I feel a strong sense of not belonging anywhere or with anyone.
This is so upsetting idk what to do. I try to meet new people every weekend. I downloaded an app that allows you to meet new friends through different meetups. Today I was at a meetup with new people (there were around 11 of them), and I couldn't relate to any of the conversations I heard. not emotionally, not experientially. In the end, I just got muted and couldn't talk. I was just sitting silently, and I hate myself when this happens. I left the event with a huge sense of self-disappointment, just like I always do. This is so embarrassing ;(