u/Upset_Raspberry_3191

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Im a Pisces rising, cancer moon, 8th house mercury/venus. I have been sober for almost 30 days now. Yall. I can feel people talking about me. I dont want to but I can. How do you make it stop? Or quiet it down. My stomach hurts randomly at times & i know the difference between hunger pain, cramps, anxiety, & intuition. It bothers me knowing but not knowing enough. How do I become okay with this?

I’m basically one month sober from drugs and alcohol. A week in, I decided to get help for my mental issues. I was diagnosed with BPD & CPTSD. I was prescribed Prozac for depression and Hydroxyzine for my anxiety. The hydroxyzine is 25mg. The past few days, I’ve had episodes. I took TWO hydros instead of one so I can calm down. I have addiction issues (obviously) and I really want to tread lightly with this stuff. The Prozac doesn’t seem to be working but the hydros are. She told me hydros aren’t addictive but I’m worried I’ll become reliant. Am I abusing the hydros by taking two at the same time? I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. I have an upcoming appointment but im nervous to tell her I’ve been doing this.

I have BPD & I’m looking for shows that are wholesome. If I’m going to pick up personality’s off characters then I’d like them to be good people. I’ve watched Mom three times in the span of 6 months. I’m bored of it. It helped me with my sobriety & with helping others that have the same issues as me. I need something similar. Something wholesome with great character development.

Bruh I can’t post anywhere. They take my post off because of my low karma points. I’m HARMLESS. Looking for friends, tarot interpretations & BPD advice. How the freak do I get karma points so I can post?

Was diagnosed with BPD and CPTSD today..

I’m so upset most of the time but right now it’s bad. I had to move abruptly. Not too far but over 100 miles. My old roommate/landlord sexually assaulted my friend leading to the move. I’m back home now and man oh man. Life’s been so hard. I gathered all information to sue him for my security deposit and emotional distress. I was ready to take him down but having to go back to the city I just fled, made it difficult to sue right away. Then my grandma dies. My grandma was a narcissist and I was one of her favorites. So many mixed emotions. A lot of my extended family hated that I was favored by her. They hated it so much that they decided to rip any type of closure one needs to get over a death by HIDING where the funeral was taking place. After researching, I was able to find out she was buried 4 hours away from me. With the abrupt move, I obviously do not have a job right now to fund any type of long distance travel. Things weren’t looking too good but i had my boyfriend. He tried but nothing could fix my depression. I just needed time. I guess that left him overwhelmed and depressed too. So depressed that he decided to go back home. I feel so rejected and abandoned. We’re still dating but the devastation is so intense. All of this is intense and life doesn’t seem worth living anymore. I’m so sad. Everyday has at least 1 mental breakdown, 2 anxiety attacks, and multiple reasons why I’d be better off gone. I decided to go to the hospital during one of my breakdowns. They’re talking about BPD or CPTSD or both. I know they don’t really care because NO ONE asked any questions about my past. Just assumptions and facility recommendations.

I can understand the BPD talk. After all this, you’d think I’d be worried about myself but nope. All I want to do is see my boyfriend but his parents put him in a psych ward. I believe that was completely unnecessary but what do I know.

I just don’t know how to cope. I just want this numbness to go away. I scare myself when I feel this way.

Doesn’t help that I’m trying to get sober. It’s day fucking 3 and I’m so fucking tired. I’m such a disappointment. I’m lonely and so hurt. It feels like nothing can help me right now. I’m so desperate. Desperate to the point of posting on REDDIT.

Hey Reddit people, can you tell me it’ll get better? I don’t want to off myself but I don’t want to feel this pain either.