u/YeetedDandelion

I'm not perfect and it seems you may be looking for a specific kind of perfect. A performer with the ability to carry you into stability and love where you feel it's missing.

Your standard is understandable, I just don't know if I can fill those pot holes for you.

I'm very romantic and I nurture my loyalty in one man, but to be chosen is not simply to be seen. It's to move towards the gentle pull of the breeze where the unknown carries a future and challenges to overcome. I enjoy challenges, my heart too has been broken, but I no longer desire to feed an ego. I want to thrive like the unwavering ecosystems of life.

I am slow to complete, slow to grow, as I prepare my steps and surrender parts of glow into darkness to guide peace and balance.

If I'm not what you need then let your eyes fall to the floor and release the tips of your fingers from the gentle touch of my body. It's okay, I'm sure you'll find a better soul. A fitted image, an exciting dance,a love you'll call my best chance.

All I wish is for you to keep that smile. Because that smile and those gentle eyes, those hands of story. They are what makes you the man that I'll carry on as I'm growing into shadows of yesterday.

I Love you G., Be happy,

Anj

Hello G.

I'm terrified of how I continue to move forward with you by my hips.

I feel this surge of fear, but when you're there when I meet your eyes I feel the comfort of something naturally forming into security and resilience.

From afar I feel this trembling in my heart that I am unfit or perhaps in over my head. Your simple love and respectful protection makes me wander around the room asking can I be what you need? Will I be capable of providing you with all I know I want to? Would I be good enough? Even with my flaws? When you correct me I feel the rush of failure and insecurity but then a sudden realization hits that as you carry your words with gentle stern. I hear the care, the desperation,and fear. Who are you G. What can your story tell me about the man underneath? Would you teach me his name as I grow and fall? I trust you and value your opinion more than you know. So much so my insecurities begin to question and my heart asks me to push away the darkness and come back into the light.

If it was easy, I would have never known survival. But some part of me wonders if you have stopped to look into your own eyes and asked for kindness. Asked to be held or do you restrain your torment for the sake of never falling again, never allowing yourself rest, because if you do, no one will grace you.

I will grace you G. may my fears shoot to a 1000 circuits of doubts. I will grace you. I am here now.

Rest in my arms the weight of your battle is that of a feather to my heart.

~ A.

I feel like it's taboo and honestly unsure if the action to say it would be selfish or just relief.

My reasoning to say it, because it's exhausting and I don't want it in my head anymore. It may make things uncomfortable, but I am okay with knowing I have these feelings and not making it into anything more than acknowledging they exist. Could we be adults about it? Idk.

Do I break my rule and just come out the, **"I won't tell you I like you closest."** to respect him because Idk if he's with someone or not or should I just go for it to relieve the stress of it all.

He may have feelings for me too, do I ask if he does?

Wonder if he's wondering if I do too.

I haven't been single in years, I'm unsure how to approach this situation and it's become stressful.

Send me a sign life. I don't want anymore sleepless nights.

(He's my supervisor)

I feel like it's taboo and honestly unsure if the action to say it would be selfish or just relief.

My reasoning to say it, because it's exhausting and I don't want it in my head anymore. It may make things uncomfortable, but I am okay with knowing I have these feelings and not making it into anything more than acknowledging they exist. Could we be adults about it? Idk.

Do I break my rule and just come out the, "I won't tell you I like you closest." to respect you because Idk if you're with someone or not or should I just go for it to relieve the stress of it all.

You may have feelings for me too, do I ask if you do?

Wonder if you're wondering if I do too.

I haven't been single in years, I'm unsure how to approach this situation and it's become stressful.

Send me a sign life. I don't want anymore sleepless nights.

:)

Hi

I've changed a lot since we first met, I have become more bold, more forward, more comfortable, and more me.

You are the reason,Thank you.

Though I know we may not remain connected soon. I really really appreciate you and everything you allowed me to explore, express, become curious of and even allowed me into your vulnerability. All this helped strengthen who I am now and though I don't want to lose this connection, I know that you are a piece of my life and heart forever moving forward.

I really will miss you. The future is never truly real until the hours of its becoming.

I look forward to spending that future with you around my bubble and really hope you see the value in our company as the weeks pass. I can't wait to see you on Tuesday, though not sure you will be there so early in. I have a feeling I might run into somebody we both know that day as I believe she's the one causing that smile to show up on your face last Friday.

Be careful with your heart okay, I know you both mean well but I just have a feeling you'll end up back in a hurtful state if you don't create boundaries around her. I care too much to see you hurting again after so much we shared together to lift your heart.

