, I just felt like I HAVE to continue. And this is quite unusual for me, because I am not the type of person tocontinues doiing something like that when I know they have feelings for someone else. But anyway, at one point,wer followed each other on Instagram cause I did see her as just a friend. And a month passed by, a monthi in we continued talking to each other more and more. And one day, all of a sudden, she started liking every single Instagram story and note I post. She was even first most of the time. I thought to myself "that's weird, that never actually happened before, maybe we just became better friends idk... Or maybe for some reason she could actually like me too? No way, that's impossible, I better not get delusional".

But as time passed, we started talking to each other more and more. At some point, when we were with the other boy the three of us, it seemed like she was focusing mostly on me, even when we weren't just the two of us. Sometimes, when the other boy was not there, we even stayed for a bit after school for almost an hour just talking some random stuff. It just looked to me she went out of her way just a bit to talk to me. Many times, she seemed she even felt bad for keeping me from going home. But when we were the 3 of us they did talk about her crush from the class. But even after that, I felt I should not give up yet.

One day we started texting, because I decided to try my luck, and turns out, I was not talking to a wall, I was not the only one to talk, it was mutual. We then continued doing so from time to time, and once, our mutual friend was not at school, so we had the opportunity to talk even more. One day, on our longest conversation, we got to know each other even more, she kept me till 1 am on a school night, she wanted me to tell her some stories I have heard. She even found out we both play the guitar,and wanted to play together when we get better at it. In the end she told me that I can always tell her anything, she told me that she will always listen to me if I need someone to listen. so I did tell her the same thing. But a few days after that, she shared with me a secret that didn't seem too personal but it turns out she has not told anyone about it(out of respect,i won't say what it is, even if no one actually knows who she is here). And she was really down. I tried to help her, and she was grateful about that. So far I thought to myself “there have been some huge signs…” And then, she told me one of the first bad signs. She said “is that what an advice from an older brother is like?”. This hurt a bit, but I continued despite all of that, not being sure if I was digging my own grave or not. She even told me that she got the courage to talk to her crush, which felt really bad too. But again, somehow I decided to continue.

Even more time passes, we talk more and more, and it continued to seem like she went out of her way to talk to me. It all turns out, we are quite the same as people, interests and character. I just felt safe around her, and it seemed she felt that way too.

One day, after school, we stayed for 4 hours straight, together alone. And in these 4 hours, she literally showed me her entire photo gallery on her phone, and told me so much about her and her achievements in life, she just told and shared with me so much. After it got a hit late, we decided to go home, and she even told me to text her to hang out some time. I felt weird, after all that, and I lost hope due to the crush and brother things she told me.

Now this part may not be liked by many, but I will still add it. I wanted it all to stop, I wanted this to stop because I was too unsure, I just didn't believe that anything was happening and I really was digging my grave. I shared everything with a friend, but he also aid it's over. And I am a Christian, I pray every day, and I am not ashamed of it, and that's the part that not everyone will think it's needed, but I wanna add it. One night I prayed all of this to stop, I wanted it to end, and on the other day, she texted me to hang out. I was so confused and excited and I was not sure what to do, but I accepted.

In the end, we went on this hang out and had a ton of fun. She continued talking a lot about herself, which I loved, we even went to the thrift store, and she was asking me how does she look in certain clothes, she even bought the jacket I picked from the store. We continued the “hang out” and got to know each other even more. In the end, after the whole day ended, we said our goodbyes and she said one more thing, being “thrift besties”. I got a bit scared by that too, and after that, my friend told me to just give up and there was no hope. But after all that, in the same night she told me that she had so much fun, and that she didn’t feel judged and could not be restrained at all around me. She even told me I was matching her energy, but again, I really felt sad after “besties” part.

A few days later, I felt really bummed, but for some reason, I did not wanna give up, I wanted another opinion, I told another friend of mine everything, and he told me that there were only two possible outcomes. Either she likes me or she is the biggest “fraud” because why would anyone do any of these things for someone they only see as a friend. This kinda gave me hope, but I felt so much stress…

After that we continued talking, my friend even saw me in the hallway talking to her while the other boy was there, and he told me that she really was giving all her attention to me, and maybe she was, but I was not too sure. After getting home, we continued to chat on insta, and she continued wanting to get to know me better, and she even called me on discord, cause she wanted to “show me some of her things”. And in the end, she showed me literary everything in her room. I was so confused, why would you do that if you really did not like me? Then she kept saying that she wants me to talk more about myself, and that she wants me to keep the conversation going and be myself. At some point, I decided to talk about my interest in biology. I knew she would not judge me cause she was talking for an hour about her interest in astronomy. And after I begun talking about biology, I really started being quite open, and I just started yapping and yapping. She didn’t say nothing while I was at my yap session, when all of a sudden I heard her saying in a quiet zoned out tone “Your really cute…”. I then stopped and asked if she said anything, but she denied. But tbh, I am still not sure if she really did say it or not. In the end, it got pretty late and I still didn’t have anything to eat the whole day. She started worrying and kept telling me to go eat, and she did that, she kept saying it every single day (Because I sometimes avoid eating because of some stupid dysmorphia, but that’s not the main point now).

The other day, she met the friend who believed she was into me, and some other friends for the first time. And after the school, she told me that she said she would like to know my friends too, but then proceeded to add that she would only do that if I wanted to, and that she would like to know me better first, and then go and befriend everyone else. After that she went on her 2 week vacation which still continues today.

But she continued texting me more and more there, and she even told me she wanted to make me a movie night and to make me pancakes after she came back home. And in the end, she just asked me “Do you have a crush”. She proceeded to try and guess it, and this was the other part that scared me so much, even while my friends were telling me that she is into me, and she knows I am into her aswell, and that all of this was just a way to make me say it. I told her I would tell her who it is, but only when she comes back from the vacation. And she replied “I am a little impatient, but tell me when you feel ready”. Then, she proceeded to tell me to go and eat again and again and again. She even told me not to miss her too much.

And here I am, confused, a lot. Everyone is saying that she is into me, but for some reason I do not believe it. Yes, there are many obvious signs, even to me, but something just doesn’t feel right to me. I know everything sounds so cringy, and weird, but still, I really just want an opinion from more people. Am I crazy, are my friends right, am I really in the biggest friend zone ever, or am I just dumb. Thank you so much for reading through all of this, and I wish everyone to have a great and blessed day/evening. God bless!

Uhm one last thing, which is a bit unsettling... She texted me in school today while she was on her vacation, and she kept telling me that I am a "good boy", and other, uhmm... let's say, extraordinary things like that. I told her that I would not get subdued by her, but she answered "We'll see how long that will last"... And after telling her that she is not a manipulator, she corrected herself to "Seducer". Yeah, that's actually a bit scary, and that's after the whole "Who is your crush" question...

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