Paper Flowers For Adrian
Paper Flowers For Adrian
One second is one sand pebble
Underneath our feet which tremble
Chornobyl rain spears onto my eyes
They grope my charred hands, and I stumble
I saw a boulder coming towards me
You firm my knees
It's my fault, darling
I was trying to stop time
I granted minutes to rush by
It's hard to breathe for the two of us
I switch the lights, touching the cold floor
Opening the front door to the porch
Staring at that ocean with the moon as a torch
The stars spell out your name
Now you name them!
Yes, name them all!
Every star accounted for
Whatever your sweet pure heart pours
There's no poor choice of words
My daughter, it's your turn
Empty bedroom, nothing to look up to
The ceiling, I rip muscle to hold for you
To keep you from the impurities
Of this sick world, which made the earth’s air
Too thick to soar
Hairbrush is messy like usual
Your pink clothes
They are all unfolded on the floor
The stars have hidden themselves
Forevermore
\\\[The Phantom Weight\\\]
I dream that your soul still rests
On my broad and hairy chest
It's cold when we stroll down the beach
It's me imagining and letting it be
I'm not the only one, and I don't know
Who'll be the last
With my toes in the sand
With you in my hands
As I feel your heartbeat breathing
It's almost like—like you never left
The doctor gave you two years
He gave me something to mourn
Pumpkin pie, you lived four more!
From then on, you bet I took every chance
To grave your precious laughs
With open palms; there's no halt for a dad
Behind the shore, as I break my twelve bones
The sun will get to know me once more
My child, people still wonder why I chose you
Over birth
If I already knew you'd be gone soon
We don't have to explain ourselves, it's proof
As I make your bed that I'm reminded
That there's still much work to do
Would you cry if I told you—I miss you
Would you sigh if I told you—I need you
Would you get mad if I said—I love you
Would you be sad if I said—I want you
Will I be able to recognize you in paradise?
Will your voice stay the same?
Will your face look like mine?
Will I even be there in the first place?
So, while I’m still here, I make
Paper flowers next to your picture frame