nameposting
I've been realizing that I'm almost definitely Trans over the past few months, so, now that im comfortable with my pronouns (she/they) I decided to try and change my name, at least within my friend group and stuff. After like two weeks of deciding, I picked Evergreen. The only problems are that A) it feels kinda like a mouthful sometimes, though I tell people to shorten it to Eve or Ev B ), It still feels somewhat unnatural, but I think that could be solved if I could fix C), nobody actually calls me it. I have exactly one friend that remembers to do it IRL and one who can sometimes remember it over the internet. I know all of these people online, have my DC (how we communicate) set to literally have my chosen name, yet like nobody tires. I even try to like nudge them in the right way every now and again, but that hardly works.
I dunno, Its just... I like my chosen name, but its not similar to my birth name like so many of the trans people I personally know, so it takes longer for both me and the people around me to get used to it. It lust sucks. That along with all of the other sources of dysmorphia feels like its starting to just slowly wither at me. it just sucks. all the goddamn time.
I'm hoping to try and start presenting more fem over this summer and get my teachers to start calling me the right name & pronouns next schoolyear, since I'm changing buildings, but idk, especially I live in one of the reddest/antitrans states in the US. To the point where it was one of the four states to immediately fold when the orange starting telling the states to make lists of trans kids.
Did anyone else have struggles with their chosen name originally? Did it get better with people actually using it, or did you end up changing it again?
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