If we do end up staying connected I truly can't wait to get to know you better and talk more about our days and even talk about our Interests more deeply. I would like to be there for you on those tough days too. You know I will always stand by you. :)

Soon we will talk and I'm going to clear the air about the hug we had two weeks ago. I want you to know that I feel completely safe with you. I'm not sure if there is anything you could do to make me feel unsafe as I completely trust you and know you carry very deeply your heart and its need for safety I'm here to hold it. So know you are welcome to rest in my arms. I got you.

I hope to move forward into having better communication with you and for you to not be afraid of me, I am not going to hurt you. I care so deeply for you and if you ever do move too close to guards and fences that are in place for my boundaries, I promise I'll let you know. Just know you've made me feel nothing but safe and I hope you feel the same about me.

Goodnight Gentle Giant.

Miss you.

Anj

It started with the simple mistake of laundry day and shuffling out the door. I didn't even know you were there Greg. I remember walking in and feeling unprepared, I remember telling myself, well everyone dresses like this now ah who cares right? WRONG!

Everyone stared and I remember there was a man who saw me and stopped just to look at me, that man was you. I remember thinking you were cute but was so caught up in my head that I barely acknowledged you.

That's when the chaos unfolded with your friend. He had an incident due to my wardrobe failure and I'm pretty sure he told you all about it. He practically shoved me into your space to make sure he didn't have another incident.

I remember your stern angry face looking at me the following meet. I swear you hated me but came to find you were fighting yourself.

It was a dead give away when my favorite girl saw you coming down and said to you, "She's all yours," you instantly placed your head down and smiled.

I knew then that maybe your staring and hovering wasn't just curiosity but I question it now because of the distance you keep creating. It's hurting me to feel you far from me when you've consistently been so close.

We haven't spoken our feelings and after the way you held me and buried your face into my hair and neck I feel like you panicked and became avoidant seeking refuge in other women's company.

It truly hurts but I'm not jealous because what I want isn't confined to limitations but carried by the connection of something deeper I wished you could feel and if you do. I wish you'd tell me so or let me go.

I love you Greg may you find yourself unknowing. I hope you don't let us go. I hope you don't give up on our connection. I already miss you. I haven't spoken up myself because I'm afraid that if I do I'd lose you as a friend. What did that hug tell you that scared you Greg?

Please help me understand you. All I can do now is stand by and respect the distance you are creating but I wish you'd give me a clue of where we stand now. And if you let me in and the fear is strong with pain because you're afraid I'll only hurt you I'll only leave. Know if you'd ask I would stay, and for now I will stay in the way that loves you from your boundary. I feel so conflicted. Whatever you choose I just wish for you to be happy Greg.

Goodnight, wherever you are.

Hey there it's been a long time, I've created so many different accounts and deleted them throughout a whole year hoping one would find you but they never did.

I miss you, a big part of me always felt safe with you and always felt loved and cherished. I miss how we could literally talk for hours and still couldn't stop ourselves from talking. I didn't just lose someone I loved but a best friend.

I met someone after my recent birthday but not sure if things will work out. It's been complicated and we both understand what that was like. My life keeps changing and adjusting to new things. I left my open marriage and now I'm single but still living with my co-parent for kids stability and economic wise. We are still friends and both know we are better fit as friends then partners.

It's been tough picking up all the pieces of what was and trying to figure out my future. I feel a bit paralyzed by it all.

I miss hearing from you. I miss our conversations and your constant sharing and music interests. I miss talking about our lives and there was so much more I feel like we didn't have time to share. Everything happened so fast and if you ever came back I know my heart well enough to know I wouldn't be able to stop smiling.

One year and four months.

I still remember it like it was yesterday. I carry your half face in my books as a reminder of that loving and safe protection you enveloped onto me. I still love Replicas Beach Walk. Smells amazing and i still use it for comfort.

I miss you so much D. I hope you're doing well and everything has improved in your life. No I haven't forgotten you. And I know I never will. Wherever you are hug princess tightly for me tonight and know wherever you are I'm still right there beside you cheering for your success, your lab papers, and your family stability. Still the girl you called Linda with a little more growth and still sees the cute bubbles surrounding your Chulo face. Remember the scarf in the winter, they get cold too.

Strange to not have you here

Strange to know you had to disappear

Strange that I found love

Strange it never shows up

Strange knowing I still miss us

Strange trying to move on

Strange I still care if you're traveling with a pillow or got to have peanuts

Strange that I wonder if you've got all you wanted

Strange still looking for that pop up message saying good morning

Strange that hot chocolate isn't the same

Strange that two weeks made history I still can't shake

Strange weather reminds me of that day

Strange you still make me feel safe

Strange that I wonder if you feel the same

Strange to think we could have been more than just

Strange

Squared as fool, one hit twice, in trenches of this love.

