Why do I have such a hard time trusting people and their expertise?
Doctors, our veterinarian, our exterminator, literally everyone who is supposed to know what they’re doing. I continue to doubt and doubt and doubt and try to figure things out on my own because, surely, it’s not over/it can’t be that easy/this is the exception, etc.
Latest example is that despite our dog being on a flea preventative sincere we got him, I have found a few fleas on him over the last couple of weeks. No infestation, just a few fleas.
We took the dog to the groomer for a flea bath, gave him a new preventative that the vet suggested, called our exterminator to come treat the yard because I believe that’s where he’s picking them up. Our landlord agreed to treat the yard regularly for now on.
We vacuum multiple times a week and have been washing all bedding/toys. For just a few fleas, this could be seen as extreme.
And that’s still not enough for me. In my head, I’m thinking, “There must be more I should do. It’s only going to get worse if you don’t act now.”
The exterminator can’t come until the rain goes away, and it’s supposed to rain all week. I can’t help but try and think of temporary things I can do in the meantime that we’re not already doing.
I do this all the time. I drive myself absolutely insane about problems that aren’t really even problems yet, and may not ever be. I just can’t wait and see. I can’t trust what other people tell me. And not just about this, about everything.
It’s ruining my life.
tldr; No matter how many reassurances I get from experts, it’s not enough. Even if I do everything in my power that I can do in the moment about an issue, I can’t rest until it’s completely resolved.