u/Worldly-Grand-679

i just need this to get out of my feelings. Im the person who download dating app such grindr, bumble , or tinder cuz bored lng ako and i need distraction or entertainment. This is the problem, sinabihan ako nang friend ko na im a red flag and naglelead lng ako and if ma satisfy na yung need ko and di ko na need nang ka chat for distraction of entertainment lumalabas ako na walng pa alam. pero nag sabi ako na" they will just move that how life, everyone will just move on". sinabihan nyo ako na gago daw ako and i need a therapy. Maybe im really is a horrible person and im just making people an entertainment, kasi i recall and think about it and i think im really. this year, 4 person na yung ginanyan ko and not including this one. this one im not yet to reply and he chatted me like 9 hours ago,now i feel i need confess to him but im coward, gusto ko, pero ayaw ko. gets? and im finding the courage to reply but wla akong alam.

i feel like babatohin ako ni karma si huli nito, pero feel ko deserve ko namn.

TL;DR Im horrible person for leading someone and using them kung bored. my friend says i need therapy

basically the title

Can someone help me dicide, before i got my grades kasi i was thinking na mapua na ng ako kasi kala ko 2 gwa ko kasi i am not that good sa language subject. but when i got my grades i was suprised na i got 1.7 gwa ko which qualify for upd. the problem is, i cant decide natatakot ako kasi what if pumunta ako sa upd and di pumusa sa exam nila. i cant try again kasi naka gap year nako becuase of mental health. but if nakapasok ako sa upd, it will help my family tremendously(like super) kasi si ate mag papaaral sa akin if ever makapasok ako the money na dapat ma punta sa akin, mapupunta sa medication nang papa ko and my other younger siblings. and si mama di rin sya mka provide kasi sya mostly nagbabayad nang bills namin and di ga ano kalaki sahod ni mama. Natatakot din ako kasi i dont know the upd exam di ako nag try nang shs kasi sabi ni ate g12 daw kinukuha ung exam UP which is super tanga ko and bago pa lng ako dito sa manila so wala talaga akong alam, i was super naive. so wla po akong exeperience and kung aaply ako wla akong alam and di ako nag review kasi di ko talaga(but right now im currently reviewing like grabi) para po ako ngayon tanga kasi wla po talaga akong alam sa future ko and sabi nila super competiteve daw nang up transferees huhuhu like super. and kung upd ako di ako nakapasa wla na po akong maisip sa future ko huhuhuhu, pero kung mapua ko i think i can do it but its the money po huhuhu. thank you po for reading huhuhuhu. Need ko talaga advice nyo po like all you can give, it might be harsh or kung ano man dyan, i will take that advice seriously.

Idk why i got queued in gold lobbies but i was stomped. why does riot has this system and hide it? i also played dota 2, they have mmr but atleast you know it. Why cant they just use Rank rating cuz sometimes i got confused when youre getting headshot and think "Damn this ronze lobby is very good" when in fact im actually in gold lobbies.

if you want to search my tracker here: https://tracker.gg/valorant/profile/riot/blepps%239845