Morning mist falls upon facade as I seek its trial.

Damning blue skies, heavenly nined with hints of tormented lead.

It is agony piercing like medical history creeping into healing wounds.

Touch as soft feathers with striking scents.

Climaxing nerves into suspense, drafting love letters to plumes of smoke.

Sheltered clouds, angels stored away secretly far from earthless bind.

Comfort rare, unknown.

Gourmet is its core.

Peel back and let me glow!

Peel off engraving throw!

Squared as tool, twice hit three, in trenches of this love.

Could you say it?

Bombs drop, echoes penetrate behind bewildered souls.

Cry soliciting! I cannot bear it no more!

Tired eyes, kindness leaning on a pole.

Let it show, blood streaming, river of gold.

Can we deny medical needs, remedies of yesterdays, todays feed?

This trench.

This love.

Life collapsing upon our graces.

Scream!

Scream into my lungs betrayal!

Grab my trench coat, pull me in, and scream out this birthed name!

In trenches of this love!

Trenches of this love.

Hello Beautiful Handsome man,

Can't stop thinking about our embrace, Can't stop thinking about your lips holding my gaze.

If I could touch you just once I'd place my fingers in the pockets of your fingers and caress the stubble of your warm cheeks.

I've deeply fallen for you. The way your eyes pierce into my shadows. All I want is to live in that ocean view. To live within calm waters bracing my chest tightening arms and the scent of your blanketing chest.

You are the fever I ask to remain, my love lay your head upon my shoulder. Let your breath fault upon my neck and stay with me. Stay with me.

Maybe.

Delicate delivery of your scented candle, feverish climax of your pencil shavings

Grant me your eternal sensory

Pierce Into Me

Pale blue grey shaded carousels

Gold Reef Everlong Gaze Offloading Rotation Yearly

Pierce Into Me...

I would like to stay friends, but I feel conflicted and keep wondering if he has feelings.

He is divorced dad but told me he has a girlfriend he lives with. I don’t know the full story just that he lives with her and her two kids and his kids also live with them.

The first time we met, he was staring at me hard, and he even looked upset. This confused me because I had never met him before.

Later that week, we were working together on the floor, and we were in close proximity. I was fixing my hair, and he caught me off guard because he gave me that same stern, annoyed stare. I started feeling embarrassed because I thought my hair was messy, and he wouldn’t stop staring. I asked him if something was in my hair, and he didn’t stop staring. He didn’t talk or move for what felt like forever. I waited, thinking he’d snap out of it, but he didn’t, so I tried to move the subject to work. Then he stopped like it never happened and refocused on work.

I honestly thought he hated me at first because he was always sighing around me and getting frustrated. But after some time passed, we started actually talking, and he seemed more relaxed, though the constant observing didn’t ever stop after becoming friends.

He would eavesdrop on my conversations with colleagues and literally move his head forward to listen in.

One time, I was teamed up with another guy, and the guy made me laugh and was being charismatic with me. A few moments later, he pulled the guy aside, and he looked like he was scolding him. I didn’t know what they were talking about and couldn’t hear, but the guy I was working with came back and stopped being so charismatic, keeping things very work-based after that.

Some days, my guy friend would avoid me altogether and avoid looking at me, but most days, he’d catch me at specific hours of the day to talk and chat. At work, I’m usually doing everything routinely, so there are moments of the day when I am more available to talk, and that’s when he would come by. I figured it was just friendly, but he’s been acting stranger lately.

He’s been pacing around me with his hands in his pockets when we talk and won’t make eye contact. He won’t sit still unless he is trying to explain something to me, and then he sits close next to me. But I figured the sitting close to me was normal, as he does this with everyone and he’s very social.

Every time I enter the room, he starts rubbing the back of his neck or gets distracted.

Our other colleagues, whom he associates with, giggle or smile at me every time I get in for work. One even got annoyed with him because he showed up while we were working on something. She told him, “She’s all yours,” annoyed, rolling her eyes, and walked off. He put his head down and slightly smirked, then casually came over to see how things were going.

He’s been respectful, and we casually talk about life and personal things, but it never crosses into anything flirty or serious. We help each other out when we need it at work, but when we have to do anything that will cause us to touch, he avoids it, even if it’s necessary. He’ll just show me instead and have someone else help me.

A part of me wants to say it’s nothing and that he is just a nice guy, but I feel like I’m just hoping things don’t get complicated because I really enjoy our friendship and prefer not to cause problems in his personal intimate life.

Do you guys think he has feelings for me, or am I just overthinking it?

And if you do, should I distance myself a bit or just leave things alone since he hasn’t flirted or said anything?