I don't understand anything.
Life keeps contradicting me, I'm a religious person and I try my best to be a good one. I help the community and people in need as best when I can. I try not to hurt other feelings, I am reasonable, understanding, sympathetic and compassionate. I mean surely someone like this deserve at least one good thing in their life right? Nope! Every single fucking time I try to do something that will help me either for the mental side or the future side, for whatever reason it doesn't work out. I can understand if something doesn't work for me. like I try to be optimistic about it (maybe it was gonna end in a bad way...) but every single time is too much, and I'm tired of acting like I'm ok. because nothing ever ended in a good way or worked out in a good way and this is just so tiresome and now I have those thoughts about ending it all. if y'all have experienced this or you have a solution tell me so I can be patient about it.